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The Fourth Parable: Look over the Horizon!

March 18, 2018

Lao Tse continued His way.
That day He got up before the dawn and sat comfortably on the back of His good white donkey. His big-eared friend rested well all night and now was trotting merrily alone the path.
Soon they came to a beautiful place. It was the top of the gently sloping hill similar to a huge turtle shell.
Magnificent expanses opened in front of them!
The sunrise was visible from that place!
Lao Tse stopped to admire the beauty of the sunrise and got off His donkey.
The sun was rising slowly lighting up the misty remoteness with its gentle light…
Huang Di said:
“Yes, many thousands of years ago, people saw the sunrise like You now…
“But today I suggest You to start a new life with Me! To do this, You should know Me better!
“Be attentive to what I will offer You to do and feel Me all the time! Let Your arms of the spiritual heart embrace Your Teacher constantly! And the Teacher opens for a worthy disciple the passage into the worlds of the Transparent Calm and of non-material Fire-like Divine Light. This Light is similar in color to the light and tenderness of the morning sun that You are contemplating now.”

* * *

        “Look, there, in a distance, where the sky touches the earth, there is the line visible for the eyes but non-existent in reality. This is the horizon. You can try to approach it with Your material body, but in this way You will never get to the ‘end of the Earth’.
“However, this line can open for a worthy soul the passage into the worlds of Light — into those spaces where Te abides.
“If You look by the soul, formed of the spiritual heart, beyond the horizon of the material world — to that place from which the sun rises, this will open a passage into non-material world of subtlety and Light! This is the Divine Light!”
Lao Tse perceived himself as a soul free from “clothes” of the material body and found himself in that place where the Light is born! This Light rises as if from “the abyss behind the flat Earth”. In that “abyss”, in the depth, there is the Infinity of the Divine Light similar to a giant boundless Sun…
“What should I do now?”
“Jump into this Light!”
… The Infinite Light embraced Lao Tse… He submerged deeper and deeper in It — with the help of huge arms of the great soul… He became this Light — and looked from It, being It, to the direction where His material body was standing at the boundary between the world of matter — and the worlds of Te…
… Lao Tse made an effort and looked again through the eyes of His material body. He didn’t see the abyss… Only the rising sun was caressing and warming Him…
… Then He returned to the state of the meditation given by Huang Di. The shining Infinity appeared before Him. Having immersed in It and become It, He himself now could be the Source of the Living Divine Fire-like Light of Love!
… Trying not to lose this state, Lao Tse continued His way.

[to be continued]


The Third Parable: Listen to the Revelations of the Great Silence!

March 5, 2018

        Lao Tse was sitting motionless, leaning His back against a tree. Birds sat close to Him without fear and were pecking at rice from His dish. The white donkey was nibbling the lush grass nearby…
Lao Tse was sitting and listening to the Great Silence.
Sometimes this Silence became filled with the words of Huang Di.
He talked about Tao, difficult to comprehend for people immersed in worldly concerns:
“They do not know that everything here is created according to the Will of Tao and exists for It.
“If you talk with these people about Tao, they don’t believe you, because they believe only in what they see by their eyes and touch by their hands. But their eyes can’t see Tao yet, and their hands can’t touch It, since the eyes of the soul have to be open and the arms of the spiritual heart have to be obtained in order to see and touch Tao!
“Only if one is looking for the meaning of one’s own and universal existence — then Tao and Te reveal Themselves to this person. Such a soul then starts walking the Path, and, gradually, — as it makes spiritual efforts — the Great Invisible becomes visible, the Great Imperceptible becomes perceptible, the inaudible words become audible, and the Great Knowledge opens itself for understanding!
“The Appearances of the Immortals become evident only for the developed spiritual heart!
“There is a lot of different roads in a human lifetime. But only one leads to the worthy end of the evolution of the individual soul. This is the Path of cognition of Tao with the purpose of submerging into It, merging with It, and then acting from It!”
“Why haven’t I been able to recall anything for such a long time? I’ve been searching! I’ve been looking for the purpose of My life and of the lives of all other creatures… I’ve been looking for the causes of the injustices and evils that happen to people… I’ve been looking for that which, as it seemed to Me, could bring wisdom and peace and fill the internal emptiness with the boundless joy… But I haven’t succeeded, although I kept believing that there was the meaning for Me to live here…”
“It was necessary for You since it helped you to learn to understand other people that live only in the midst of the material things and endless bustle of events and desires. Even if some of these people want to find a way out, they don’t know where and how to search it. Having experienced their problems in Your own life, You can now help those who are searching the way to Me.”
“Yes, I’ve been looking for You all my life! I reread so many treatises, but haven’t found that one which would give me the opportunity to find You!”
“The spiritual Path starts in the spiritual heart of a seeker. Love, which is born there, stimulates the spiritual search and growth and allows seeing and choosing in life the reference points of Goodness, Wisdom, and Truth!
“I come to those who are searching and walking!
“I help those who aspire for the ethical purity!
“Man should avoid causing harm not only to an ant walking its way. Killing animals to eat their bodies is also causing harm. Surely, for man there is a lot of other — really beneficial — food! For example, growing and harvesting fruits and seeds, intended for nourishment, man doesn’t violate the harmony, doesn’t hurt anybody, and doesn’t sow death!…
“If someone kills animals or at least contributes to this, that person becomes similar to a wild predatory beast. Yet what is normal to the inner nature of a predator — is inappropriate for man! Human consciousnesses that live in this way descends to the lower stages of the Evolution, since they can’t perceive the subtlety and purity of Tao and Te!
“A large number of people honor their ancestors, but more simply constructed beings were also their ancestors. Each man grew — as a soul — in the bodies of plants and animals once! And it would be good for people to honor all positive manifestations of life, taking care of them and avoiding causing them unnecessary harm! Let this be the respect for ants, fish, birds, and all other peaceful incarnate beings!
“It was Tao That gave all them the opportunity to live on the Earth — for the sake of the development of the soul and the Evolution!
“The meaning of existence of everything in the Under-Heavenly World consists in that each soul gets an opportunity to grow and to perfect itself during an incarnate life. Having achieved the Perfection, such a human soul merges with Tao enriching It by itself. Therefore, Tao is directly interested in the situation when nothing hinders the development of every soul.
“Man claiming to be the successfully growing on the spiritual Path has to be guided by the kindness of the heart and choose for one’s life only those things that are right from the standpoint of Tao!
“In particular, this permits a person, following the principles of pure nutrition, to strengthen both the body and the soul, obtaining the clarity of the consciousness unobscured by coarse energies of pain and death!
“If that person sees wrong in other people, let he or she avoids interaction with them!
“Thus the purity of life, peace, and harmony in emotions are gained.
“There is a very simple rule for living in harmony with Tao: do good to others! And then the good in you and in the whole world will grow!
“In this way, gradually, the Treasure that doesn’t disappear with the death of the body accumulates in such a person.
“In this way, the soul gets accustomed to living in love.
“And in this way, the peace is multiplied among people.
“Those who accumulate good qualities — accumulate the real Wealth!
“Those who do evil — destroy the supports of the ladder which could help them to ascend ‘from the earth to the Heaven’!
“Yet the ethical perfection of a soul can’t be achieved immediately.
“To abstain from the evil and contribute to the good is the simplest beginning, appropriate for every person. It is easy to learn: don’t fan the fires of quarrel, forget offences, forgive, take care of others, doing the best you can for them…
“The ethical beauty makes a person valuable for Tao and pleasant for other people!”
“Huang Di! What You saying is really important!”
“Yes. And You will write a book about this!”
“How? I never wrote any books, I only kept the manuscripts of others!”
“I will help You! I will suggest to You ideas and formulate phrases! And You just don’t forget to listen to Me and write down the most important!
“You yourself should never insist that people follow My advice. Let everyone, having heard the truth, follow only one’s own understanding!
“You can’t prevent errors of the fools! You can’t stop the pride of the arrogant people! You can’t replace the knowledge of the idlers and loafers, who only speculate about the Path!…
“Only the reasonable people, having cognized the Truth, want to follow it! But even among them — You will not find many companions…
“Nevertheless, Your book about Tao and Te will be the source of wisdom for thousands of years! And everyone who is ready will be able to hear My instructions — as You hear them now! This is Your great service for Tao!

[to be continued]

The Second Parable: Build the Heavenly Palace in Your Spiritual Heart!

March 1, 2018

        Lao Tse was walking down the path slowly.
Invisible for strangers, His Teacher Huang Di was near Him all the time.
None of the casual passers-by could hear Their conversation.
And no one who observed Them could note anything unusual.
Lao Tse gradually was recovering His ability to see and hear His Master.
“How do You come here from the Abode of Tao?” — asked Lao Tse.
“This is easy!” — Huang Di laughed in response. — “This is much easier than to come in the Abode of Tao!”
Huang Di continued with a smile:
“Love unites so firmly that even the death of a body cannot break this union! All that we love — is securely stored in the memory of the soul!
“I remember You! And now You try to remember about the life with Me in Your past incarnation. Try to remember the Universal Home where All Those Who have cognized Tao obtain the Oneness!
“Anyone who at least once has entered into this Mergence in the Abode of All the Perfects retains this skill forever. And one day this memory will awaken the soul and call it again to stand on the Path leading to the Mergence with Tao and to the consolidation of this Mergence! Just as a river rushes to the sea, so such a soul, after being born again in the material world and matured there, rushes to the Boundless of Tao! These souls are looking for the Oneness, in which they find their Ultimate Happiness! And if we took all the pleasures of the material world and put them on a scale, they wouldn’t be able to match with this Greatest Happiness!
“The wise choose the Jewel of the Mergence with Tao! The wise prefers this Happiness to all the pleasures of the material world!”
“Could You recreate Your body — so I could embrace You?” — Lao Tse asked.
“I can do everything! But for You it will be better to embrace Me without Our bodies.

        Do this by the arms of the consciousness, of the soul! I’m not going to indulge You with the ‘miracles for the babies’! Soon You will recall everything, and the events that You now perceive as miracles will be Your usual knowledge and style of life.
“Meanwhile embrace Me tightly, My beloved!”
… Great Huang Di, in His Transparent Appearance, stretched out His Arms to embrace Lao Tse.
… Keenness of this touch of the Souls was much stronger than similar embraces with embodied people…
Now the Teacher and His Disciple merged as Souls.
Anyone who has experienced this — understands the importance of such an event.
And those who have not experienced it yet — can do this some day…
… Huang Di continued His lesson:
“Now recall what you should do to stay firmly in the Heavenly Palace, which You should create in Your middle dantyan. There — You can always see and feel Me!
“Always remember that the innumerable multitude of the material objects and the sequences of the events are just the outward manifestations of life. A human mind wanders from one external object or event to another. It looks at the past or dreams about the future… Still it’s possible to subdue the mind and to teach it to be in calm! For this, one needs to switch one’s attention from the external to the internal…
“This is possible when the mind is immersed in the middle dantyan, or, which is the same structure, in the chakra anahata.
“Then in that chakra, one can clear the space and create the Heavenly Palace of the soul. Only after this the Infinite Divine Consciousness called Tao can live there by the Part of Itself.
“In other words, the Heavenly Palace for Tao should be built in the vast depths of the human developed spiritual heart!
“And then one also can live in the inner chambers of this Palace — without grieving because of misfortunes and without rejoicing because of successes, but knowing the Base of everything — Tao!
“If You invite Me to this home, then I come there from My Home — the Abode of Tao. And I’ll come to You again and again until You yourself can come to My Home and settle in it forever! This is the Infinite Divine Home of all Te! There — all They are One, and this Unity is called Tao!
“So Your spiritual heart can become a home for Te, Tao, and You yourself!”
… Now Lao Tse began to submerge Himself in His spiritual heart consciously, and not spontaneously, as it had happened before during His contacts with Huang Di, when the emotions overfilled Him and the entire soul turned into love.
Yet at that moment, this area in His chest was not large and transparent enough…
Huang Di continued:
“Feel the arms of the soul, that is, the arms of the spiritual heart, which are consubstantial with it. You can use these arms to clean this space so that You can invite Me!
“You haven’t cleaned here for a long time. That is why, the inner chambers of the soul became like a house in which no one have lived for long time…”
… Huang Di left His disciple for a while, and Lao Tse began cleaning His inner chambers.
Soon they became like a crystal glass room shining like a diamond in the light!
“You worked well to be able to invite Me!” — Huang Di said manifesting Himself once again.
Then He continued:
“At the beginning, the spiritual heart may occupy little space. But the one who strives to merge with Tao should deepen it and then expand it again and again, trying to make it as infinite as Tao!
“Expand Your Heavenly Palace by the arms of the consciousness so that it can be decent to invite Me in it and You can contain as much of Me as possible!”
… Lao Tse pushed the transparent wall of His Heavenly Palace by His arms of the consciousness, and, oh wonder! — it yielded and moved easily towards the infinity… He did the same with all other walls, then with the floor, and then with the ceiling… He repeated this again and again, and soon the Freedom, the Expanse, the Light, and the Bliss were all around!…
“Now, this is truly the Heavenly Palace! — Huang Di said with approval. — “You’ve done it in a very short time, but You shouldn’t forget that for Your students it will be much more difficult. Some of them will need months for this work, if not years. Now I just have helped You to recall what You knew in Your former life on the Earth. That is why, it was possible to do all this so quickly and easily.”
“What should I do now? How should I live?”
“You should live with Me, recalling and studying further the Great Path!”
“And right now — where should I go?”
“Now — turn to the left. There You will buy for yourself a white donkey. Then You should gather writing instruments and set out on a journey. We have a lot of work to do!”
And in fact, having turned to the left, Lao Tse found a road leading to a market. He reached it and found Himself in the midst of bustle and hubbub of that place. But, surprisingly, all this did not disturb the peace that reigned in the Heavenly Palace of Lao Tse.
Feeling the presence of Huang Di, He was walking among people who were bargaining.
Soon He saw a man selling a donkey, but Huang Di said:
“Not this one! Keep going!”
… Lao Tse wondered at His new feelings: He spoke with the Immortal so easily as with an incarnate person! And He perceived the presence and the words of Huang Di even more clearly than the noise of the market!…
Finally, They found a cute white donkey.
Lao Tse began bargaining with a seller… and lost the sensation of the presence of Huang Di…
At last, the donkey was bought.
“You overpaid! The former owner was cruel to this kind animal and didn’t deserve such a payment!” — Lao Tse heard suddenly. — “Well, for the first one of our concerted actions, it is not bad…”
… Being guided by Huang Di, Lao Tse quickly finished all His affairs and disposed of His property. Then He gathered writing instruments and some food for the road.

[to be continued]


The First Parable: Let the Ant Pass!

February 23, 2018

        The archivist of the imperial library called Lao Tse was walking along the road and thinking about what He had read that day. He was completely absorbed and was not looking at the road.
Suddenly He heard: “Let the ant pass!”
Lao Tse looked down — and saw that His foot was over a little ant hurrying to an anthill. He gently stepped over the insect and looked back to see who had spoken with Him. But… there was no one around!
“Is there someone here?”
“Yes!” — the Invisible One said.
“Who are You?”
“Your Teacher!”
“Are You the Immortal Who has cognized Tao?”
“Why can’t I see You?”
“Because You are looking around only with the eyes of Your body and even forget to look under Your feet!”
“So how can I see You?”
“You need to look with the eyes of the heart: the spiritual heart!”
“But how?”
“Don´t hurry! Let’s start from the beginning. We were talking about the ant…”
“Does it matter?”
“Yes! Everything has its meaning and purpose! The life of every ant, worm, bird, and plant is not a “pointless accident”. They — just like You — are here according to the Will of Tao! Their lives also contribute to the development of the universe! And the one who hasn’t learned to respect lives of all incarnate creatures — won’t be able to take the next step in cognition of Tao.
“Many people on the Earth now have become insane, so to speak! Heartlessness predominates in the world: they kill animals, devastate bird nests, and catch all the fish from the lakes, rivers, and seas — to eat their flesh! They destroy trees, cutting and burning them without necessity! Senseless destruction of innocent creatures leads to the transformation of cruelty — into the ‘norm’! People have begun to consider those things that are harmful for them — as “useful”! And what is really useful ’doesn’t make any sense’ for them…
“Thus the Truth and the memory about Harmony, laid by Tao in the Law of Existence and Development of everything, are lost! Such behavior of people is contrary to their real interests, but they don’t know about this!…
“Yet people can correct their lives, following the principles of Love and Harmony!
“You, if You want to, can help them to get to know about the Law of Tao: about the principles according to which people should live in the universe. Anyone who knows this Law may find peace, joy, and harmony in life.
“Why did You choose me?”
“A lot of things from Your past life on the Earth connects us! Later on, I’ll remind You about the most important of them.
“The one who has already passed the entire Path can easily remember everything! You will need little time and effort for this!”
“Why was I born here again? Why don’t I remember the steps of the Path?”
“You have come into this incarnation with a special purpose. You have the Mission: You will help a large number of people to learn about the meaning of their lives and about how to live in a correct way! You and I will write a book about Tao and Te! Do You agree?”
“How can I say ’no’ to God?!”
“Quite easily! A lot of people do this, turning their eyes from the Heavenly. They look only at the benefits from the material life and thus become prisoners of material things…
“So, do You agree to help Me?”
“Yes! With great joy!”
“I’ll take You at Your word since it won’t be easy!”
“Let me see You! Tell me Your name!”
“My name is Huang Di. I am — forever — Your Teacher! And I had been Your Teacher for many centuries when You lived near Me incarnated in a body and learned from Me!
“And now I am ready again to be with You as long as You want it, even until the last breath of Your body!
“Together We can do a lot of useful things on the Earth! You will write a book — and My ancient Teachings will be heard again among the people of China! Your words, like arrows from the Abode of the Secret Knowledge, will be hitting destined targets for thousands of years!
“This doesn’t mean that the emperors and generals will begin to follow Our advice immediately. This doesn’t mean that the peasants, the officials, and the traders will change quickly their lives in accordance with the wise principles. But, nevertheless, those who will hear and understand — will get the possibility to find the Path of cognizing the Greatness of Tao — and walk this Path till the end!”
… Lao Tse was listening to Huang Di and was being born anew, so to say! That love which connects the Teacher with His disciple flooded His heart with Peace and Bliss. He saw the soft iridescent Light that, shining like the sun’s rays in the purest transparency of water, — took a shape of the Great Teacher Huang Di.
Lao Tse wanted to rush to the feet of the Master, but His ability to see Huang Di… left Him as suddenly as it appeared…
“Do not worry! it’s enough for today! We’ll continue tomorrow. Now take a rest…”

[to be continued]


Parables of Lao Tse

February 19, 2018

Written down by Anna Zubkova
Edited by Vladimir Antonov

Translated from Russian by
Anton Teplyy, Vladimir Antonov


        Lao Tse was riding on a donkey. He was not in a hurry. He was riding and listening, and if the words came and formed into complete sentences, He wrote them down.
Lao Tse had not chosen His way but had left this to God and the donkey. The Boundless Ocean of God surrounded Him and His donkey — and whispered to the sensitive animal where to go.
The Heart of Lao Tse was filled with the Great Transparent Calm. He listened to this Calm since the Great Silence became filled with the words of Tao and Te* when necessary.
In this way Lao Tse was learning Wisdom about the meaning of human life and about the laws according to which people can live without destroying the harmony of the terrestrial and the Heavenly, as well as about the steps of the stairway that lead “from the earth — to the Heaven”, that is, to the Divine, to the Primordial.
He listened about the Great Love, under the Guidance of Which the interaction of yin and yang takes place,  about how Tao loves every being, about how Te nurses and nurtures all souls, about how to cognize Tao and how the person should live who wants to know all this on one’s own experience and achieve the  Supreme Ultimate: the state, in which there is only the Primordial Ocean That creates everything and includes entirely in Itself everyone who reaches It. This Living Ocean of the Subtlest Primordial Consciousness — is Tao.
Lao Tse wrote down what He heard. Thus the book Tao Te Ching was forming gradually…
… Long time ago Lao Tse had left His honorary position of an archivist, which used to bring Him the respect of the people and good income. Now He kept a solitary life, which allowed Him to be always with His Teacher — Huang Di.
Although Lao Tse lived in the material world, He did not look at it, but at the Depths. He looked from the world of matter — into that Depth, from which all the material was manifested: into the world of the Divine Light and Great Transparent Calm.
There His non-embodied Teacher and Friend  Huang Di was always waiting for Lao Tse.
Lao Tse saw Huang Di not with the eyes of the body, but with the eyes of the soul — the loving eyes of the developed spiritual heart.
Only that soul which has become Light-bringing Love and Transparent Calm is able to see Te and the subtlest and infinite Tao and communicate directly with Them.
Sometimes Lao Tse saw the Face of His Teacher Huang Di. Sometimes He felt the presence of the Divine Master — as Love and Peace, which embraced the soul from outside and permeated everything inside. Sometimes Huang Di appeared as the Transparent Flow of Power rising from the Depths.
Now They were always together: man with a name Lao Tse and the Representative of the Primordial Tao with a name Huang Di.
For Lao Tse Huang Di was the closest Friend, the wisest Interlocutor, and the most important Teacher.
Sometimes images from the past of China rose before Lao Tse, and He perceived Himself as a participant of those ancient events of His life on the Earth when He was a personal disciple of the Great Emperor Huang Di.
Sometimes the words of the Revelations flowed like a river.
Yet it also happened that throughout the day Lao Tse managed to write only one sentence. Nevertheless, this sentence gave Him the possibility to dive during several days into the meditations of Mergence with Te and Dissolution in Tao.
Gradually, Lao Tse got accustomed to living always with Huang Di — in the indissoluble Unity with Him.
Lao Tse was now looking at the world through the Eyes of Huang Di, assessing people and events — from His position.
Sometimes They both stayed in silence… Sometimes questions gave way to answers in a living dialogue…
They were and are always together: the Disciple and the Divine Master.
… Do you want to know how all this began, continued and ended?

Tao in Chinese is the Primordial Consciousness (the synonyms of this word are the Creator, God-the-Father, Ish-vara, Allah). Te is the Holy Spirit (or Brahman). (See Tao Te Ching, under the editorship of Vladimir Antonov).

[to be continued]


Campfire at Night

November 30, 2017

The fire burns in the quiet night, sparks rise smoothly upward with smoke.



Only the wood crackles in the fire.

The tenderness of the night, filled with God, is around…

This is the place of power of the Holy Spirits — Adler, Thoth-the-Atlantean, and Eagle. A little further away, the Mahadoubles of Volhva and Khem are located.

And this is an opportune time to feel the space, filled with God, around the body. That is, do not feel yourself inside the Infinity and Eternity of God, but the Infinity as myself, where the unit of time is Eternity…

* * *

If it does not work at once, you can — as a preparatory stage — master the following:

I fly on the planet Earth in the Eternity and Infinity of the multidimensional Absolute. Around are visible clusters of stars, galaxies… They are right and left, I am in the middle…

The Earth is only an infinitesimal bit in Infinity and Eternity of cosmic space filled with the Life of God.

There is only the universe, I do not feel myself — as a creature living in a material body.

This means that there has been a dissolution-merging of me into it.

* * *

The Holy Spirit Martha asks to write down for the incarnate people the following:

“Anything that does not advance towards Mergence with God, but exists in human life ‘just like that’, as something neutral, is also, to a large extent, an evil! People and other creatures are incarnated by God on the Earth in order to improve themselves, to become — as a result — like We, to flow into Our common One Universal We. Anything that does not correspond to the realization of this task or interferes with it, are clots of filth, which should be removed by people from their lives!”

* * *

It lights up…

In the vastness of the valley is the Light-Fiery Mahadouble-Mountain of the Holy Spirit Khem.

With the help of a developed spiritual heart, one can move into Him, merge with Him.

There is immense Happiness from the Mergence with God in that “other world”!

Such Mahadouble-Mountains and other Light-Fiery Divine Formations, created by the Holy Spirits, are intended to help people, embodied on the Earth.

Khem asks to clarify this for our readers:

“There may be a Higher Happiness from Mergence with God in His Blissful Rest.

“And there is also another shade of the Higher Happiness: Happiness not from the Divine Calm, but from the Creating.

“I will say it again in other words. There are two types of Supreme Happiness: from the Bliss of being the Rest of Living God — and from the active creating the Divine Souls.

“The souls that have awakened for the spiritual growth are like workpieces for manufacturing perfect details — the Divine Perfect Souls, the Compound Parts of the One Total. Holy Spirits, perform this work.

“Throughout the Earth, the Divine Persons can seek and find such positively evolving souls, cherish them, love, kiss, embrace, lead the way, immerse into Themselves!

“Through the love for such souls, you can continue to improve yourselves.

“But most of incarnate human souls do not respond to the Appeals of God. These are not yet ready-made souls: mired in vices, have not yet cleansed themselves to the proper degree, or are preoccupied with other matters that do not directly coincide with the desire to cognize the Creator.

“But incarnate people should strive to become like Us: to become Holy Spirits, being equal in Us — as per the Standards.

“And in personal spiritual perfecting, egocentrism should not dominate. On the contrary, the desire to better serve the Evolution of the Universal Consciousness, that is, God — should dominate. It is necessary to reach, then to turn back and — to help, help, help…”


Story-Parable on the Thirst for Truth

November 10, 2017

Philip the Apostle

Written down by Anna Zubkova

Under the editorship of Vladimir Antonov
and with his commentary

Paul finally got lost in the endless desert… Only sand dunes were wherever you took out. Sandstorm was over. But that, which was the likeness of a road, disappeared without a trace…

Now he understood how vain he was to not follow the advice to wait out bad weather and start on a trip later.

It seemed to him that a couple of hours of driving cannot promise danger. Why put off the leaving for a few days, what I can reach today?…

To repair the car, it was not possible…

… From the “today” has already passed more than a week. Three days he spent near a broken and sanded car. Then he decided to go — go, relying on the Will of God. Chances to survive — already almost were none. Water is also no more. To think about how stupid it was to spend the water, which was with him, it was unbearable…

The way that he was going to overcome during a day, became infinite…

* * *

Desert — always is desert… Modern civilization only pretends that it can affect the desert.

In an afternoon — exhausting heat, at night — piercing cold…

Cars and camels for tourists and travelers, the hotel with a hint of European comfort — all this remains as in another world.

… Mirages in the desert…

He revered stories of mirages as fiction. For he himself, as a famous writer, did not neglect sometimes the similar.

Now these “fictions” pursued him. How many times he saw as if a lake surrounded by trees — and walked out with the last forces to it…

He tried not to believe mirages. But, all the same, went to where he imagined salvation. It was necessary to at least do something! Just sit and wait for death was not in his nature.

* * *

One evening he spoke to God: “If you want to take me out of here, do it right now! But if my life has the meaning and is needed for You — show me the way of salvation!”

Paul did not even really know what God he was referring to. How much he has read in books!… And he himself has written about the beliefs and religions of many different nations…

But now — to Whom he cried with all the soul?

He even almost laughed at this thought.

But the confidence that this is the only right way, strengthened in him: “There must be One Whom is called the Heavenly Father, the Creator!…”.

Paul asked to show the way or terminate his life right now.

He did not insist. He just asked to give him an answer, way out… into life or into death: “Let Him decide. If He exists, the Merciful and Almighty, — let me know the answer!”.

He went to sleep with the thought that, most likely, no longer to wake up here in this world, in this desert.

… But it was morning and nothing has changed.

The cold night was replaced by the scorching heat…

He walked and walked, without hope, simply walking, losing his last strength from fatigue and endless, as a desert, thirst.

* * *

Suddenly he saw footprints in the sand — the recent traces of human feet!

There was no one around. But this could not be a mirage: the tracks were here, at his feet, he could touch them by hands!

Paul cried, collected all the remnants of the forces.

Hoarse cry, escaping from the parched throat, seemed for him weak and miserable. He screamed again, calling for help to the person who has passed here recently.

Desert answered him with silence.

He went on the trail of an unknown person. It was the last hope.

Paul tried to think about that God… still manifested Himself! He, Paul, asked to show the way — and now he knows the direction!

It was getting dark, and Paul was not able to catch up the unknown traveler.

Hope almost left him: in fact, to see the traces, which still stronger was sanded in the dark, was no longer possible.

But another miracle happened: he saw in the distance a fire!

Paul strained his last strength, repeating to himself, like a mantra, a phrase from some book about deserts that mirages do not happen at night.

The fire did not disappear.

* * *

Paul approached the fire in the infinite thick darkness…

Finally, he entered the circle of light from a small campfire.

A man was sitting by the fire. He was not an Arab. He could be called European. He was dressed in light clothes, a woolen cape was above it. If now on the site of Paul was that former Paul, easily sneering over all people, — that “old Paul” would say that the stranger was dressed in a costume as some actor depicting a hermit in the desert in the days of the early Christians.

But now Paul was in no skepticism or irony.

The stranger nodded calmly to Paul in greeting and looked up at him with his quite amazing eyes, in which one could plunge — and seem to drown, disappear.

The man gestured to sit by the fire.

He pulled out of the folds of clothing the clay bowl and handed it to Paul. The cup was suddenly filled with water…

Not quite knowing what happened, Paul said with dry lips:

“Can I drink it?”

“Yes, you can quench your thirst,” — the stranger’s voice was just as amazing as his eyes. It sounded as if the infinity of Peace… But Paul felt all this by only some part of himself, which this voice, coming from the depths of the unknown, raised here and enveloped with the gentle presence of something mysterious…

… Paul remembered how one day he would like to interview one Indian who lives as a hermit in a mountain cave. He then spent a lot of effort to make a sensational report about the Indian yoga. But the hermit did not answer his questions. He only said to Paul: “You’re not ready yet!” And then sang a single sound mantra… The way it sounded — it was the sound of an infinite Silence. It did not look like nasal chanting mantras of “gurus” that he had encountered in India at every step. Something on this subject, Paul wrote in his diary, but then for some reason, almost forgot about this episode in the bustle and whirl of life…

The stranger’s voice was like that sound, but he said the most common words.

… And now Paul… drank, drank, drank… He waited for all that water to deplete, but it did not end…

“You can stay at the time: the water will not end and will always be, when you need it,” — the stranger said with a smile.

Paul, with some difficulty, pulled away from the bowl and put it, still full, next to him.

Then the stranger held out his hand to Paul, as if giving him something. Paul stared at the graceful palm, lit by the light of the fire, a few seconds, until he saw that the bread rests on the palm.

Bread — it suddenly appeared!… Or rather it could be said that the bread… has become visible…

Paul took still warm hunk by slightly trembling hands and thanked. The stranger nodded in response.

Fatigue and something else, such as a thick transparent peace, enveloped Paul from all sides, and did not allow being surprised or frightened. Everything was… as if usual. It was as if every day he drank water from the bowl, in which it does not end, and ate materialized bread.

Then the Stranger offered Paul to rest.

“Can I ask You a question?”


“Are You — a hallucination?”

“Yes, I thought that of all the questions, you have accumulated, you would ask exactly this!” — He laughed loudly and held out His hand to Paul, on which He had just materialized the bread, — so that Paul could touch it.

The hand was amazingly beautiful, with thin graceful fingers. The skin of the Stranger was covered with the smooth golden tan of man with white skin, who spends much time in the sun. The Stranger was of the flesh, which could be touched.

“Yes, this My body now — it is the material reality,” — He confirmed. — “But there is also another Reality. And due to the fact that it is not material, it does not cease to be the Reality.

“But better we will talk about it tomorrow. Now you are most in need of rest.”

Paul lay down by the fire. The Stranger covered him with woolen cape as a blanket.

Paul fell asleep almost instantly…

* * *

In the morning, opening his eyes, Paul tried to understand whether all seen by him was a dream, or the fruit inflamed by thirst, hunger, exhaustion of imagination or, still, a reality…

Amazing Stranger was in the same place.

He welcomed Paul in silence — by a slight smile and nod.

Paul greeted Him in English, and thought for a moment about what language they were talking yesterday… Paul from childhood was fluent both in English, and French, but recently English was closer to him, he also wrote his books in English.

“You ought to wash,” — said the Stranger in English.

“Or would you prefer to speak French?” — He said in the same pure, as well as English, French.

“I prefer English.

“But to wash… here — where?”

The Stranger held out His hand in the direction of a large stone. The stone with some tension and a sound like cotton, suddenly split. From the resulting cracks, water started to flow.

Paul again was drinking, drinking… Then he bathed with cool clear water that flowed now in a small shallow basin near the stone. Gradually was formed a small lake…

“Clothes can also be washed.”

Paul did as said. He then laid washed out to dry clothes on the stone from which the newborn source flew.

* * *

Paul returned to the fire in a woolen cape of the Stranger.

Meanwhile, the Stranger laid out on a makeshift table made of pure linen — pieces of bread, nuts and fruits. And yet — bowls with water and juice.

Paul came up to this table. He turned to where he washed, checking: whether the marvelous source disappeared? But the stone with running from it stream of clear water was at the same place. Next was a small lake. On the other bank of it — appearing as from nowhere antelopes quenching thirst. They started at the look of surprised Paul.

“Do not scare them, they want to drink. Sit down at the table, breakfast is ready. And then we can continue the conversation.”

Paul came and sat beside Him.

“How do You do all this?”

“And how Jesus fed thousands with a few loaves?”

“But that is a Christian legend…”

“But I thought that you are a Christian. That’s you even are wearing a cross… Or is it — so simple: an ornament or amulet, like the Pagans do, ‘to be on the safe side’, or ‘from an evil eye’?”

“You’re almost right. Although I was baptized as a child, but — of me was not very good Christian, I still am questioning and read the manuscripts of different nations about their ‘gods’ and beliefs…”

“Searching for Truth — is not a sin! Reading and learning — it makes sense! Even Jesus has spent years of His life for the cognition of the different faiths of different nations — before He began to preach the Truth.

“And your baptism — does not matter… Another Baptism should be taken by the soul!

“However, now — the meal.”

And He looked by inviting gesture to the arranged on a clean cloth treats…

Paul was absorbed in satisfying hunger and thirst, and almost did not think about how wonderfully everything changed since last night…

* * *

When the breakfast came to an end, the Stranger still remained silent. He ate not a lot and slowly. Then Paul as if heard within himself the question:

“Did you want only to satisfy hunger and thirst — or you need the continuation of life for something more? Why would you like to live in this body: what to know, to understand, to make?”

The Stranger said slowly aloud the words that Paul had just heard inside himself-soul.

Paul thought. All life, like a film strip on fast-forward, appeared in front of him to remind him of his childhood with radiant perception of beauty and goodness, studying at the institute, the growing skepticism, career of a journalist and writer… His latest book — “Itineraries of a Lone Traveler” had a success… Then there were the fight for the circulation and quality, quarrel with the publisher… What he wanted, when he wrote the book? Money, fame, benefit of what he reveals unknown for people? Are needed for someone, in actual fact, all his arguments about the secret teachings of ancient Egypt, Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, religious myths and legends of various nations? All this seemed so important a few weeks ago. But now…

“Your next book could be more interesting. You now have the opportunity to ask about the important for you and get answers. You may ask.”

“Who are You?”

“It is not the best question to start with. My name — Philip. The rest you will learn gradually.”

The next question froze on the lips of Paul, and he did not dare to say it aloud: “Are You — the Apostle, Satellite, and the Disciple of Jesus? But how is this possible: two thousand years ago — and now… alive?”

But Philip still answered this non-pronounced question — again as if by a voice that Paul heard inside. And then He repeated again the said, slowly and quietly uttering the words:

“Why do you think that this is impossible? You yesterday were looking for a meeting with the One Who will reveal to you the Path to the true knowledge. I use the word Path, because it’s impossible to reveal the Truth to another soul directly, just as it is impossible to quench your thirst by giving a drink to another man instead of you. Each should discover the Eternal Truth himself or herself. There can be only a little help in finding this Path by others.

“You aspired to God as well as here in the desert rushed for mirages. One mirage in life was replaced by other, but no one has brought you closer to the Truth. And a number of distractions pursue you from all sides so that you could get lost or even forget about the Goal.

“If lots of people follow along in a certain direction, it seems to them that they know where to go. But this is not always right…”

… Paul understood that the pronunciation of thoughts aloud was not necessary to communicate with Philip. But Philip has used it only as a confirmation: that in mind of Paul were no doubts in understanding of what he perceived as the answers.

Paul used to be very fond of the question on the possibility of telepathy, but he did not think it could be done so easy with himself.

Philip continued:

“Why do you think that the appearance in the resurrected body on the Earth after large time is not possible? You yourself believe in the reality of the resurrection of Jesus in the deified material body, right? You even wrote an entire article on the ‘Shroud of Turin’, which captures the negative of bodily form of Jesus at the moment of dematerialization of His body. And you yourself argued that the One Who was able to dematerialize His body — easily could recreate the body again…

“Why do you think that He did not want to teach others the same?”

“And have You mastered this?”

“Yes, but not immediately.

“And now tell Me: who are you?”

… The usual question caught Paul unawares: it seemed to him that Philip knew everything about him, even He read his articles.

“My name is Paul,” — Paul decided to compete with Philip in brevity.

“Why are you here — a person living on the planet Earth? Have you thought about this?”

“Yes, I thought… I thought that we all are here to learn…”

“Good answer!”

“Yes, I was looking for the Truth! I expounded in my books all that I saw, learned, and considered as the significant. I included into them also my thoughts about what I saw, about the people encountered, heard about the legends…”

“What will happen with all your knowledge, when the body dies?”

“It will remain in my books… Perhaps this can help others in their search…”

“What do you think: have you lived before being born in this body? And will you live without a body after its death? And will you be born in a new body to continue to improve?”

“It’s not fair! You promised to answer my questions, but instead throw me with questions whose answers I was looking for and did not find!”

“I help you to learn to find the right answers! I have still only begun!

“You read many times right and wrong answers to these questions, but did not feel, did not recognize the Truth! You many times passed the Truth!

“All external knowledge is only the husk! It is possible to believe or not to believe… But this “belief” does not change anything in man!”

“Christianity rejects the knowledge on reincarnation. Hinduism…”

“And you yourself? I’m aware that you’re familiar with the modern doctrines of different directions of faith, including of those people who call themselves ‘Christians’. You read, too, the books of many other different nations… But I ask you: what do you think about this — you yourself?”

“I thought, it would be right for the new incarnation to be — for one who made mistakes, … for one who started to learn, but did not know all… I think it is more reasonable, than the eternal torment of hell or eternal bliss of paradise. It does not seem logical to me a death, for example, of a baby: if its life was cut short, almost before it began… There must be an opportunity for it yet!…”

“Perfectly! Brilliantly! You’re already making progress!”

“But people do not remember their past lives. And those minority, who argue that they recall, — cannot prove that this is not a fantasy. And the Bible and other books do not explain…”

“Did you think about the meaning of your life and lives of other creatures, of the interconnectedness of souls, who come to the Earth, about God, if He is, to be fair, is not it?”

“Yes, You have well formulated my thoughts. I did not understand why various people so differently worship a Higher Power, God, claiming that only their faith is true, and that only “their God” indeed exists. But there are those who recognize the multitude of Gods or Saints…”

“You would like to receive a ready answer from the books. But you were looking from the outside. But the Truth must be found within.

“The first, and you did this, — one needs to set a goal and look for it. There are so many those who are not interested in the meaning of life, they just go with the flow, in accordance with their instincts and reflexes… But there are other people who are willing to spend a lifetime searching for the Truth!

“The second thing to do is the direct cognition of the Truth through personal experience. The entrance to these states you have inside you.

“Jesus pointed the Path for approaching the Creator: ‘God is Love!’. That is, He can be cognized only by becoming soul-love by developing oneself as a spiritual heart.

“Krishna also taught about it: “Only love can contemplate Me in My Innermost Essence and merge with Me!”.

“To cognize oneself as the Atman and Higher ‘I’, to cognize the Primordial Consciousness and to flow into Him — one has to become a developed and loving consciousness! Christians-Hesychasts believed that this stage — that is, the transformation of the me-soul into the spiritual heart — is the most important.

“The knowledge that you get from the level of words, rather than on the basis of the experience of the soul, — remains external, superficial knowledge. It is only information for thinking, it is useful, but… But the Truth can be really cognized only through your own experience! This is the knowledge gained as states of consciousness in Union with the Creator.

“Initially, these moments are brief. But it is possible to reach the level of knowledge, about which Jesus said: ‘I and the Father are One’.”

“Have all the Apostles managed this?”

“Many. Some of Them — quickly, others took more incarnations.

“But not only Jesus and His disciples have cognized this.

“Those, Who have mastered the Mergence with the Primordial Universal Consciousness, the Great United We, Which is called by people for the sake of simplicity as God, — Those can draw knowledge directly from the Source of the Universal Love, Wisdom and Power, Who are now at Their disposal. All the knowledge, stored in the Absolute, is provided to Them upon request. And this is limited only by the ability and experience of that Consciousness, which perceives this Knowledge.”

“Do You want to say that Those, Who have attained the Mergence, may also have restrictions?”

“I mean that the possibility to improve is boundless! This applies, too, to the Evolution and Life of the One, consisting of the Multitude.

“But for a person to start this Path, he or she needs to work hard.

“To replace one’s savage instincts by the Divine Awareness is not possible quickly.

“Souls gradually climb the ladder of development: from the lower forms of consciousness — to the top. This evolution begins in the tiny droplets of consciousness, growing, being fastened to the crystal lattices of minerals. Then the germs of souls grow, being connected with the plant’s and then animals’ bodies.

“Only man, who matured in a long series of incarnations, is able to improve oneself-soul — consciously. You have now already not the first incarnation of looking for the Truth, and you now have real chances to succeed.

“You are a vegetarian. You chose this according to the conviction that man does not want to commit the murder of any innocent animals. This is — a serious first step on the Path of goodness.

“You are doing Hatha Yoga. However, you were doing this as exercises for health. But even in this version, it has brought good results. The energies of your body are clean and are in very good state, when compared to the average majority.

“You are prepared to try and take the big stages of the spiritual Path. Do you want it?”

“Can there be any doubts? Yes!”

“To begin, you need to explore the intangible for usual vision, but very real structures of the organism: chakras and meridians. They allow one to trace the relationships between the soul-jiva — and its material body.

* * *

Philip started training Paul.

He explained how it is possible to move the concentration of self-soul through the chakras and meridians. Paul really felt, how the state of the soul changes from simple immersion, for example, in the chakra anahata: peace and love becomes natural, dominant thoughts disappear.

A few days Paul has devoted for clearing these energy structures.

The second task was to learn to live by the spiritual heart. Here Paul had to work much longer: in fact, the habit of constantly thinking about something — accustomed to life in the head chakras.

But Philip explained:

“It is necessary to master the continuous existence by the spiritual heart. It is the overriding basis for a correctly developing soul!

“The spiritual heart must become much more than anahata chakra, located in the chest of the body, where the spiritual heart began to grow from.

“The ability to be a soul-love, which has become much more than the tangible body size, fundamentally changes the status of the person. This is the first stage of the spiritual Path. Even just doing it — makes achieving the paradise as the natural state!

“And this step also opens the door to the secret world of the Divine Reality!

“The entire esoteric Path is needed for only mature and wise souls.

“But the ability to live as a soul-love — is adequate for every soul, it does not hurt anyone. It will bring all souls to the light and joy of life, even when life of the body lasts. And after the death of the body — it provides the life of the soul in blissful harmony of the paradise!”

* * *

Paul now spent a lot of time in meditations, filling by the soul-love the space above the Earth’s surface.

Endless desert, which before seemed to him such a ruthless and brutal, now… gave him the opportunity to expand the spiritual heart more and more, covering the entire space.

His previous attempts to “meditate” — sitting cross-legged and concentrating in the head or eyebrows, looked now as a funny game of a child who tries to show something, about which it does not know anything…

And Philip was gradually revealing to Paul the new horizons:

“Now you already have the understanding that you are a soul, not a body, endowed with the mind and organs for communication with the outside material world. Now you have the opportunity to cognize also that God is also the Reality. I will help you to gain first experience of direct perception of God.

“But for this it is necessary to feel the reality of life of the soul, without the limitations of perception, that overlap the material body.

“A soul, when incarnate, is connected with a body. This bond forms during embryonic development. Having been born in the material world, a person learns — through the body — to see, hear, feel, think. A child begins to interact with the world of matter with a help of this tool — the material body.

“But the soul can do all the same without having a body. It can see, hear, feel, think in other planes of existence in the Absolute.

“There are the enormous potentials to control matter from the Divine plan of life! But this is for you — the long perspective. Walking on water and materializing the bread or the water — this is possible for only the soul which has realized its Unity with the Primordial Consciousness, God! To do this, the soul, free from the limitations of matter, must learn to live and act in the subtlest layers of the Absolute.

“Not all the Divine Souls have reached the immortality of Their material bodies. Not many have mastered the full deification of Their bodies, like Jesus. And taking the body from the material world — it is not an obligatory feature of achieving the Mergence with the Creator.

“So, the main conclusion: the incarnate man-soul can communicate with God!

“Now, about — how.

“Let us return to our practical work. I promised you the experience of such interaction with God.

“To do this, the soul must be developed as a spiritual heart, that is, as love. If not — all is confined by fantasy, mental images created by the mind. This is the ‘stumbling block’, which stopped very many beginners in their spiritual search.

“So, the most important step on the Path — it is the development of the spiritual heart.

“Feel yourself in the anahata chakra as a whole, like in a room. Now open the window ahead — and clean the ‘room’ of all trash and shadows.

“Next, let your love, as a gentle light, shine and illuminate the space ahead! As well as a spotlight or the headlights of the car at night illuminate the space in front of you — so love of the soul can illuminate and caress space and all the living in it! At first, illuminate the visible by body’s eyes space, and then farther and farther ahead…”

… Paul loved the night driving of a car on the empty road… And now he was very apt to feel the light that illuminates the space in front! It was like a heart’s light is now illuminating his way through life!

Philip continued:

“Now in a bodily primary abode of the spiritual heart — the anahata chakra — it is possible to turn back the face of the soul. You can open another window — into the space of the Divine Light.

“Try to look back from the anahata chakra — just like staring ahead… Do you see the Light?”


“Come into that Light! Immerse yourself in It, as in the vast Ocean! Dissolve in It, going as far as possible…

“Now try to look from the Light to there where in the body you have lived before…

“And again — let it be only the Light!

“You were willing to take from God the experience of death of the body. Now — a part of this experience: the life in the Divine Light without feeling the body. If the body dies — then you’re… you remain! And you continue to live in the Light, being It, is it not?

“Being in this Light, you can feel It between the fingers of the hands of the soul.

“Or you can try to hug It — Infinite — with your arms. This leads to a state of blissful joy, delight!

“This Light consists of the mutually merged Consciousnesses of All the Attained.

“You can take Their Desires and Intentions.

“Feel your arms of the consciousness! They — are huge and can be even more, more… They can touch everything by the fingertips or take on the palms any creature.

“In the Christian tradition, this Light is called the Holy Spirit, in Hinduism — Brahman.

“Merged with the Flow of this Light, flow by It through your material body and around it, then — from above — down, upwards, from back — forward, from ahead — back. It is flowing the River of the Divine Love! Learn to always feel in the Communion with this Divine Love!”

… Paul miraculously perceived himself in confluence with the Divine Light, and at the same time… his body was on the sand.

He was now the Part of this Light.

He has realized that what he read in the New Testament: one needs to go by the soul towards God-Spirit!

He was infinitely free and infinitely happy!

But this state did not last long: the fatigue of meditations forced back into the body.

“Well, now you really have got the baptism in the Holy Spirit!” — Philip congratulated him. — “You can now be considered as the real Christian!

“A process of gradual transformation of the soul into the Divine Light is called Enlightenment. And one, strengthened in the state of Divine Light, is called Enlightened.”

* * *

Between these meditations, Paul again felt like a prisoner of the body. And this saddened him.

Philip once replied to these thoughts, which were not expressed aloud:

“Not all at once! Even you — who had already not small spiritual experiences in your past lives — need time to get used to the new states of consciousness.

“You will need a long time to work on the extension-growth of yourself as a spiritual heart, and on the further purification of structures inside the body and filling them with the Divine Light.

“Only when the substitution of the energies within your body by the Divine Light will be reached — it will be easy to live in this Light all the time. Then the Light will be your Home — the Home of the Soul. This Home does not have to be exited, despite the fact that the body is in the material world.”

… Philip showed to Paul every day more and more new methods of work on the expansion of the consciousness as love and replacing energies in the body.

* * *

After a few days, one night, Philip asked Paul:

“Would you like to talk with Jesus?”

“With Jesus? I?”

“What are you so puzzled about? You can not decide? But you believe that Jesus can hear what people say to Him, right? Those, who recite prayers in the temples, can they probably believe that they are heard by Him?

“Many people are crying out to Jesus. It is because they know about Him more than on many Others, Who have reached the state of Christ.

“All of Them and Each of Them may now be called as the Holy Spirit.

“One can selectively appeal to Someone among Them.

“The Creator consists of this Set of the Perfects!

“Their entry into the Creator is similar to the drops of water which flow into the ocean and become merged there with those drops that have flowed into the ocean before.

“These, the Perfects compose the Great United We! Someone calls Him God-the-Father, someone — Tao, someone — Allah, but the difference is only in words.

“Divine Consciousness, called the Primordial, — this is the Multitude of the Divine Consciousnesses mutually merged in One!

“But Each of Them can act in the Creation, parting Oneself. Just as the wave can rise above the ocean, while remaining an integral part of it, — and Those, Who have attained, can manifest Themselves, remaining in the Unity with the Ocean of the Creator.

“So, would you like to talk with Jesus?”

“Yes!” — Paul said emphatically, understanding that, if he refuses, then he will never forgive this to himself.

Something from his journalistic past flashed as a strange thought: “I did not ever think that it is possible to interview Jesus Himself!”

… There was the Light, approaching from the intangible depth. It was like the rising sun… Light approached. In It, was manifesting the image of Jesus.

And now — Jesus, the living Jesus!

He and Philip embraced…

Then Jesus went up at arm’s length to Paul. Paul tried to touch His clothes. Jesus was composed of Light, the body was not material.

Jesus said:

“It is not an illusion. This is the reality. Are you still not satisfied with the words of Philip, Who explained to you that the difference between matter and Light — it’s only the energy levels of subtlety?

“Why do you need My material body? In order to write a sensational report about a meeting with Jesus? For everyone, who reads your book, begins to seek a meeting with My materialized body?

“Well, look: My body may be the material.”

Jesus condensed His body of Light and sat down next to Paul and Philip by campfire. He continued:

“Miracles, in fact, do not change anything fundamental in human souls! However, I will be glad, if you write about that for each person either praying in the temple, or bustling in a big store, or going by a train, or sailing on a ship — can stand, sit, speak — and not notice that He, with Whom he or she is nearby, is Jesus. I have a lot of times of this happening among embodied people, and they did not recognize Me, did not hear Me…

“It would be nice, if everyone will know that pushing someone by elbows amid the bustle, he or she can alienate, without noticing, and Jesus…

“Within all this time, people, too, have not learned to see in each person a brother or sister…

“If I come, as before, and begin to perform miracles — I certainly would be called a ‘false prophet’!

“But for those, who know Me, — they do not need My body, consisting of flesh.”

“But why did You come in the body then — 2000 years ago?”

“I was sent into this hell of suffering and misery in earthly life — to point medicine and antidotes against them. I did it, too, by presenting people the Teachings about the Path of Love!

“Among the darkness of ignorance, I kindled the Lamp of Truth. I have shown the ability to be only Love — even in the hatred and other abominations of human souls!

“I showed people the Path of Love! I spoke about the possibility of exit from hell — to the Light of the Creator, to cognition of Him and Mergence with Him!

“The Path of service to God — this is to go where the bad, where you will be hated, killed… And one should be only the Pure Love, continuing to bring to people the Truth of God! Each of the Coming from the Heavenly Father onto the Earth — demonstrates this by His or Her life!

“In words — everything is easier. But Christ must live so — every day and hour, every minute of life on the Earth, not allowing the flame of heart to be extinguished and without breaking the Сonsubstantiality with the Father!

“Are you ready to start this? After all, just for this our meeting was planned!”

“I do not know, if I can do…?”

“You do not know this, until you try!”

“Tell me, did Your earthly life’s Feat help someone? Was it necessary for people? For they have forgotten everything again!”

“My Teachings have helped many. People need to be aware of the Path to achieve the Oneness with the Creator!

“Those, who then had understood Me, — they went this Path. We had got — many. And many others there were, who just approached and keep going.

“Even when darkness thickens around and there is no hope that the Light will shine — then it is only love that saves us from darkness and allows to keep a basis only in God!”

“And that gets up the so-called ‘Christianity’? Crusades? Inquisition? It does not fit into an understanding!”

“Any medicine, when used incorrectly, can become a poison…

“Even the most useful word or action, if it is not used properly or for evil intentions, — can bring the evil…

“I’m not talking about the distortions that were added intentionally by those who converted the Teachings of God — into a way to control people for the sake of themselves!

“In the wrong application, the force can become the violence, caution — cowardice, excessive concern — the suppression of development.

“Also, the belief in the existence of God can keep a person from evil. But the criminal leaders of religious movements make people, having fallen under their influence, to be perpetrators.

“Only the mastered love allows one to gain Wisdom to distinguish between good and evil — to a level as God distinguishes.

“And all is so simple!

“Everyone now can become My disciple — directly, without intermediaries!

“I would like you to tell people about it.

“And, to be My disciple, — it does not need to be close to My body!”

… Jesus dissolved His body’s image in the Light… and continued to speak. Paul easily understood Jesus, Who was now just a Light-Love, Light-Tenderness. This understanding was more than just hearing the words.

In the Light, the voice of Jesus continues to sound:

“I am Omnipresent! I can be right now next to each man!

“Everyone can aspire to fulfill the principles of life, offered by God. This will be the true Christianity! Not only I, but many the Attained will help such man!

“Notice: now your mind is completely relaxed, and the silence has filled the spiritual heart!

“God can be perceived only by the developed spiritual heart. Only the soul that has become the love can touch the Divine Consciousness, Which is Love. To this, I have called people ever since — by the words “God is Love!”.

“But this cannot be passed to anyone by means of only words!

“But you — give me a hug! My Light and Love — are waiting for you! I was long waiting for this moment! I love you!”

… There was only Jesus — Blissful Light of God, Who immersed in Himself and dissolved in Himself…

The soft voice of Jesus continued:

“Try to feel that here are Many of Us.

“Here is, in particular, Philip. You will now always be able to recognize Him. And it is not necessary for Him to be physically close to you — for you to continue to be trained.”

… The space of the Divine Light — the space of another reality of existence, stunning first by Its Tenderness, Beauty, Greatness, and Simplicity — it now was clearly perceived by Paul, because He was now in It and being It.

Ever-evolving Consciousness, Divine United We — consists of a Set of Perfect Consciousness. It does not know decay and death! But it is full of mature Wisdom and Omnipotence, fused with a gentle and caring Endearment of the Perfect Love!

* * *

The last day of the life of Paul and Philip at the source in the middle of desert had come.

Philip said:

“Time of our joint stay here is over. Stage of your training with the help of My material body is coming to an end. Then you can take help and guidance for your growth without My presence on the plane of matter.

“Did you read about meditation Cross? Fullness of this meditation, including the “Right” and “Left”, you are to cognize later.

“Now, before we leave, we have to do one more thing. In memory of our meeting, we can give to the desert the new oasis. And to be precise — to return the landscape that was here thousands of years ago.

“Water is already here. It remains to sow the seeds.

“Take these seeds of dates and of some other plants that are able to take root here.”

… Paul and Philip walked around the newborn lake, throwing the seeds along the coast.

“Do you believe that here something will be able to grow? Here is just the sand!” — Paul said.

“Where is the source — life can always develop! Animals will come to the water, soon the first plants germinate — and then the soil is filled with power and allow other plants to germinate.

“You now also carry a source of the Truth.

“You will also need to work hard to ‘cultivate a field’ of yourself-consciousness, that is, to cognize the fullness of Mergence with God and to plant the ‘field’ by many seeds. You can grow yourself more and more, and to help others to do the same. You can do it wherever you live and work. And God will harvest!

“That’s all! For our bodies — it’s time to leave.

“You have already started to learn to listen by the consciousness and understand God’s plans!

“The ability to communicate by the consciousness with the Divine Consciousnesses will help you never be without Divine Help and Advices. Not only Jesus and I have come into your life. All the Messengers of Light are always ready to help those who are turning to Them. Call!”

… They embraced.

Then Philip went without looking back. A light breeze was sanding His tracks.

Paul filled the jar with water, folded stock of provisions, left to him by Philip, and went to people…

Three days later, he came up to where the ordinary human life was in full swing.

And he did not have any tangible evidence of all that had happened to him, in addition to that surprising fact that he was still alive.



Quite a Bit about Death

February 3, 2017

Anna Zubkova

“… When you are anxious,

ask advice from your death.
An immense amount of pettiness

will drop then off you…

Death is a wise adviser
that we have”.

Juan Matus [8,2728]

God regularly reminded me about the death of my material body, especially when I was losing myself in the hustle of earthly affairs…

Vladimir often suggested to us to try, if possible, to have no unfinished earthly affairs and earthly debts, including non-material affairs. He suggested us to live in such a way that if death comes right now — we would not be ashamed to die in front of God. And we would not look back to what we have forgotten to do…

God was very skillfully “playing along” to help Vladimir in this.

God showed me the “face of death” even through the threat of surgery (which did not take place): suggesting me to prepare for it as if I would not come out of narcosis. Or He showed the death of other people. Or was slightly hurrying me, directly reminding me that we do not live in our bodies forever. And that we should think about the things that are really important so that we have the time to get them done…

I will now tell about one of these episodes. At that time, I only started to study with Vladimir, and was still working at the studio. One time, I was running in a hurry at the studio yard with a bunch of suits in my hands — and at a turn I ran into a car, which fortunately was not moving very fast. This was during winter, it was very slippery! I was hit by the car and slipped — and found myself under the car. The driver, whitened with fear because of this, got me out and helped me to stand on my feet. He was surprised to see that I seemed to be all right…

I thanked God for this lesson! He showed me — quite specifically and intelligibly! — that death can happen very suddenly, when we least expect it…

But, God sometimes reminded me of death even after that, so that I did not forget that lesson — and hurried me up: for me to understand how much is still to be done.

For example, my mother, who accompanied a female friend, ill with cancer, to the hospital, told me that the turns of cancer patients were similar there to the crowds in crowded buses during “rush hours”. And I remember how God had once showed me — in a dream — myself standing in such a “turn for death”… Another variant of a turn, shown to me in the same dream, was in a comic form — “a turn” of Those Who had reached the Perfection — in front of the entrance to the Abode of the Creator… I saw then immediately how little I had done on this Path… And I also thought about how important it is to try to do as much as possible for others — so that they would also have time to think about all this…

… The illness and death of my mother’s friend taught me a lot too.

I was deeply grateful to that woman who once, during my first steps on my religious way, taught me the Christian humility. She was a sincere and deeply religious human.

Then — I tried to give her the knowledge that I had gained up to that time, but it did not turn out good. She, being an Orthodox, did not believe the things I was saying, did not accept my views, and did not want to read “sinful” books…

But, once, Jesus, speaking through me, promised her a healing. But He was also asking her — in gratitude for this — to keep fasting — a meat-free diet for all of her newly granted life. If okay, He recommended to confirm that the healing really happened — through repeating the tests on cancer. He told her exactly the date when it should be done. Analyses were carried out — and a reply was received: there were no cancer cells anymore.

But she still did not believe Jesus! The opinion of the church turned out to be more important for her!…

And then the cancer returned to her body…

One of the mechanisms of the manifestation of cancer — is the entering of souls of dead animals, killed and eaten, into the human body. These spirits create there “a nest” for themselves of cancer cells.

She died exactly one year later: on the very same day, in which — the year before — she was healed by Jesus…

She continued to accept with humility her fate until the last breath and strictly performed all the rituals and regulations of the church…

Imagine her shock, and confusion, when after the death of her body… she did not find herself in paradise! All did not turn out to be as the “pastors” promised her…

After she died, she came into my room. I had very little experience of communicating with non-divine souls — and did not immediately notice her. She tried to draw my attention to her. I felt bad, stuffy because of this. I did not understand what was happening and only after a while noticed her.

I sharply felt the pain of this deceived soul… To calm her down somehow, I asked her to sit on a chair, which stood in the room. She hung in the air over it in a sitting posture…

I tried to help her as much as I could… I offered to her to recollect the most tender emotions of love, which she experienced in her life, the peace and transparent silence of the autumn after she was healed, when she heard for the first time in her life how leaves fall to the ground in silence… And she found peace… But it is already impossible after death to obtain the state of love, which was not mastered by a soul during life of the body…

But how much more she could have done, as a sincere and deeply-religious human, if…

I strongly understood at that moment what an obstacle it is to not have access to true knowledge about God, about the meaning of our lives! And how important it is to make this knowledge available to all people!


Wearing “Rose-Colored Glasses” and Meetings with Evil

February 2, 2017

Anna Zubkova

Seeing only the good in everything, not noticing evil, living as if evil does not exist at all, — was the typical way of perceiving the world for me, since childhood. On one hand, it was good — I loved everyone and everything, since when you look through rose-colored glasses — it is very easy to love… But such a “defect of vision” could not suit God: it is impossible to eradicate evil, if you do not see it, it is also impossible to help others in this…

“We can tear out evil only if we recognize it. If we are ignorant of it, it will continue to grow its roots and grow itself in us… Ignorance of it is the mother of evil in us,” — Apostle Philip wrote down [6,8].

I was ready to deal and fight against vices, eradicate them from myself — it was quite easy for God to bring me up to this understanding. But to see that evil exists outside of us too, misunderstanding of this and carelessness in this — may lead to troubles — this was more difficult for me…

So God started to explain this to me.

For example, I thought that, if I loved dogs and was not afraid of them, — then no dog would bite me! So, one day I was walking, overflowed with love and joy, — when a dog pounced on me and bit me. Its angry-drunken owner was sitting on the steps of a store — and was enjoying the scene…

Understanding that there are people who are much worse than the most vicious dogs, who do not even need a reason to do evil, it was becoming hard in me…

Vladimir often showed us the reality of the present and past political situations of our country — and I tried to recognize that the lyrics: “Wide is my dear country, where man breathes so freely!” — do not reflect the real state of things. He also spoke to us about the “Christian” inquisition, about the history of the perversions in other religious movements, about those I had always thought only good, but I knew only about the superficial layer… Every time, I felt like I was scalded with boiling water and that my skin was being removed from me… How easy it is to love a sweet fiction and continue to think: “How everything around is so wonderful!”…

God was strongly trying to explain this to me, so that I could “get it” without having to experience a big calamity on the material plane. He showed it to me up close, but from a side. He was trying to teach me caution — with the same tenderness as it was in my early youth…

… I remember how once, during a tourist trip, I walked alone in the mountains. Just like with dogs, I was not afraid of people at all. I enjoyed the spaciousness and beauty…, when a man, who looked more like a terrible wild animal, approached me. He took my wrist with force and commanded me to go with him. I was not very afraid and said that I did not want to go with him — and I thought that it was enough for him to let me go. But he did not let me go. He also apparently had never seen such a “wild” specimen before. He held my hand for the entire time on the way to the… tourist base… He told me to never walk alone… Only a bruise on my wrist remained after that incident…

So then and now — through pain and tears — God offers to see and realize the existence and manifestation of evil on the Earth. By the same way, He sometimes painfully squeezes my hand and shows me what I previously feared and did not want to see.

He offered to develop in me the wise caution of a spiritual warrior. He suggested to me to love not a fictitious “humanity” while living and serving Him in this world, but, to see the truth, to become namely a wise Love. He offered me to learn to help everyone in everything good — just as He helps!





June 7, 2016

Anna Zubkova

All my life I lived with the desire to see a miracle, with the belief in miracles. I believed that it was possible: to fly, to heal with the Divine Touch, to resurrect…

The real miracles came into my life together with the start of my discipleship. But my childish-egoistic desire of the materialization of something that I could touch with my hands continued to live in me… The miracle of the cognition of God did not replace my ordinary human notions completely, thinking that a miracle — is when things appear “out of thin air” or when a train wagon or a plane disappears or when it’s snowing in a hall…

I already knew how to merge with the flow of Pranava, with Mahadoubles of our Divine Teachers, was entering — just a little at that time — the Abode of the Creator… But I already did not consider this experience like miracles. This became — usual… — what kind of miracle is there to be seen in this?! It was similar to the way we do not see the miracle of the blossoming bud, in a huge tree, in spring which grow out of a tiny seed, in the miracle of life, in the miracle of the beauty of God’s Creation…

And so, one time, David Copperfield explained that to me with a joke — and also with the help of a miracle…

… We were in the forest, it was the end of summer, and we had been working a lot that day, walked at least fifteen kilometers, and were tired…

David came. And it became so joyful due to His presence, that our fatigue passed entirely…

It occurred to me to ask David for a miracle. It would cost Him nothing to materialize a little snowflake on my palm! Nobody would even notice: the snowflake would melt immediately… I walked for some time with the palm of my hand imperceptibly offered to Him, and then forgot about my silly request… — I was walking and admiring David, His Divine Smile…

And suddenly, after a few minutes, in a clear sky with a shining sun, — a tiny dark gray cloud started to appear. And… with a gust of wind, snow and hail began falling on us… The sun continued to shine brilliantly, as a dazzling smile of David shined: you wanted a miracle — here it is!

… I was holding melting snowflakes on my palms, breathless with excitement…

But I also had to repent: we all were soaked because of me.

… And then, again, we experienced the true miracle: our Divine Teachers Sathya Sai Baba, Jesus, Krishna, David — helped us to Merge with Him, we immersed ourselves again into the Abode of the Creator…

I will not even attempt to explain how we feel when an individual consciousness touches the Consciousness of the Creator, will not try to speak about the states of dissolution, or Mergence… This knowledge cannot be transmitted only through words. Let everyone, who embarks on the Path, cognize it by themselves…


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