Quite a Bit about Death

Chapter from the book  “How God Can Be Cognized. Book 2. Autobiographies of the Disciples of God”  — Anna Zubkova.

“…The thing to do when you’re impatient is…
to ask advice from your death.
Immense amount of small things
with not much importance will then be dropped…
Death is… our wise adviser”.

Juan Matus [7,32]

God regularly reminded me about the death of the physical body, especially when I was loosing myself in the hustle of earthly affairs…

Vladimir often suggested to us to try to have no unfinished earthly affairs and earthly debts, whenever possible, — including also none material affairs. He suggested to us to live in such a way that if death was to occur right now — we would not be ashamed to die and that we would not have to look back around to see if we forgot something…

God was very skillfully “playing along” to help Vladimir in this.

God showed me the face of death even through the threat of surgery (which did not take place): suggesting to me to prepare for it as if I would not come out of narcosis… Or He showed the death of other people… Or was slightly hurrying me, directly reminding me that we do not live in our body forever — and that we should think about the things that are really important so that we have the time to get them done…

I will now tell you about one of these episodes. I had just started to study with Vladimir at that time, and was still working at the studio… One time I was running with a bunch of suits in my hands in the studio yard, and was in a hurry… — and at a turn I ran into a car, which fortunately was not moving very fast. On another occasion during winter, winter can be very slippery! I was hit by a car and slipped — and found myself under the car. The driver, whitened with fear because of this, got out and helped me get back on my feet, and was surprised to see that I seemed to be all right…

I thanked God for this lesson!… After all, He showed me — quite specifically and intelligibly! — that death can happen very suddenly — when we least expect it…

But, God sometimes reminded me of death even after that, so that I did not forget that lesson — and hurried me up: for me to understand how much is still to be done.

For example, my mother, who accompanied a female friend, ill with cancer, to the hospital, told me that the turns of cancer patients were similar there to the crowds in crowded buses during “rush hours”. And I remember how God had once showed me in a dream myself standing in such a “turn for death”… Another variant of a turn shown to me in the same dream was in a comic form — “a turn” of Those Who reached the Perfection in front of the entrance to the Abode of the Creator… I saw then immediately how little I had done myself on this Path… And also I thought how important it is to try to have time to do so much as possible for others could be in time to think about this…

… The illness and death of my mother’s friend taught me a lot.

I was deeply grateful to that woman who once, during my first steps in my confession of faith, taught me the Christian humility. She was a sincere and deeply religious human.

I then tried to give her the knowledge that I had gained at that time, but it did not turn out good. She, being an Orthodox, did not believe the things I was saying, did not accept my views, and did not want to read “sinful” books…

But, once, Jesus, speaking through me, promised her healing. But He was also asking her — in gratitude for this — to keep fasting: and that she should live, starting from now, on a meat-free diet for all of her newly granted life. He recommended to us to confirm that the healing really happened through repeating the tests and told her exactly the date when it should be done. Analyses were carried out — and a reply was received: there were no cancer cells anymore.

But she still did not believe Jesus! The opinion of the church turned out to be more important for her!

And then the cancer returned to her body…

One of the mechanisms of the manifestation of cancer — is the entering of souls of dead animals, killed and eaten, into the human body. These spirits create there “a nest” of cancer cells.

She died exactly one year later: at the very same day, in which — the year before — she was healed by Jesus…

She continued to accept with humility her fate until the last breath and strictly performed all the rituals and regulations of the church…

Imagine her shock, and confusion, when after the death of her body… she did not find herself in paradise! All did not turn out to be as the “pastors” promised her…

After she died, she came into my room. I had very little experience of communicating with undivine souls — and did not immediately notice her. She tried to draw my attention to her. I felt bad, stuffy because of this. I did not understand what was happening and only noticed her after a while.

I sharply felt the pain of this deceived soul… To calm her down somehow, I asked her to sit on a chair, which stood in the room. She hung in the air over it in a sitting posture…

I tried to help her as much as I could… I offered to her to recollect the most tender emotions of love, which she experienced in her life, the peace and transparent silence of the autumn after she was healed, when she heard for the first time in her life how leaves fall to the ground in silence… And she found peace… but the state of love, which has not been mastered by the soul during life of the body, can not be mastered after death…

But how much more she could have done, as a sincere and deeply-religious human, if…

I strongly understood at that moment what an obstacle it is to not have access to true knowledge about God, about the meaning of our lives! And how important it is to make this knowledge available to all people!…

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