VISIT 2 • Everyone Chooses Their Own Path

Chapter from the book by Tatyana M. “On the Other Side of the Material World” (An Essay of the Experience Which I Really Had).

Ah, summer! Again, I “flew” to this city to my friends, to plunge into the world of love, joy and harmony!

A shower of rain after long hot weather, and a welcome freshness filled the air. I enjoyed breathing it in deeply. A huge rainbow appeared in the sky, it was visible from both ends, not hidden somewhere behind the clouds, showing off in its entirety. I felt behind my back wings of freedom! I rushed to meet my happiness, to meet the Divine Love!

I met happily with Anna. Now, in the aspects of smiles and laughter, I was not inferior to her!

She warned me to be ready for not only very interesting and good news, but also sad news as well.

As it turned out, the one couple who stayed distant from me, were forced to leave the team. The reason for this was that the mistakes they performed were incompatible with spiritual advancement: they cultivated a sense of infallibility in their actions, and gross errors in their spiritual service — despite Vladimir’s attempts to reason with them… Instead of repenting and reparation, their pride took them away from God.

They began to lose their previous developments: God took away their ability to meditate… Old chronic diseases came back and became acute…

Joint meditations with them became impossible due to the loss by them of the collective’s emotional subtlety… Also the consciousnesses developed rudeness…

Their emotional confrontation to Vladimir then began, now they blamed Vladimir in their troubles, but not themselves…

“Ten years side-by-side with each other… We reached together almost the top — and they fell back down… And this turns out to really be, happening on the peaks of the Spiritual Path…” — the only thing that I could think of at that moment.

… I remembered our farewell, when I saw them last time. We embraced, and I was glad that the wall between us broke down… They seemed to me, in that brief moment, as warm and loving… I told them: “I will be back!”…

But their response caught me by surprise: I expected at least smiles to my playful “pathos of farewell”… But… I clearly saw in their eyes only sincere confusion… Why?! I could not understand it…

We were sitting a little longer with Anna in the light haze of sadness… and “let go” of this theme. To each — their own way… Everyone chooses it for him/herself…

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VISIT 1 • “Photograph for Memory”

Chapter from the book by Tatyana M. “On the Other Side of the Material World” (An Essay of the Experience Which I Really Had).

Now I recall the final episode narrated in a shooting of the last film, created by the group of Vladimir:

Nearly all of the Holy Spirits Who participated in the filming gathered around Vladimir — as if for a collective “photograph for memory”. Then Vladimir laughed:

“Juan Matus rushed in: He says that He, too, wants to get into the frame!…”

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VISIT 1 • Bliss in the Face of Ptahhotep

Chapter from the book by Tatyana M. “On the Other Side of the Material World” (An Essay of the Experience Which I Really Had).

I studied all the films that were created by Vladimir’s group. While watching one of them, in which Vladimir lectures about Ptahhotep*, I suddenly felt very strongly His Presence around my body. I even paused in delight: such waves of joy and happiness were filling me! I felt like I was… in His Face…

This was so unexpected: with me here and now — one of the Divine Atlanteans!… And we, it turns out, were already acquainted!

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VISIT 1 • The ‘Pure Love’ of Sathya Sai Baba

Chapter from the book by Tatyana M. “On the Other Side of the Material World” (An Essay of the Experience Which I Really Had).

Somehow my school-friend came to me: she was bored on this day. She wanted to do something, for example, to watch another action-movie. But I was not pleased with this idea, moreover, nothing new was recorded. Then she invited me to see what I could find for myself. Here, too, of course, I had to give up, inventing an “excuse”. But she jokingly insisted. Then I decided that, once the person wishes so, there must be something to show. And I switched on the film about Sathya Sai Baba, which I myself never saw yet. This was the film “Pure Love”.

… I do not know how to describe in words the fullness of the Living Love that Sathya Sai Baba gave… I can only suggest to experience it — yourself! I was too afraid to move, to breathe: only desiring not to leave this state, to keep it as long as possible!…

My friend viewed silently and seriously the entire movie, though she was usually very sarcastic and enjoyed commenting on all…

Then I offered her the book of Dr.Samuel Sandweiss “Sathya Sai Baba: The Holy Man and the Psychiatrist”. She willingly took it.

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VISIT 1 • I Will Kiss David Copperfield!

Chapter from the book by Tatyana M. “On the Other Side of the Material World” (An Essay of the Experience Which I Really Had).

… Our conversation, in which I expected the commentary of Vladimir about the photos, began with an unexpected note.

He suddenly announced that two hours ago, David Copperfield asked him to take care of me… And David talked about me as about His daughter! And in those photos, were David and Sarkar!

I was trying to understand and “digest” this incredible information.

I — the daughter of David Copperfield?! Come on!… That is — as it is?! In what sense?… We are really all — the children of God… But I — the daughter of David?!…

I ran around the room. Sat again. Stood up. Sat down again. Calmed down. Carefully read again what I wrote to Vladimir. Became lost in a reverie.

This was too much to think about further right now… I decided to continue thinking about that later.

Began to read in the ‘Classics’: Who is — Sarkar?

I read from His autobiography:

“In that incarnation I became a fakir. I could easily ignite with the Consciousness any flame: from physical fire — to the Divine one. I showed Divine mysteries as illusions: in this regard, David Copperfield and I are colleagues.*

“I had a wonderful companion and assistant in everything — My wife. She had a remarkable ability to feel the partner! It was a joy to work with Her for the public!… And it was a bliss to teach Her!…

“She became the mother of the dynasty of fakirs Sarkars…

“At present, She (or He, to be correct) is incarnate and continues the great work of developing the art of the Divine Magic of Love…”

My thoughts were chaotically jumping and knocking to each other.

I stopped in front of the photo of smiling David. Twisting a little faint-heartedly, I took it up and… clung it to my cheek.

“And to kiss?” — I suddenly heard clearly…

At first I thought that, apparently, it was my secret thought “broke out”.

But what if suddenly — no…?

I laughed a soft laugh at my own behavior. Well, for whom to retell such?! Who would understand? And what to say? I humbly looked at his photo, turning to it from one side, then — from another…

Of course, I usually did not keep myself in such a manner. But now — such an unusual situation… Because He really saw me through!… No way to hide my emotions of Him! He saw everything from all sides…

Well! That was good that You see!

I left in myself only all the best, that was in me, only all the most beautiful and clean… and finally decided, and… — kissed!…

We laughed afterwards together for a long time!

… I just could not look at Him without smiling — even though I did not obtain the same wide and fascinating smile.

But I soon understood that all this was only a joke: actually I should kiss not a photo, but He Himself.

Vladimir promised to give me this opportunity…

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VISIT 1 • Fire Meditations

Chapter from the book by Tatyana M. “On the Other Side of the Material World” (An Essay of the Experience Which I Really Had).

A very interesting and meaningful event for me occurred in my apartment.
Each time, preparing for meditation, I switched on the music.
And under the gentle Indian motifs, I began to create images of rings, which consisted of the Divine Fire — to work through the body most effectively. I was helping by bodily movements to twist the fire hoop so that it could climb onto one leg. Then the other hoop — on the other. At some point the hoops merged at the level of muladhara and svadhisthana — and then the combined hoop raised along the whole body. Then I added a few fiery hoops on one hand, then — on the other… The images of hoops expanded up to some meters… I walked them through the body in different directions… — and was completely absorbed in the Light-Fire!
This was easy for me, creating these images: as a child, I loved to be engaged in similar exercises. It was true, of course, — with only one hoop. I twisted the hoop around the waist, around the neck… And was once so absorbed by this activity that I did not notice when the hoop flew away from my neck… but I continued the rotational movement of the body, immersed in any of my thoughts. That time “I came to myself” — only when I heard that other children laughing at me. I then felt very ashamed and in future I became very vigilant in respect to such “mental flights” of mine.
… When the music became slower and quieter, there appeard images of small lights, burning on the palms. I conducted these lights through the body from one hand to another — just as the fiery “suns” at the place of power of Juanito. But now I let them swim also through my legs and through the whole body, gradually increasing their number and trying to hold my attention on each of them. I delayed them for a time on my palms, then — on every leg, then on the head — and kindled them more and more.
And then — the torches were in my hands, I deftly rearranged them, tossed, placed into the chest — so that the fire blazed in the neck and head.
I felt like a dancer and fakir — all into one. I entertained the public under the open night sky. My lights — are like material, and they can be seen by everyone!
The Fire gradually filled whole my body, and — it was already shining with white Flame which was very soft…
… And now the music became energetic, the call to battle, to exploits was heard in it! My Fire burned stronger, higher, I wanted to give it enormous speed… I was hyping It up around the vertical axis! I twisted It — with such force that It was no longer the Fire, but as a huge Tornado, based in the depth and raised up, carried all the unnecessary, all the energy junk contained in me — and I disappeared in the Fire Tornado…
… Music became again calm, quiet… The Fiery Tornado disappeared. But my body is shining with white, pure Fire. I do not strain to maintain this image. The Fire shines on its own.
I wanted to raise my hands up, I raised them up — and the Light was pouring like  from large white sleeves. White birds flew from them… The air was filled with Light, like drops that float up from the depths spreading all around… And then the buds of tender and sweet fragrance of blooming flowers — pale-pink, purple, white — appeared from the hands… They were spinning in space, dancing with me to the music, slowly float away… Hands themselves became wings… Flap… One more flap… Golden light began to sparkle…
… Music was changing, becoming more mysterious… My body was transparent, it was as only a faint shell… I was — in God… We were One…
… I then fell down on the floor…
The air around — as if charged, its transparency was Alive. I understood that, despite the inherent for me certain level of capacity for imagination, I could not create by myself such a sequence and potency of images. Here — Someone is! I got up, took the camera, and, feeling where the epicenter is, I asked the Holy Spirit to pose for me — so as to show then photos to Vladimir.

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VISIT 1 • My Own Search for Places of Power

Chapter from the book by Tatyana M. “On the Other Side of the Material World” (An Essay of the Experience Which I Really Had).

At home, I already began to meditate the next day. Those were the exercises, which can be practiced not at natural places of power, but in apartments. Maenuel’s meditations were the best in such a cases. Anna had recorded for me special music — for the attunement of the spiritual heart. I switched it on — and immediately noticed that all meditations with it became much more efficient!
… And then, just in the first weekend, I rushed to survey the nearest parks to search for places of power.
At first, I focused on the pleasurable sensations that were appearing and disappearing during my moving along park roads.
So, on the edge of a small cliff, which was overlooking the city center, it was pleasant to stretch the consciousness up over the pines. This place of power was only a few meters across. And around this place — the feeling was quite normal.
I went on, enjoying the peace and the shining of morning sun.
Examining one of the paths, I began to feel a change in energy. There was a clear feeling of the presence of Divine Someone. I walked by the path few times, forth and back — but was not able to make any definite conclusions about the possibilities of this place. But then, where the path was set off by high dense firs, my feelings near one of those trees was much more intense. This was the epicenter of the place. Here I was filled with joy from all sides. This joy was raising from the multidimensional depth. It was very easy to go here, my legs were barely felt. I began to try the exercises that were presented by Maenuel. But at some point, the thought came to my mind, it was not exactly mine: I need not try to repeat what I already knew, but to listen and receive the information which will appear here and now.
I heeded. And then — there were balls of white flame-like Light under my feet. They began to swim slowly up through my body.
I started to perceive very well the Holy Spirit — Divine Woman helping me.
When fatigued, I did not feel anymore the wishing to continue the work. But it was simply nice to be in the state of Her blissful pampering.
… I thanked both Holy Spirits and photographed their places the power to send to Vladimir. (He later replied that he was not acquainted personally with the first of those Holy Spirits Who really is at the first place. And on the second place, near the fir trees, — there is the joy of the Divine Woman; he now also cannot recognize Her, but I can learn to merge with Her.)

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VISIT 1 • Meeting with Sathya Sai Baba

Chapter from the book by Tatyana M. “On the Other Side of the Material World” (An Essay of the Experience Which I Really Had).

We had a long talk in the evening with Anna. I tried to explain everything for myself, to place necessary emphases. I asked for advices about my parents, friends… and suffered with the thought: what temptation can force me to abandon the Path? For example, what “earthly” casual, passing love can overshadow God for me? What cozy “nest” or material wealth can bring to me happiness more than the Eternal Love with the Main Beloved? That wealth, which I had already received, it is the only thing for which I would like to fight and live for!
… Anna offered me the opportunity to go to the place of power of Sathya Sai Baba in the morning before I left. That place was not far from her home. She added that her house has the wardship of Him, and the houses of others of us — of Adler, Babaji, Kayr… And He — Sathya Sai Baba — is now sitting here with us and listening.
I gladly accepted!

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        In the spring morning sun, we walked through the city.
In the square, I felt how I “fluttered up” by a Mahadouble. We approached the tree, near which Sathya Sai Baba was felt with special intensity. I melted into bliss, passing this place up and down about fifteen times. People were only few this morning, and we tried not to attract their attention.
“One day,” — Anna said, — “I saw how Sathya Sai Baba was playing with the children. Heavy rain has passed, and worms had crawled out of the earth — onto park roads. And He touched with His Hands the anahatas of children — and the children enthusiastically saved these animals, transporting them from the roads to the grass.”
Anna suggested to me to try to fill the Mahadouble of Sathya Sai Baba: beginning with His Face, and then — to dive back out of His Anahata into the depths of multidimensionality. And then — to feel the infinite Ocean of the God’s Consciousness…
From this meditative journey I had even a little dizziness. Anna said that it was — normal, and then I will learn to “dive” deeper…
We walked around the area, went to the river. She showed where the Mahadoubles of Vladimir, of Adler are… But the departure time approached with every minute.
… We were sitting on a bench in silence during the last quarter of an hour.
So I was leaving.
How much remained to be done, how much to learn!… And how it was wonderful to live!

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VISIT 1 • Are You Afraid of the “Terrible Christ’s Judgment”?

Chapter from the book by Tatyana M. “On the Other Side of the Material World” (An Essay of the Experience Which I Really Had).

In parting, Vladimir, as always, smiling gently, but trying to portray as a joke-threat, said:
“If you come again to us, I will take you to the ‘terrible Christ’s judgment’! Does it scary you?”
“No: I now know on my own experience that ‘God is Love!’. You yourself have already personally introduced me to Him!”
“Okay! If so, you will have meetings here, in this, our area, with Huang Di, Apostles of Jesus Christ, Divine Sufis, and with many Others!”
“I will come! My life is now with all of you!”
“Amen!”

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VISIT 1 • Incest: Is It a Crime — or not?

Chapter from the book by Tatyana M. “On the Other Side of the Material World” (An Essay of the Experience Which I Really Had).

When we rode on the train along a large swamp, which was almost completely cluttered with debris, over which flocks of birds were circling, Vladimir drew our attention to it:
“Why so many birds of different species gathered there? There were the nesting grounds of their parents, as well as of many previous generations.
“There is an interesting phenomenon studied by zoologists: the imprinting of one’s own place of birth — for after seasonal or other migrations to return to breed in it. This phenomenon exists in birds, fish, aquatic mammals, and various invertebrates.
“Why does this occur? To have the best chances of finding partners for reproduction. This is necessary for sustaining different species of animals. And all healthy individuals, overcoming sometimes thousands of kilometers, find that same little piece of land, river, or sea, where they were born at! Birds are orientating during their transmigrations, being guided by the Earth’s magnetic field, the fish — also on the subtle nuances of the chemical composition of the water.
“But those individuals who were not able to do this because of their different pathologies — they are deprived of the opportunity to find many potential sexual partners. But they do not lose the possibility of leaving offspring completely: they can find at those ‘wrong’ places — other stray individuals. By this way new areas are adapted by animal species.
“So,” — Vladimir continued, — “when suddenly, after returning from a distance, the animals find their ecosystems disrupted, their breeding sites disappeared or it is impossible to get to them — it is very traumatic for such animals. Imagine yourself in their place: coming home after a long journey — but there is no home…”
After a little pause to give us time to think, he spoke again:
“This topic can also be viewed from another angle. I remember that, as children in school biology classes, we were taught that inbreeding — unacceptable! It is dangerous! Defective offspring is born of such relations! Even in the whole animal world, this does not happen!
“But, as we see, this is a complete lie: in the whole animal world just the inbreeding dominates! And not close couplings — that is the lot of the disabled.
“I am not preaching the incest among humans (i.e. sexual intercourse with close relatives). But there is a ban on it — not only in the ‘public morals’, but in the laws of some countries! And let everybody think independently: is it correct? Personally I — see that the medico-biological reasons for this prohibition are not,” — Vladimir concluded.

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