Posts Tagged ‘destiny’

Quite a Bit about Death

February 3, 2017

Anna Zubkova

“… When you are anxious,

ask advice from your death.
An immense amount of pettiness

will drop then off you…

Death is a wise adviser
that we have”.

Juan Matus [8,2728]

God regularly reminded me about the death of my material body, especially when I was losing myself in the hustle of earthly affairs…

Vladimir often suggested to us to try, if possible, to have no unfinished earthly affairs and earthly debts, including non-material affairs. He suggested us to live in such a way that if death comes right now — we would not be ashamed to die in front of God. And we would not look back to what we have forgotten to do…

God was very skillfully “playing along” to help Vladimir in this.

God showed me the “face of death” even through the threat of surgery (which did not take place): suggesting me to prepare for it as if I would not come out of narcosis. Or He showed the death of other people. Or was slightly hurrying me, directly reminding me that we do not live in our bodies forever. And that we should think about the things that are really important so that we have the time to get them done…

I will now tell about one of these episodes. At that time, I only started to study with Vladimir, and was still working at the studio. One time, I was running in a hurry at the studio yard with a bunch of suits in my hands — and at a turn I ran into a car, which fortunately was not moving very fast. This was during winter, it was very slippery! I was hit by the car and slipped — and found myself under the car. The driver, whitened with fear because of this, got me out and helped me to stand on my feet. He was surprised to see that I seemed to be all right…

I thanked God for this lesson! He showed me — quite specifically and intelligibly! — that death can happen very suddenly, when we least expect it…

But, God sometimes reminded me of death even after that, so that I did not forget that lesson — and hurried me up: for me to understand how much is still to be done.

For example, my mother, who accompanied a female friend, ill with cancer, to the hospital, told me that the turns of cancer patients were similar there to the crowds in crowded buses during “rush hours”. And I remember how God had once showed me — in a dream — myself standing in such a “turn for death”… Another variant of a turn, shown to me in the same dream, was in a comic form — “a turn” of Those Who had reached the Perfection — in front of the entrance to the Abode of the Creator… I saw then immediately how little I had done on this Path… And I also thought about how important it is to try to do as much as possible for others — so that they would also have time to think about all this…

… The illness and death of my mother’s friend taught me a lot too.

I was deeply grateful to that woman who once, during my first steps on my religious way, taught me the Christian humility. She was a sincere and deeply religious human.

Then — I tried to give her the knowledge that I had gained up to that time, but it did not turn out good. She, being an Orthodox, did not believe the things I was saying, did not accept my views, and did not want to read “sinful” books…

But, once, Jesus, speaking through me, promised her a healing. But He was also asking her — in gratitude for this — to keep fasting — a meat-free diet for all of her newly granted life. If okay, He recommended to confirm that the healing really happened — through repeating the tests on cancer. He told her exactly the date when it should be done. Analyses were carried out — and a reply was received: there were no cancer cells anymore.

But she still did not believe Jesus! The opinion of the church turned out to be more important for her!…

And then the cancer returned to her body…

One of the mechanisms of the manifestation of cancer — is the entering of souls of dead animals, killed and eaten, into the human body. These spirits create there “a nest” for themselves of cancer cells.

She died exactly one year later: on the very same day, in which — the year before — she was healed by Jesus…

She continued to accept with humility her fate until the last breath and strictly performed all the rituals and regulations of the church…

Imagine her shock, and confusion, when after the death of her body… she did not find herself in paradise! All did not turn out to be as the “pastors” promised her…

After she died, she came into my room. I had very little experience of communicating with non-divine souls — and did not immediately notice her. She tried to draw my attention to her. I felt bad, stuffy because of this. I did not understand what was happening and only after a while noticed her.

I sharply felt the pain of this deceived soul… To calm her down somehow, I asked her to sit on a chair, which stood in the room. She hung in the air over it in a sitting posture…

I tried to help her as much as I could… I offered to her to recollect the most tender emotions of love, which she experienced in her life, the peace and transparent silence of the autumn after she was healed, when she heard for the first time in her life how leaves fall to the ground in silence… And she found peace… But it is already impossible after death to obtain the state of love, which was not mastered by a soul during life of the body…

But how much more she could have done, as a sincere and deeply-religious human, if…

I strongly understood at that moment what an obstacle it is to not have access to true knowledge about God, about the meaning of our lives! And how important it is to make this knowledge available to all people!

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Wearing “Rose-Colored Glasses” and Meetings with Evil

February 2, 2017

Anna Zubkova

Seeing only the good in everything, not noticing evil, living as if evil does not exist at all, — was the typical way of perceiving the world for me, since childhood. On one hand, it was good — I loved everyone and everything, since when you look through rose-colored glasses — it is very easy to love… But such a “defect of vision” could not suit God: it is impossible to eradicate evil, if you do not see it, it is also impossible to help others in this…

“We can tear out evil only if we recognize it. If we are ignorant of it, it will continue to grow its roots and grow itself in us… Ignorance of it is the mother of evil in us,” — Apostle Philip wrote down [6,8].

I was ready to deal and fight against vices, eradicate them from myself — it was quite easy for God to bring me up to this understanding. But to see that evil exists outside of us too, misunderstanding of this and carelessness in this — may lead to troubles — this was more difficult for me…

So God started to explain this to me.

For example, I thought that, if I loved dogs and was not afraid of them, — then no dog would bite me! So, one day I was walking, overflowed with love and joy, — when a dog pounced on me and bit me. Its angry-drunken owner was sitting on the steps of a store — and was enjoying the scene…

Understanding that there are people who are much worse than the most vicious dogs, who do not even need a reason to do evil, it was becoming hard in me…

Vladimir often showed us the reality of the present and past political situations of our country — and I tried to recognize that the lyrics: “Wide is my dear country, where man breathes so freely!” — do not reflect the real state of things. He also spoke to us about the “Christian” inquisition, about the history of the perversions in other religious movements, about those I had always thought only good, but I knew only about the superficial layer… Every time, I felt like I was scalded with boiling water and that my skin was being removed from me… How easy it is to love a sweet fiction and continue to think: “How everything around is so wonderful!”…

God was strongly trying to explain this to me, so that I could “get it” without having to experience a big calamity on the material plane. He showed it to me up close, but from a side. He was trying to teach me caution — with the same tenderness as it was in my early youth…

… I remember how once, during a tourist trip, I walked alone in the mountains. Just like with dogs, I was not afraid of people at all. I enjoyed the spaciousness and beauty…, when a man, who looked more like a terrible wild animal, approached me. He took my wrist with force and commanded me to go with him. I was not very afraid and said that I did not want to go with him — and I thought that it was enough for him to let me go. But he did not let me go. He also apparently had never seen such a “wild” specimen before. He held my hand for the entire time on the way to the… tourist base… He told me to never walk alone… Only a bruise on my wrist remained after that incident…

So then and now — through pain and tears — God offers to see and realize the existence and manifestation of evil on the Earth. By the same way, He sometimes painfully squeezes my hand and shows me what I previously feared and did not want to see.

He offered to develop in me the wise caution of a spiritual warrior. He suggested to me to love not a fictitious “humanity” while living and serving Him in this world, but, to see the truth, to become namely a wise Love. He offered me to learn to help everyone in everything good — just as He helps!

 

 

Monasticism

May 11, 2016

Anna Zubkova

“… The discernment of one person does not stretch the wings on to another.

Khalil Gibran [7,16]

“God is cognizable only in the true monasticism!”
Vladimir Antonov

(From the film “Places of Power”)

I have already mentioned that from a certain point the current of my life clearly divided into two streams. And the one that flowed in the physical world, — was sharply slowing, stopping an unnecessary race for the illusory, transient values. And there was the other one, carrying me to the fullness of cognition of the Creator, — which was incredibly intense and accelerating. From a certain point the habitual course of events ceased to exist. Only the stages on the Path remained, which were determining changes in my life on the material plane.

A monk — is one who is completely devoting himself to God only: learning to cognize Him, loving Him and serving Him, through spiritual help to others.

I fully understood this formulation, outlined by Vladimir. But it is one thing — to understand the theory, but another and difficult task — to implement it in a real life situation.

So God created a situation where I had to make a definitive choice.

… I was combining the work that I loved in a movie studio with spiritual studies for quite a long time. But at one time, I was offered a job on a film which consisted in an expedition to Egypt (a free trip, wages in hard currency, excellent film director and actors). But on the other hand, there was — the Divine Teachers Ptahhotep and Elisabeth Haich Who were beginning to reveal to us ancient time esoteric mysteries from Egypt.

I understood that if I was to go on the expedition — these doors could never open themselves for me again, the ones that God was opening.

I did not even ask Vladimir about this situation: I knew that if I had, he would have said: “Of course, go, if it’s what you want!”… I had to make this decision myself. And it then became clear for me: I decided not to go and transferred all my currant affairs to a good person and then… I left the keys inside the wardrobe, and slammed the door which had two locks… The door of the world of illusions was closed forever for me…

Other ways of life, other than a life, completely dedicated to the service of God and consisting in moving on the Path to the fullness and realization of the meaning of one’s existence, was already unthinkable for me. God no longer needed to ask me about this, there was already no way back!

* * *

Being a monk — is a state of the soul, one on one with God. This is exactly what true monasticism is. It does not consist at all in things like removing ourselves from “the world”, or adopting new names, wearing special clothes, etc.

Vladimir always taught us to interact with God directly.

In particular, he sometimes suggested to each one of us to stay alone with God in the woods, drift apart to some distance, — to feel that there was only Him and each one of us.

Once, each of us even got to live in a complete forest “retreat” for a whole week. At that time, we got to look for places of power ourselves for the first time, and learned to feel the direct guidance of God.

It always has been an invaluable experience that allowed us to learn to have a more complete and intimate interaction with Him — the Loving Father, Strict Teacher, Only Beloved, Infinite Ocean of Love…

God Himself was unfolding situations in our lives so, that understanding came to us: in fact we should rely only on Him and no one else, not even incarnate Masters, not even on the most dear and closest companions on our Path.

* * *

At first, God was only telling me encouraging words on the early stages of the Path, dictating verses of love and talking to me about the bliss of Mergence with Him, but then, the more profound and mature my relationship became with Him, the more strict He became.

The closer you approach Him — bigger are the efforts He requires from His disciples.

I will give now some examples from my conversations with Him to illustrate this:

“There can be no meditation without love!

“Why is it that love sometimes disappears in us? — The reason is that some part of us-soul has not yet been cleansed from the vices and is not crystal clear, only that can merge with Me! The soul must be absolutely pure, fearless in its aspirations, gentle and transparent!

“This is — what you have to do for Me, you have to clean yourself from vices and rebuild yourself as a soul, filled with love, and offer yourself to Me.

“The things, that you do out of imitation and that are not coming from your own inner convictions, — are short-lived and fly off like a husk.

“’The ones who are led to Me by a leash’ cannot enter into Me!

“You must learn to rely only on Me — and be fearless! The heart, filled with My Love, cannot be afraid, neither for oneself nor for others!

“Understand that My concerns are not in the creation of comfort and peace for you or My other students. My concerns right now — are about you overcoming your “self”, throwing off “the human form” (See “The Teachings of Juan Matus” in [7].).

“Study, — for this sake — see My blessings in every situation. I created them for you and for all the living beings. Rain, cold, a train cancellation — everything can be turned into blessings! Learn to use every situation — to become better!

“Do not be afraid of failures! In defeats, the will to win becomes tempered! Those searching for an easy way cannot reach the end!

“Also understand: That I do not expect that you become perfect instantly. Accept calmly the fact that mistakes are inevitable for those who have the courage to act! Just remember that the wise do not repeat these mistakes twice.

“And remember: that I am — near you, I am — always ready to come to your aid!

“I teach you COOPERATION with Me! This is the only way you will learn to live and act in Mergence!

“Remember firmly and forever:

“The state of ‘nothing turns out’ — is a challenge! It is — a challenge to become better, to change — and to take the next step! Life of a spiritual warrior consists of challenges that he/she accepts as a great gift, — and comes out the winner in the battle against one’s own imperfection!

“Learn to act in Unity with Me! I do not accept your service as ‘a shudra’ any more, when one only acts as told. I expect from you a sense of initiative and creativity! And accept — only love as gifts!

“But do not deny the right of the ego to “self-determination”! Offer your gifts to Me, your ideas, your proposals. Then we will be able to work together you and I on the things that I have accepted. This joint work will teach you to Unite yourself with Me!

“You must not be like a chip of wood without any propulsion, helplessly floating on the waves of the ocean, and neither should you be like a ship, going against the waves and the wind, directing your course, — be like a wave, consubstantial with Me the Primordial Ocean! The waves go up and down — but still they never cease to be the Ocean, and when the calm comes — there are no waves anymore, only the Ocean remains!

“Correct yourself! Do not force Me to teach you through pain!

“Understand that when I have to teach you through pain, I always suffer more than you do! So please stop hurting Me!

“There are events that come into your life caused by the inertia and passivity of your life. If a person, embarked on the spiritual Path, for a very long time, and has not yet changed his/her way of life, then the consequences of such mismatch concerning the growth of the soul in opposition to the old shackles of the material plan, cause events that break down those old shackles and old foundations through cataclysms.

“It is required to always have a more intensive and deeper life in Me, with Me! Fearlessness in letting go of all obstacles is required! The process of the dissolution of negative karma can be done slowly. But we can live in such a way, that the manifestation of that bad karma can be diminished in the material plan — through the right actions and Mergence with Me in Love! This applies to everyone who has spiritual aspirations and wants to achieve more than just a ‘life of righteousness’. This is — for those who follow the Straight Path!

“It all depends on the size of your vessel (Size of the developing individual consciousness.): how much you are able to contain. I am willing to offer you the whole Ocean of Me, the whole Ocean of My Love, Wisdom and Power! I am willing to give Myself — to you, and everyone… but you cannot contain the Ocean. Only the Ocean can contain Itself — you, and all that exists. And at the moment, when your vessel will become identical to My Depths and large enough in size for the preservation of your awareness in Me, then I will be able to remove this vessel, to break out the illusion of your separate existence. You will then make the experience that there is only Me, only I exist, that you are Me!

“For now, since you cannot always be in Me, try to surrender yourself to Me, and the best way to do that — is to offer selfless service to Me! This is — the best way of living, allowing one to acquire missing qualities such as: energy, self-discipline, calm, non-attachment to earthly things, broad-mindedness, ability to think quickly etc. And all actions should be done on the background of bhakti, love-devotion to God. This in return allows us to erase vices from the soul and help in the dissolution of the remaining negative karma from the past. This allows us to grow properly. Those who serve Me and forget about themselves, will be brought closer to Me. I surround them with the love and care of a Father and Mother. I stay with them always.

Total Reciprocity* should become the background state. Always feel yourself dissolved in the Ocean of Me! Being able to perceive Me fully, My Will — can only be done on the background of peace and dissolution. If you master this — you will become One with Me.

“Only love can be dissolved in Love! Only in mutual love can Peace be possible, Gentleness, Mergence of consciousnesses! Everything else — the garbage, let it emerge to the surface and be carried away by the current!

“You — are in the Ocean of Me: in the Ocean of Pure Love! Become this Ocean!

“… Contentment with oneself, over one’s own successes — prevents the subtle and pure perception of Me. It is possible to immerse into Me up to infinity, and then come back into a comfortable ‘human form’, without discomfort, or contradiction between these states. But the immobility of the ‘I’ in the absence of efforts to immerse it into the Depths of Me — over time becomes “shackles on one’s feet”.

“One, who stands still, — moves away from Me. This is like a pregnancy: it is fine, for the fetus to stand still while it grows, but when the mother is ready to give birth things should be moving — otherwise? (This is the “birth” in the Abode of the Creator: See the Gospel of Philip in [7]).

“You cannot sit on your achievements, when the level of your previous achievements forms a marshy lake with stable banks, — instead of the mighty river flowing into the Ocean of Me!

“The Mergence with Me, that does not bring one to go deeper and to expand in constant search of new opportunities to give love to Me and Me to others, — after some time ceases to be in Mergence with Me, for I do not let you stagnate.

“One, who thinks, that the Goal is now reached and that it is now possible to “rest on his laurels”, — enters into the path of degradation.

“The Mergence which does not become deeper — diminishes!

“Love that does not increase, — dims!

“The task — is to become Me in its entirety! And you will not get your way through “pleasing” Me with small things! The stage of ‘shudra’ has ended for you a long time ago! You have the option to take a new direction in life — if you do not, your present incarnation may end!

“And I do not expect at all that you will be able to take this new direction the first time you try. I never condemn those, who fall, rise and start all over again!

“Bless the difficulties, for through them we grow!”


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Divine Teachers

April 13, 2016

Anna Zubkova

Disembodied Divine Teachers, Who in the aggregate are called the Holy Spirit (Brahman) — can manifest Themselves in many forms. They — are Those, Who throughout the existence of the universe, were able to merge with the Ocean of the Primordial Consciousness. Divine Souls, Who became consubstantial with the Creator, and then could manifest Themselves as Divine Teachers, Who are emanating from Him. They implement His Will in His Creation.

Some of Them are well known, and Their Teachings became the property of humanity. But there are also Those, Who were not known by many people, and because of that, the way They lived, and what They said, — did not get preserved in people’s memory.

Sometimes They reincarnate again into human bodies. They then are called Avatars, Messiahs, or Christs. They do this out of love for us: They then are able to help us better.

I would like to talk a little bit more about my own experience of communicating with Them.

* * *

I was living in this world, without knowing anything about the lives here on Earth of Sathya Sai Baba or David Copperfield. I had never even heard of them before my acquaintance with the books of Vladimir Antonov!

My acquaintance with Sathya Sai Baba started when reading Vladimir’s book Sathya Sai Baba — the Christ of our days. While I was reading this book, created with His blessing and blessed by Him afterward — in a published version — in His Indian ashram — I felt His Divine presence. It was the same when subsequently — I read His other books and books speaking about Him. With His immediate help the understanding of many different sentences were starting to unfold their real meaning to me, giving me a much deeper understanding than the one that I would normally have had.

In particular, He, helped me through directing my thoughts in the right direction while flooding me with His Love, or by explaining the drawbacks that I should eliminate right now.

And sometimes He created small miracles, by allowing, for example, to find and buy books about Him that were not reprinted for many years. Once, He put into my hands exactly two copies, one for Maria and one for me, — which were the only ones that “accidentally” were available at the seller. Or a stranger in a bookstore would suddenly give me His portrait…

I was already confidently feeling the presence of Sathya Sai in my life — and was anticipating my first meeting with Him at His place of power, as did, probably, His devoted followers who were going to India to see Him.

… Vladimir took us to one of Sathya Sai Baba’s favorite places — a place, where His Mahadouble can be easily seen and where it is especially easy to communicate with Him.

When we got there we took off our backpacks, had a little break after a long trip and then stationed ourselves next to His Mahadouble — Vladimir initially explained: Baba is approaching and is extending His Hands to us, He is touching our anahatas in us with them. After that he proposed to us to communicate with Him directly by ourselves.

I clung with all my being, with all my consciousness to the enormous Body of Consciousness of Sathya Sai and told Him, how I loved Him, how I would try to learn very, very hard… Then I ran out of words — and it became surprisingly blissful… I was completely surprised to hear His voice distinctly, addressing me — me who knew nothing and who was not able to do much yet, who was standing just at the very beginning of the Path. He said to me:

“We have — one Heart for all: the Heart of God. This is your “Highest Self”, this is what you will cognize, by becoming Him.”

I remembered those words my entire life. I lived with them, was repeating them like a mantra, like a password, that would let me be allowed into the Abode of the Creator.

And some time afterwards, while we were taking lunch, Sathya Sai Baba, Jesus, and Krishna came to bless us. When Baba approached me He stood behind me and cuddled me against Himself as a little girl. Something in me just “overflowed over the edge” … Then I saw clearly His large smiling Face bent over me.

Sathya Sai became for us since that moment one of Those Who is and will always be with us. He responded immediately. For example, He kept telling me “Do not fear anything, I am here, near you, always with you. Your Baba”. And those words “Your Baba”, were the ones that I kept hearing from the depths of my heart. They always helped me to find strength, courage, and patience and to understand what I had to do.

* * *

Our studying continued. Vladimir looked at us cleverly and said:

“Well, what should we do now? Try this!” — and he then gave us a task.

So we got acquainted with Huang Di — one of the first Avatars of the Earth, Who embodied several times in China. It was He, through Lao Tzu, Who dictated Tao Te Ching. He was “the Tenant”, Who, loving various extravagant jokes, gave secret knowledge to the group of Nagual of Juan Matus.

* * *

A forest trail. Around us — thick high spruces. Only the singing of robins and finches were braking the silence.

Vladimir introduced us to Huang Di. In particular, he told us how, once, Huang Di condensed His Body of Consciousness so that It became visible even for very beginners.

Vladimir then mentioned to us that it was possible for us to invite Huang Di into ourselves in the anahata and start chatting with Him.

… I could not see the face of Huang Di in my anahata in the beginning, so I began to imagine His image from the descriptions that Vladimir gave us — my art education allowed me to do this without any difficulty. A mongoloid type of face with broad cheekbones… Suddenly His eyes came to life and sparkled with joy, expressing a smile filled with tenderness… His face showed a real life mimicry!

I tried to speak with Him, but could not hear anything: due to the excitement I was not able to be relaxed enough to perceive the response. Then I asked Huang Di to answer by winking His eyes: I asked Him that if the answer was “yes” — to wink with his left eye, and with the right one — if the answer was “no” . And… — it worked!…

I asked Him a few questions and then, by the same “winking” system and having obtained His consent, I clutched to His neck by the hands of consciousness and asked:

“Let’s go behind the ‘Mirror’!…”

And then I got into the state of warm, dense peace of the eon of protoprakriti*.

I continued “to ride” on Huang-Di’s neck, over and over again, and asked Him “to roll” me by eons, until I could hear very clearly:

“You’re just lazy!”

But this was said so gently that I even could not get grieve. So I continued to enjoy with this amazing experience of cognition of the real God — Living, Gentle, Merry — with all His Universal Might!

However, remembering about this, I felt “uncomfortable” due to my own effrontery. How could I take “advantage of God” so easily? He was the One in my then notions, Who should only be prayed to on my knees! But what was I suppose to do?! Huang Di was here — Alive, Real! And falling on my knees before Him… — did not make any sense: He did not need this at all! And how can one even try to find the knees of the spiritual heart: if it has only the hands of love!…

* * *

Time was flying by in a strange way. On one hand, in the material world, I was living my ordinary life as usual with my work, family, and other relatives, whom by the way were all waiting: for the moment when all this “folly” would end, how long could it last?! And on the other hand I was living in a world, where only God existed. And Vladimir led us there very quickly, not giving us any breaks. Only a few months had passed by after the beginning of the classes!

… Vladimir took us to see the spring sunrise during the time of the black grouses lekking. We had been driving since the evening before, and were without tents.

… After leaving the bus, we quickly got immersed into the silence of the night forest. The starry sky, it seemed, was laying down on the Earth, a cozy blanket filled with the stars. I felt like I could touch the sky with my hands or grow my consciousness to such an extent, that I could just touch the thickness of the sky near me, which was filled with starlights. And through looking from the infinity, I was able to feel as if the little planet Earth was swimming in a soft universal expanse.

Huang Di came — and the whole infinity got filled with His presence. The coolness of the night suddenly disappeared, and everything around us got filled with warm Peace, saturated with His Love.

Happiness was filling me to the brim and was ready to splash out of me! But the Peace of Huang Di was stronger, and therefore my happiness had to burn as a tiny star in the Ocean of Universal Huang Di.

… We arrived to a place where we could spend the night. We were gathering firewood in complete darkness. When, at last, the bonfire broke out, Vladimir invited all of us to lie down comfortably and sleep for three hours before dawn, until the moment when we would go closer to the grouses.

I was not able to sleep, I was asking myself: “Who am I? Where am I? What am I doing on this Earth? Why am I here? What should I do here?” — How many times had Vladimir suggested to us not to forget about these questions! But now — it was not only necessary to ask them to ourselves, we also had to answer before God — directly, with full awareness and with full responsibility: “I am — a part of the Absolute, a tiny droplet of the Living Consciousness. I am — that which is embodied in order to grow and realize its own consubstantiality with The One, to Whom we should strive.” And now I must tell Him about my own readiness to go to Him without hesitation. For there is nothing in life more important than this Goal!

Huang Di connected to my experiences and reminded me about an idea that I had read in one of Vladimir books: God never gives to humans unbearable tasks for them; but they must not continue to live in the dreams of something more**, not making every effort, that depends on them, for reaching the Goal, — it is necessary to not only make a choice in favor of God, we also have to note everything in our own life, preventing us to go to the limit of our own possibilities daily, hourly…

… I slept a little bit while holding the hand of Huang Di.

… We got up before dawn and, after we silently collected our things, we moved to the place, where grouses would be singing. In the predawn mist there were flying woodcocks, gently flapping their wings over our heads. Then the snipes began to sing their delightful songs, rising up, and then falling down and cutting the thick morning air with their splayed tail feathers, which were making the inimitable sound of bleating.

We also listened to the grouses…

… The sun was rising higher and higher and illuminating the fields. Birds were filling the space with their voices. Each species of birds was participating in the general chorus at a specific moment in relation to the quality of the brightness of the light. Males of all species were trying their best to attract females through their songs — so as a result of their love, children would be born, and then they would learn the songs of their own species from their fathers.

Vladimir told us all about this, and taught us to distinguish the voices of the birds.

And then he depicted, through compacting his consciousness into a new form, how grouses sing: so that we could see it more closely.

… If some of you have seen the actor Lebedev, depicting a very old horse in the play “Strider”, then you know that a person can portray a horse like no horse can.

So now try to imagine a man on a small hillock among the fields, who slowly turns into a huge singing grouse. He was tilting his head and torso, spreading his wings, which were almost touching the ground, spreading, as a fan, his large feather tail made of black and blue tinted feathers — and started “to warm up”, by shaking his torso and uttering grouse’s “chufykaning” sounds that later were growing into a jubilant song…

Then Vladimir straightened up, took a human form again, and laughed — and we all laughed with him.

… After this we looked at the Sunrise on a hill inside the Mahadouble of Sathya Sai Baba, Who had emanated from the depths of the boundless Ocean of the Creator.

… After that we went swimming in the icy water of the river, wich had barely got rid of its ice, and then took a sunbath under the already summer’s sun. All the experiences, tensions and delights of the night were washed away by a new day, which we had to live for God, here and now.


* About the eons (lokas) of the multidimensional space, look in [7] and other books by Vladimir Antonov.

** Words of one of the earliest songs of Boris Grebenshchikov.


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The Beginning of Work over Oneself

March 23, 2016

Anna Zubkova

“… There is one miracle
that is possible for (any) one to accomplish.
It is when, full of a sincere belief,
one decides to root out
from the mind all evil thoughts,
and to attain the Goal,
forsakes the paths of iniquity!”

The Life of Saint Issa, 11:8 [18]

In the beginning, it was necessary for me to try to fix the mind and suppress my own coarse emotional states: anger, irritation, envy, greed, etc.

Also it was necessary to learn to love all living beings, including those of our younger brothers and sisters, whom for some reason, humanity persistently strived to “love” as a tasty food.

Switching to killing-free nutrition was the first difficulty for me. But it did not consist in refraining from the desire to eat meat or fish at all: I absolutely calmly did not eat meat and fish, when I was fasting as it was understood in Orthodoxy. The thing that was hard to break was the stereotype “that one does not have to be like everyone else”.

So God had to educate me through pain: to teach me not to cause any pain to others…

For example, I was going to Moscow for shooting the film and thought: “It would be somehow inconvenient to show my new way of eating in front of everyone — when everyone on set was fed the same way! They certainly would not cook separately for me!”

… And the next thing I knew – is that I got ill with a temperature of 40 degrees C. The next two days I was still trying to go to work… Later, while I was lying in a hotel room, I was thinking how inconvenient it would be to die in a foreign city: how much trouble it would be for my friends and family to deliver the corpse!… The temperature was not falling below the mark of 40 degrees and nothing could bring the temperature down… My head was splitting from unbearable pain… I thought about my body, about the fact that it was so close to death and that it had “no place to be put”…

Finally, I realized that I had to switch unconditionally to the killing-free nutrition once and for all! And… I recovered almost immediately!

* * *

I wanted to share with someone all the things that I had understood and discovered. But I was surprised to see the total lack of interest! The true reality, which I saw on every page of Antonov’s books, did not produce any impression on my acquaintances and friends! Even those who, kind of, believed in the existence of God were satisfied with… just remembering about His existence on “holidays” or in misfortunes, while for the rest of the time it was easier to live… without Him.

But God gave me another great gift: a friend on this Path — Maria. She was not a temporary companion: we were helping and supporting each other, and moving up the steps of the Spiritual Path…

We also met each other at the movie studio. We worked together and sometimes exchanged books or talked about our kids… Once I gave Maria Antonov’s books and received in return Carlos Castaneda’s books with the Teaching of Juan Matus.

… Only a few persons reading the books of Castaneda can see, behind an entertaining mystical story, the real work of God with His incarnate disciples…

Maria did not only see this reality. She, while reading and rereading these books, … would wait for the time when the Sonora desert with the Nagual would be here, nearby. And so — she waited until this came!

Our teamwork of working on ourselves began from this point. Maria, having understood the priority of the ethical side of spiritual growth, switched to killing-free nutrition easily: as if it was always understood.

We read a lot, discussed, looked for ways to fight against our own “complexes”, against laziness, against irritability and against all other negative emotions that we could detect in ourselves.

And it greatly helped me to feel that every morning , at the same time as me, on the other side of town at 6:00 am, Maria was doing the same psycho-physical exercises as me, that were described in the books of Vladimir Antonov…

* * *

However, I modestly evaluated my successes.

God — too…

And He had to scare me a bit…

One night I woke up with the full understanding that, if I was not ready to begin serious work over myself right away, that in a very near future I would have a cancer and a painful death…

In the morning I wrote a letter to Vladimir Antonov.

He phoned me on the second day. Although… the letters never come that fast in our city…

He invited us to visit him…

When I told Maria about this invitation — her reaction was: “Is this already beginning? Oh, how scary and great!”

… We arrived in advance. There was a strong frost and wind, so we were shaking with cold and fear. We found the entrance and apartment, but… we walked around the house for about half an hour: so that to arrive exactly on time, not sooner or later. Understanding that our inner selves were going to appear before him without any barrier, that all would be visible, as is, without any embellishment — just thinking about it did not give us much courage.

… We rang the bell with trembling hands. The door opened… We were met by Vladimir on the threshold.

… When a stranger is accepted in embraces and kisses — then we know that we enter another world of relations: in a world where Love reigns and where — we feel like we are all children of God, and that the spiritual Master should be called “thou”.

The most amazing thing that I remembered from that meeting was silence. But this silence was not awkward, it was… calm and nice.

I always felt uncomfortable because of silence in the presence of unfamiliar people. I felt a sort of tension in these situations. Here — all the tensions, all my internal “scenarios” due to the desire to look better, to behave and to speak correctly, retreated, were washed away by the soft wave of peace and quiet. There was a feeling that in the presence of this peace we could swim, and being completely relaxed — dissolve in it.

At that time, of course, I did not possess the ability to dissolve. And so — from time to time I emerged on the surface and with excitement plunged again into the bliss of that peace.

Of course, we talked. Vladimir told me that I had “achievements” coming from a past life, that I was already living in the anahata. He said that I had developed arms of the spiritual heart and that when I was correcting the costumes of actors, the light was flowing out of my hands — that was why he paid special attention to me…

Vladimir very softly and gently touched the topic of my Orthodox upbringing and suggested leaving the narrow limits of religious ritualism to me. He spoke nicely about the Orthodox church and remembered his own Orthodox past. The conversation on this subject appears to have clarified everything for me.

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The Beginning of This Life

March 14, 2016

Anna Zubkova

“There is a certain transforming touch of God
to the soul, after which the old life of sin
and vice becomes impossible
and mentally unendurable.
This is called the moment of truth”.

Mark the Evangelist [6]

I was born in a quite “normal” atheistic family for those times in our country, however, very friendly and full of love and respect for one another.

Only one, my grandmother, believed in the existence of God. I remember her firm conviction that the church — is one thing, and Jesus Christ and His teachings — is quite another. She believed Jesus and did not believe priests.

However, I did not become a believer. I was an atheist “goody-girl”, quite appropriate for the environment.

…But the image of Jesus, thanks to my grandmother, remained in my memory…

And when I was studying in 9th grade, I read the prohibited Bible, which was given to me for a few days for the first time — the Gospel touched me very deeply.

But… my childlike reaction was: “What a pity it is what it is — a fairy tale! And how great would it be if all of this was true!… ”

I still had a lot to read and comprehend — before understanding the Existence of God.

… When it finally happened, I already was an adult and took baptism consciously.

By this time, I had no doubt that One God exists, and that religious beliefs of different people just reflect variants of how to honor him. But, since I live in Russia, — that led my way to the Orthodoxy.

* * *

God is constantly knocking at our hearts. We only need… to open the door of the spiritual heart to Him.

When this happened to me — God tried to give me the greatest gift in life: a living incarnate Master!

But I… was not ready to recognize him yet… I was quite satisfied with my own life: considered myself a believer and did not see the necessity to search for something more… And moreover: I was not aware of such a possibility…

It is said that, when the student is ready, the Teacher arrives. But, if the student is not quite ready yet, does not search for the Teacher and does not want to be a disciple at all… — then things do not happen so smoothly… God has to make a lot more efforts then…

It was as follows:

At that time I was working at a cinema studio “Lenfilm” as a costume designer. The scenario, that I was suggested at that time, was a parody on the theme of the creation of the world. When it dawned on me that I could not participate in the making of a film, which ridiculed the idea of God’s Existence, when I realized the inadmissibility of such work for me — I could not dare to declare this among the collective of atheists for some time. But then, nevertheless, I decided — and refused to participate in such a work, and honestly said aloud the reason of my refusal:

— I believe in God!

Thus, I was able to pass this little test.

And miracles started right away! The next day I was offered work on another film. And… soon Vladimir Antonov came right to the film studio’s wardrobe: an assistant of actors accidentally met him and persuaded him to star in a movie episode.

At that time I had no idea to what extent this meeting would change my life. But each word was etched in my memory, each thought of that meeting were as if fixed in an internal film in slightly slow motion.

At first, when he came in, I did not notice anything special, just a man, with clothing that was out of fashion since a long time ago, however, perfectly clean. The thoughts even came to me that: “When people come in decent places — they should dress better!” Later, I was very ashamed of this thought…

While we were walking to the sewing workshop and back, Vladimir told me, that right here, at the kiosk in the lobby of the studio, his books were sold.

And I kept thinking: “So many weird people are in this world!… And in a film studio you meet them much more often…”

Having said goodbye until filming, I continued on my way to work and passed by that kiosk with his books… But I never had “the time” for it, and did not even take them in my hands…

… The shooting days of the film started. When from seven in the morning you dress up 500 persons in costumes of the Peter the Great epoch — the attention dissipates. But nevertheless I noticed that this time he was dressed in a denim jacket and jeans. This for some reason suddenly made me very pleased, as if it was done for me… As if his warmth and tenderness embraced me, I felt Love and Peace emanating from him. This made a significant impression on me…

I continued to fuss, since I had so many things to do: correct all costumes, and check them all up… And when he came and spoke to me, I continued to hurry, unable to stand still I wanted to run somewhere, do something… He then took my hands and talked with me: he spoke very simply… And I still could not understand…

… Thus God introduced me to my future Master.

… Then I read his books again and again during the whole year… And when it was difficult, painful, or bad — I was warmed by thought, that right here, in this city, lived a man who cognized God, which I saw, and that he held my hands…

* * *

Before that meeting I never searched specifically for religious literature. Such books were coming into my life from time to time… as if by themselves. I was reading them, analyzing and building the foundation of my own worldview from what seemed to me similar to the truth. Those building blocks in my foundation where alternating with empty spaces filled with question marks. But I was not trying to find the answers to these questions by myself. I was just very happy when the answers came to me as if by themselves and filled the empty spaces.

When I read the books of Vladimir Antonov, I received a foundation already made — a durable, real, unconditional one. Everything that I developed as my own world view so far, was correlating with him, similar to a plan on paper with all its shortcomings — ready to build, possible to execute in real life, sustainable building, what I wanted to create myself!

I easily accepted everything that was written there! I found there, everything that I was lacking, and also much more than that — something that I had not started yet to think about. I was reading again and again the books one by one. The most valuable truths of all religious concepts had been collected, explained, and analyzed in them very carefully! The higher knowledge about the Creator, the meaning of our human life and the ways of realizing this meaning is given in the most accessible way. I only needed to read, realize, and absorb this knowledge.

Everything, that I have read, is so grandiose, real, and at the same time… simple! These books where not just about how and why God created everything in the universe, under what laws of His everything develops, but was also about, what follows from this: what each of us, humans embodied by God on this planet Earth, should do.

While I was analyzing myself by the schemes of psycho types described in Antonov’s books, and despite all my desire, I could not find my place near the top of those schemes. My imperfections — in all beauty and fullness — suddenly fell on me! When I understood that I had not been serious enough for real spiritual work yet, I undertook changing everything about myself that did not match the ethical standards.

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The Choice

February 23, 2016

Anna Zubkova

“The free will of a human being,
as a whole, manifests itself in one’s own choices,
and determines in which part of the Absolute
he/she will continue his/her existence”.

Giant [7]

One day, we worked and then were resting on the floodplain of a small river. It was an amazingly beautiful place! The little river which spreads here, on a huge open space during spring, was calmly flowing down the stream. Meadows surrounded us with soft waves of grass almost to the horizon.

This — was a special place by the quality of its energy: a place of power. “River” of the Holy Spirit, called Pranava, smooth and quiet current spread all over this huge open space.

Near us two shepherds were passing by. They went into the Stream of Living Divine Light, but didn’t see or feel it. As the majority of people, they didn’t feel anything special there…

They wished us a pleasant rest and accepted us as fishermen. They told us, that fishing at Vuoksi is better than fishing here… From this started a conversation…

Vladimir:

— Thanks, but we don’t eat meat and fish. For God commanded people: “Do not kill!”

Surprise was the first reaction of the shepherds. Then one of them, having waved away with a hand gesture went his way, but the second didn’t agree in any way:

— How is it possible not to kill? After all, I – must eat! I work a lot and can’t live without meat!

Vladimir:

— Animals feel pain and die in anguish. What right do we have to kill — for the sake of satisfying our own gustatory whims? People may live well and work, without eating meat.

— I kill them myself, quickly and without any pain! I do not want them to be tormented: I know what pain is! — the shepherd objected.

— Everyone makes a choice: to kill or not to kill, to eat or not to eat, to love or hate… But that dertermines how we live on Earth during our lifetime in the body, — and that’s only a short period of the souls life — but it defines our destinies now, during the lifetime in the body, and after his death.

— But how do you know: what will happen after death? — the shepherd asked having become interested.

— Yes, I know. I am a scientist and I have made such researches. I know that souls living in malice and hatred, turn out to be among those like themselves after death in hell, and, on the contrary the souls who live in love and goodness, — provide themselves heavenly existence after the death of the body.

We spend relatively very little time on Earth in incarnate states. And the way we live now, defines our own destinies for the future.

— And how do you know this? Have you been there — have you been in afterlife?

— Yes, I have.

— And came back — why? Didn’t you like it there?

— No, I did like it.

— Then why?

— God returned me.

— And what? You are going to teach us?

— No, not teach, but to explain to those who want to know.

… Then the shepherd started to blame the state for all his troubles: that it was guilty of all…

But Vladimir objected:

— Yes, it is guilty in many respects. But each person is responsible for him/herself before God.

There are two most important “milestones” in life for each human: God and death of the body.

And the way we live this life — is just our choice, ours — and nobody else’s! No one and nothing can be an excuse for the way we live, what we choose, and what we do in this life…

* * *

Once, as if by accident, Vladimir and I met too. This was the moment when my whole life “turned around”…

He then said almost nothing, just mentioned his books…

But by reading them, I realized that… beside me here was a man who knew Jesus perfectly and also cognized the Creator! … His books showed the Path of transforming oneself as a soul up to the very end: until gaining true Perfection!

… God for me, thanks to him, now ceased to be “distant,” “unknowable,” “unavailable”. He became my Real Loving Teacher!

But I will try to tell you about this in detail…

* * *

Each person makes his own choices all the time — how he lives in general and what for, how he or she acts in a set of concrete situations… Sometimes these choices — are conscious, and sometimes — purely reflex: or the results of formed patterns from our upbringing, or on the basis of imitation…

It can be similar to watching TV: someone can choose to watch a philosophical program, or about medicine, about natural sciences — or an action film, a horror film, a sugary melodrama… And to some people — even this doesn’t matter: they just need something “showing pictures and making sounds”…

So all of us constantly decide how we live during each following piece of our lives.

The person, who follows the spiritual Path, makes such choices consciously. And God then can actively direct his movement: that person and God begin to work in cooperation.

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How God Can Be Cognized. Book 2. Autobiographies of the Disciples of God

February 11, 2016

Anna Zubkova

“One can traverse this infinitely long Path
during one single life if one concentrates one’s own will
solely on this purpose”.

Elizabeth Haich [27]

Instead of an Introduction

I would love to write a book about Vladimir Antonov — the spiritual Master, who has devoted his life, the life of a scientist, — to the research and analysis of the whole world of religious and esoteric experience. He himself has overcome the whole path to the cognition of God the Father in his Abode and has attained Mergence with Him. He wrote dozens of books on this topic. He has developed the methodology of the Straight Path leading to the cognition of the Creator — giving us clear and steady steps, allowing those, who have chosen God as their only Goal, as the highest meaning of their life, and as their only Love, — to follow this Path and succeed.

But I don’t have the abilities and skills to write a book about him, I can only tell you how I went myself up the steps of this Path, how I fell, got up and continued. I will try to tell you about what a great pleasure it was — to cognize God, what a great happiness it is — to love God! I will try to demonstrate, by the examples of my own life, — how gently and carefully God leads those, who are giving their trust to Him.

But everything that I have understood, comprehended and done on this Path, was done under the sensitive, tender, and sometimes almost unnoticed guidance coming from Vladimir Antonov.

Acting in the best Indian traditions, I should dedicate my work to the “lotus feet of my Guru”… But the “lotus feet” are shod in worn-out running shoes and rubber boots, worn windbreaker at summer and no less worn quilted jacket at winter are his monk’s garment. Behind his shoulders — a backpack. He goes and leads those, who can and want to go with him, those, for whom the Love of God became an inextinguishable need to approach Him, to merge with Him, those, for whom it became the unique purpose, of this life on earth…

I can only tell you how it happened and how it occurred to me…

* * *

My perception of Vladimir in the first months of apprenticeship consisted of a mixture of love, awe, almost fear and an infinite gratitude for the miracle of being able to perceive the living reality of God that he gave us. Even now, many years later, after the fear and the awe gave place to the surprisingly close, kinship relations, such as those that are formed between us and our non-incarnate Divine Teachers, — it still has not became usual and ordinary.

His soft, smooth flowing manner of speaking, of moving — was strikingly different from anything I’ve ever seen. It wasn’t at all a slowness or sluggishness! But that, manifesting as words and movements, was only a small part of his being, giving the opportunity to the incredible power of Peace to rise from the Depths and affect us.

He explained — not only by words, and we perceived — not only with our minds. We studied — as consciousnesses at once…

The long-term habit of living in the body — as a body — needed a radical change. And Vladimir knocked patterns of behavior and thinking, inherent in us, — by an inimitable manner to joke, with bright examples taken from the life of wildlife and people and with unexpected turns of meditations…

Vladimir always succeeded in making our life harmoniously filled: with great meditations and deep dissolving peace, with beauty and harmony of nature, with fun and jokes and new variants of service to God…

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Beauty

January 8, 2016

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The ability to attune oneself to the tender Beauty is one of the important conditions for successful spiritual growth.

This is necessary not only for esthetical but also for ethical self-transformation in accordance with those precepts (ethical principles) that God suggests us through His Messiahs-Avatars. (You can read about this in detail in such books as [6]). Yet it is essential not only to read about this and agree with the correctness of these principles of conduct, thinking, and emotional reaction, but also to apply them to oneself, transforming oneself as a soul in accordance with them.

The best way to achieve this is to work persistently with the relevant texts: to read them many times, to copy for oneself the most important — on the current stage of development — principles, to discuss these topics with like-minded friends with the analysis of concrete life situations.

Later it is greatly advisable to read again and again the entire list of precepts: in this case, we have a possibility to notice what we did not notice before. One of our properties is that we perceive each subsequent, deeper layer of information only when we have assimilated the previous ones.

Let us understand that a person who possesses strong egocentrism and lives in the emotions of anger, irritation, condemnation, as well as envy, jealousy, fear, and depression, does not have any chances to advance significantly on the spiritual Path.

… It is said about some people: “Beautiful soul!” What does this mean?

This means that such people have developed themselves as spiritual hearts and live now without the above mentioned negative emotions. They are humble, not violent, never rude, calm and energetic at the same time. They give others the emotions of their heart love, they are kind, ready to help those who need help, keep what they said, reliable.

These qualities of the soul are greatly appreciated not only by the people around them but also by God. And such incarnate people are those who are accepted by Holy Spirits and Messiahs as their closest disciples. God takes care of them before all others, and that is why they can advance successfully and quickly towards the Perfection.

But how to achieve this state?

Apart from what was said about the work with the sacred texts, it is necessary, first and foremost, to develop oneself as a spiritual heart.

The given topic was the foundation of the ancient Christian tradition known as Hesychasm [7]. It also constituted the essence of all other true religious traditions.

After all, what is, for example, true Christianity? This is the Teachings of Jesus Christ, which do not consist in the participation in some rites of supposed “salvation” or in praying to someone so that this person can get the forgiveness of one’s sins from God! Jesus Christ never taught this! On the contrary, the Teachings of Jesus explain how one can perfect oneself so as to become truly Perfect, Divine, so as to become a Christ, that is, an incarnate Representative of the Creator on the Earth, coessential to Him!

Let me repeat this thought more concisely: Christianity is the Teachings of Jesus Christ about how to become a Christ!

Jesus put it plainly: be perfect as your Heavenly Father is perfect (Matthew 5:48), and learn this from Me (Matthew 11:29)!

He also spoke about the methodology of such self-perfection: God is Love (John 4:16), and therefore to approach the Divine Perfection, we should develop mainly the aspect of Love in ourselves! (See more details in [6,7]).

The same, but with slightly different words, was taught by all Divine Teachers: strive — through love, first of all — to develop yourselves in order to cognize the Creator of all that exists in the material world and, after achieving the Perfection, flow into Him [6]!

Could it happen that, having read about the possibility of reaching the state of Christ, many weak-minded and other mentally deficient people would start to insist that they have already become Christs?

This is why, among other purposes, it is necessary to explain how and by what efforts these heights of the Perfection are reached! It should be done in order to reduce the number of such “Christs”!

… There is a wise saying of Socrates: Cognize yourself — and then you will cognize the whole world!

Yes, it is crucial to understand one’s own place in the universe and the meaning of one’s life within the Evolution of the Universal Consciousness [6,7,10,11 and others]…

Yet this knowledge comes, among other ways, through the work with certain structures of one’s own organism. And this is not only the brain, which should be bioenergetically clean and function properly, but also the chakras, first of all, the chakra anahata and the spiritual heart that grows inside it and then from it [7].

Only if we understand all this, we can develop ourselves as souls (or consciousnesses) effectively!

Sometimes a spiritual heart develops even if a person does not know about this energy structure. Such conditions are created, above all, during a harmonious matrimony and upbringing children. Yet this is true, mainly for those who are incarnated in female bodies. If, on the contrary, we see heartiness in a man, this is the result of his successful past incarnation in a female body or of the use of special spiritual practices.

There are special techniques for the development of a spiritual heart [7]. They are really effective, but only for those who truly strive for spiritual growth and want to be pleasant and useful for God and people of Good.

I already have told in some of my books about my ancient acquaintance, a psychologist by his education and profession. The principal and probably the only method of his “psychological” influence on other people was to shout at them and flood them with the emotions of his hatred.

I taught him the techniques for “opening” of the spiritual heart, and then one night he telephoned me, waking me up, and insisted that he should come to me immediately… Having come, he told me that he, as always, had been waiting at the bus stop for a bus to take him home. Suddenly he had seen some people approaching the bus stop. “In such cases,” — he said, — “I always hated them! But this time I, all of a sudden, felt that… I loved them! What is it? ¿Is this how your methods work?”

I explained to him that this is what every one should strive for: for the “opening” and further development of heart love!

However, I could not help him: he played this “psychological” game and preferred to return to his former way of life. This is how he chose a path to hell for himself, since hell is the place filled with those who hate…

On the contrary, those for whom God is dear, God Who is Love, choose for themselves the path to paradise and then — to the Creator, to His Abode!

… Love and Beauty are closely intertwined!

The Creator made His Creation in such a way that we can choose what to strive for: for the coarse, dull, or ugly — or for the objects of the subtle Beauty.

Those who strive for hell have chosen the former.

Those who esteem Beauty, Love, and God — perfect themselves on the Path towards the Creator, on the Path of the cognition of Him and Mergence with Him. And He is the Supreme Beauty!

… At the same time, we need to take into account that the beings of hell sometimes affirm that the path chosen by them leads to paradise… And that the Beauty is the “intrigues of the devil” attracting us to hell…

The notions about God are also completely perverted among such people. For them God is a terrifying Judge Who punishes with the suffering of hell.

In reality, God is the Supreme and Perfect Love!

However, only those who have cognized Him can know this for sure. And they affirm: yes, this is really so!

Those Who have flowed into Him manifest Themselves for the worthy ones as Holy Spirits, and They recount how They walked to the Perfection by the Path of Love and Beauty! [6]

* * *

So, how can those who already have “opened” their spiritual hearts continue to master the Beauty?

At the first stage, the principal method can be the attunement to isolated objects of Beauty. These can be beautiful souls incarnated in beautiful bodies, relevant works of art, including erotic ones, as well as some animals and plants. They necessarily should lead to the refinement of the consciousness, since God — in the Aspects of the Creator and Holy Spirits — is the Subtlest of all that exists!

During emotional attunement to the beautiful and subtlest objects and phenomena, we assimilate the qualities that they have.

On the contrary, when we attune to the coarse, we — voluntarily or not — become coarser as souls.

So, let those who want to advance on the spiritual Path, the Path to God, look, to help themselves, for the objects of Beauty in spite of the yells and threats of the servants of hell!

And let us become gradually a part of this Beauty during such meditative trainings!

The further growth on this Path is achieved through the same attunement to the objects of Beauty each time bigger in size. For example, instead of one flower, which grows in a meadow, let a whole meadow of beautiful flowers, with their fragrance, with butterflies and the singing of birds, meadow illuminated with the rays of the rising, tender, morning sun, be the object for such an attunement!

One, as a soul, can not only merge with this tenderness, but also learn to hold it on one’s own arms of love, which come out from the spiritual heart and which are coessential to it!

A soul (or consciousness) has the ability to grow quantitatively, but such growth is correct only if it is performed by the spiritual heart. This the only way of traversing the Straight Path to the Creator!

Let me stress once again that the development of the arms of the consciousness — arms of the spiritual heart — is crucial! This allows one to learn to experience oneself in the subtle and subtlest eons of the multidimensional space and move from one eon to another — up to the Abode of the Creator. This movement is realized with the help of the immaterial arms that have been grown to a great size.

After mastering the functions of the arms of the consciousness, we can, among other things, correct the bioenergetic defects in our own bodies (and in the bodies of other people), healing them.

* * *

Let us not kill flowers, tearing them off or cutting them in order to contemplate their slow dying in a vase or in a jar filled with water!

Or, maybe, we think that by giving someone a bouquet of flowers we do good to that person?

No! The dying flowers create quite unfavorable energy fields of death. These fields cause real harm to the health and spiritual advancement of those who find themselves inside them! And the bigger a bouquet, the more intensive such an influence is.

Our love-compassion should embrace all forms of life, including plants: we should not cause them unjustified harm!

* * *

Beauty is not just a property of the external, relative to us, objects. We ourselves — as souls — should become the objects of Beauty!

For this it is not enough only to have an “opened” chakra anahata.

The Purity and Beauty should be in emotions, thoughts, and acts!

If we have learned to live in the chakra anahata and look from it at the surrounding world, then it is easy to master the complete control over our emotions! We just need not to forget to control our state: when the slightest manifestations of undesirable emotions appear in us, we just make little effort so as to move, with the concentration of the consciousness, into the anahata — and inner calm and love are restored!

How to learn this? For this, we have created and published many times the system of psychic self-regulation, the base of which is the purification and development of the chakras and main meridians! [7 and others]

… We are surrounded by a multitude of people who live constantly in dirty emotions of condemnation, hatred, and disdain for others. These are people of guna tamas, i.e. those who chose for themselves a path to hell — the “rubbish heap” of the process of the Evolution of the Universal Consciousness.

Such people can also be called as dirty souls.

This is clear enough. However, let us look at ourselves and ask ourselves: do I still have an ability to be in such emotions? Am I capable of being in these states even for a short time, for example, by allowing myself to be influenced by someone’s dirty opinion?

If yes, could it mean that some part of me as a soul remained dirty? After all, only a dirty (to this or that degree) soul can maintain and generate dirty emotions!

It is also necessary to watch over one’s own thoughts, since the respective emotions appear as a result of light and bad thoughts. A surplus concentration of thoughts on someone’s incorrect acts or qualities results in leaving the state of love and loosing the quality of beauty of the soul.

Nevertheless, we should learn to distinguish the emotions of condemnation — and the critical valuation of these or those phenomena, including the qualities and acts of concrete people. It is essential to develop in oneself the ability to distinguish the true and the false! Without this, one cannot choose a right path for oneself!

Thoughts and emotions determine, to a considerable extent, our acts.

It is not right to live and act according to the principle “I want!” or “I don’t want!”, yielding to one’s own primitive reflexes! We must dedicate our lives to the realization of our higher predestination [6,11] and serve as an example of this for other people.

By the way, the illustration of the mass subjugation of people to the vice of gluttony is an alimentation by the bodies of animals.

Humans, by their biological nature, are not predators. However, many people — by their own will or in imitation of others — make themselves predators, and this becomes the cause of their evolutionary degradation. After all, there is no possibility to obtain the Beauty of the Great Soul (Mahatma), causing unjustified suffering and death to other beings! Killings out of selfish motives are incompatible with Love and Beauty of the soul!

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Sometimes people object, saying that we need protein food! Yes, they are right, but we can obtain all necessary to us amino acids (components of proteins) from dairy products and bird’s eggs. Mushrooms, nuts, and products made from soybeans are also rich in proteins. A variety of these products, as well as of many others, including cereals, tomatoes, and vegetables, introduced into the nutrition, provides us with a delicious and healthy diet both for the soul and body. The author of this article has been eating in this way for forty years already and has excellent health! (Now I am almost 70).

I can also mention that not all adults digest milk well. This is because the human organism with age stops generating the ferments necessary to process some components of milk. In this case, yes, it makes sense to stop drinking milk.

Moreover, it is necessary to take into account that in the food industry powdered milk is added to many kinds of confectionery (some sorts of cookies, of chocolate), as well as in the majority of mayonnaises, and this can cause problems with digestion. Therefore, it would be correct to examine the composition of such products before buying them.

Bird’s eggs should be excluded from the nutrition, but only at the higher stages of the meditative trainings.

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As we perfect ourselves, the vast landscapes — of many kilometers — mountain, forest, steppe, and water ones — can become the objects for our emotional attunement…

Thus, gradually, provided that we adhere to pure (sattvic) nutrition and follow the principle of not causing any kind of unjustified harm to other beings, including plants, we (as souls) grow as the Beauty!

… Later we will be able to merge with the Beauty of Holy Spirits. After all, this is the Beauty of God Himself!

Only those who are ethically pure and refined as the developed souls up to the level of the subtlety of Holy Spirits develop the ability to perceive Them. To do this, it is also necessary to grow as a consciousness up to a great size, since the capacity of the consciousness depends on this.

… They all are beautiful! Among Them there are the representatives of both sexes. This, as a general rule, is determined by the sex of the body during the last incarnation. Each One of Them is Perfect Love, although Each One also has His or Her own tinges of Love. You can try to familiarize yourselves with this phenomenon with the help of a series of photographs, taken by us, of the Mahadoubles of Holy Spirits on their “working sites” (http://highest-yoga.info/gallery/ru/index.html).

All of Them, as Consciousnesses, can merge into One, forming the United We. Yet They also can manifest Their Perfect Individuality when realizing concrete deeds on the Earth.

That incarnate person who has become worthy of it can also merge with Them — first with One of Them individually and then with the United We.

Their Perfect Divine Beauty is superior to any terrene and paradisiacal one!

It is real to submerge forever into Their Beauty and Bliss! And now we know how to achieve this!

… Holy Spirits, as well as the Consciousnesses of the Messiahs (or Avatars), are seen as white and transparent light, which can include goldish or (rarely) pink tinges, and sometimes scarlet ones.

The intensity of Their luminosity is determined by the power of Their Intention manifested in a given moment. It can be deep Transparent Calm (called Turiya state) or, on the contrary, Divine Fire (manifested sometimes as the Sun of God). [7,10,11]

On a scale of the universe, Turiya state can be compared with Infinite and Eternal Ocean of Calm with Fire Inclusions inside It. These Inclusions appear where there are inhabited planets and where the intensive Process of the Evolution of the Universal Consciousness goes.

In order to become totally Perfect, it is necessary to master all these states, know how to act from them, and many other things.

The “seas” of Divine Fire can be created not only by concrete Holy Spirits, but also by Their United We. These are the Supreme Manifestations of Beauty! This is the Tenderest Flame That takes into Its Bliss the worthy ones!

However, this Fire is unbearable for the people of vice.

Let those who love God strive to approach It — step by step, stage after stage — in order to become It and, from the United We of all the Perfect Ones, help to the development of those who evolve in the material bodies on the Earth and on other planets.

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A person develops himself or herself according to the three main directions: intellectual, ethical, and psychoenergetical. While doing this, he or she masters the main qualities of God: Love, Wisdom, and Power.

Beauty, tenderness, and subtlety of an individual consciousness are some of the facets of Love and should be mastered by every one.

You can acquaint yourselves with the illustrations to the theme of Beauty on our web-sites: www.new-ecopsychology.org and www.spiritual-art.info.

Recommended literature:

  1. Antonov V.V. — Spiritual Heart. The Religion of Unity. “New Atlanteans”, Bancroft, 2010.
  2. Antonov V.V. (ed.) — Spiritual Heart: Path to the Creator (Poems-Meditations and Revelations). “New Atlanteans”, Bancroft, 2008 (in Russian).
  3. Antonov V.V. — How God Can Be Cognized. Autobiography of a Scientist Who Studied God. “New Atlanteans”, Bancroft, 2008.
  4. Antonov V.V. (ed.) — How God Can Be Cognized. Book 2. Autobiographies of God’s Disciples. “New Atlanteans”, Bancroft, 2008.
  5. Antonov V.V. (ed.) — Spiritual Work with Children. “New Atlanteans”, Bancroft, 2008.
  6. Antonov V.V. — Classics of Spiritual Philosophy and the Present. «New Atlanteans», 2008.
  7. Antonov V.V. — Ecopsychology. “New Atlanteans”, Bancroft, 2008.
  8. Antonov V.V. — Forest Lectures on the Highest Yoga. “New Atlanteans”, Bancroft, 2008.
  9. Antonov V.V. — Sexology. “New Atlanteans”, Bancroft, 2008.
  10. Antonov V.V. — Anatomy of God. “New Atlanteans”, Bancroft, 2010.
  11. Antonov V.V. — Life for God. “New Atlanteans”, Bancroft, 2010.
  12. Zubkova A.B. — Fairy Tale about Princess Nesmeyana and Ivan. «New Atlanteans», Bancroft, 2007.
  13. Zubkova A.B. — Dobrynya — Bylinas. «New Atlanteans», Bancroft, 2008.
  14. Zubkova A.B. — Dialogues with Pythagoras. «New Atlanteans», Bancroft, 2008.
  15. Zubkova A.B. — Divine Parables. «New Atlanteans», Bancroft, 2008.
  16. Zubkova A.B. — Book of the Born in the Light. Revelations of Divine Atlanteans. «New Atlanteans», Bancroft, 2008.
  17. Zubkova A.B. — Parables of Lao Tse. Bancroft, “New Atlanteans”, Bancroft, 2012.
  18. Zubkova A.B. — Parables about the Elder Zosima. “New Atlanteans”, Bancroft, 2012.
  19. Tatyana M. — On the Other Side of the Material World. «New Atlanteans», Bancroft, 2012.
  20. Teplyy A. — Book of the Warriors of the Spirit. «New Atlanteans», Bancroft, 2008.

Our video films:

1. Immersion in the Harmony of Nature. Way to Paradise. (Slide show). 90 minutes (on a CD or DVD),

2. Spiritual Heart. 70 minutes.

3. Sattva (Harmony, Purity). 60 minutes.

4. Sattva of Mists. 75 minutes.

5. Sattva of Spring. 90 minutes.

6. Art of Being Happy. 42 minutes (HD-video).

7. Practical Ecopsychology. 60 minutes (HD-video).

8. Keys to the Mysteries of Existence. Finding Immortality. 38 minutes (HD-video).

9. Bhakti Yoga. 47 minutes (HD-video).

10. Kriya Yoga. 40 minutes (HD-video).

11. Yoga of Krishna. 80 minutes (HD-video).

12. Yoga of Buddhism. 135 minutes, in 2 parts (HD-video).

13. Taoist Yoga. 90 minutes, 2 parts (HD-video).

14. Psychical Self-Regulation. 112 minutes in 2 parts (HD-video).

15. Yoga of Sathya Sai Baba. 100 minutes (HD-video).

16. Yoga of Sufis. 128 minutes in 2 parts (HD-video).

17. Yoga of Ancient Russians. 105 minutes in 2 parts (HD-video).

18. Yoga of Atlanteans. 82 minutes (HD-video).

19. Yoga of Pythagoras. 75 minutes (HD-video).

20. Laya Yoga. 48 minutes (HD-video).

21. Kundalini Yoga. 45 minutes (HD-video).

22. Yoga of Don Juan Matus and other Indian Spiritual Chiefs. 147 minutes in 2 parts (HD-video).

23. Yoga of Jesus Christ. 128 minutes in 2 parts (HD-video).

24. Agni Yoga. 76 minutes (HD-video).

25. Advaita Yoga. 47 minutes (HD-video).

26. Ashtanga Yoga. 60 minutes (HD-video).


Vladimir Antonov

Translated from Russian by Anton Teplyy

The corrector of the English translation —
Hiero Nani

 

Why Children Are Different?

November 23, 2015

Two children come to mind.

Once I was invited to a party. There were many people, including families with children: some kind of celebration was going to take place.

I was sitting on a sofa. A baby climbed onto the sofa, crawled up to me and kissed me on my cheek — so sincerely, strongly! He poured his love all over me! He kissed me with such a cordial love! If I had not been familiar with his biography, I would have thought that he was a student of our School, because I had never seen such children outside of our School!

And I knew another child. I met him several times in the streets of Saint Petersburg. He was probably five years old. His eyes had a look of hatred — eerie, piercing look of hatred for everything and everyone. Moreover, this look and this demonic state were inherent in him.

I met him for the first time when he was stealing a hat from one of his peers. Our eyes met; he flooded me with his hatred — and ran away.

Second time I saw him scratching someone’s car with his knife. Again our eyes met, and again it was the same hatred — and again he ran away.

These are two extremes.

I heard the idea that all children are little angels, that we must become like children and so on. Like what children?

When Jesus said “become like children”, He meant the very specific quality of the best children — “openness of the soul”; this is clear both from the context of the New Testament’s Gospels (Matt 18:3, Mark 10:15; Luke 18:17) and from apocryphal Gospels. He called His listeners “to open”, “to undress” themselves as souls before each other and before God — in emotional love!

Jesus meant good, gentle, sincere children. Some children, however, are malicious, rude, extremely egoistic, deceitful, looking at other people as caged wild animals look.

Why are children so different?

Materialistic science has been studying this problem for decades. Different scientists, depending on the profile of their work, emphasize different factors that influence the psychic development of children.

Geneticists talk about the role of genes, that the character traits are allegedly transmitted by genes in the same way as the color of the eyes and hair, or other body characteristics.

Embryologists, obstetricians, and perinatologists look for the cause in how the formation of the brain structures of the fetus was influenced by hormones, mother’s stress, hypoxia, birth traumas, and various intoxications.

Psychologists and psychiatrists address various social factors, primarily the character of the child’s contact with the mother at certain “critical” stages of its development. For example, it has been clearly demonstrated in the studies of children as well as in experiments on animals that a lack of harmony in the relationships with the mother at a certain age leads to excessive aggressiveness in the later years. Additionally, the social disorders may be caused by a lack of adequate contact with peers during childhood. [6]

Commenting on this, I want to note that all these factors indeed play a certain role.

Genetic influences may take place — through genetically determined features of the development and functioning of the hypothalamus-hypophysis-adrenal system. If this system can produce and release into the blood more of adrenaline and noradrenaline, such organisms turn out to be more active in regular and extreme conditions. It may also create a certain predisposition (not predetermination) to excessively aggressive character traits.

And, of course, different factors causing damage to the fetus can lead to distortions in the development of different areas of the brain and endocrine glands, thus affecting one’s emotional characteristics in adulthood in different ways.

Different brain structures, responsible for different functions, are formed during embryogenesis at different times, and every one of them is most vulnerable to damaging factors during this critical time of their formation. Therefore the same damaging factor applied to the fetus at different times of its development leads to formation of different distortions, which sometimes get manifested only in adulthood. [56]

The social factor also has a great importance in younger ages. For instance, if the child suffers negative emotional stresses due to separation from the mother or from the person who substitutes for her at the age from 6-7 months to 3 years — then in adulthood such a person manifests psychopathic traits, including excessive aggressiveness. Significant emotional and behavioral problems also occur because of the absence of adequate (that is, natural) contact with peers in childhood. [6]

Yet the most important reason for the difference between children is not known in the modern materialistic science. It consists in the fact that not only bodies are different but the embodied souls as well. After all, souls incarnated in children’s bodies have been “adults” before; the majority of them — many times. They come with character traits and other characteristics developed in their past history.

This applies not only to human beings but also to animals. And this explains why in experiments on animals as well as in human studies the same damaging influence does not lead to the same result for different species.

Imagine, for example, two persons. One of them in the past life was already holy, and the other one was diabolic. The same high level of adrenal hormones in present bodies will have the opposite effect on them. The first person will more intensely devote himself or herself to spiritual service; the other one with the same vigor will commit robbery and murder.

Besides that, we should remember that incarnation into bodies of different physical qualities is determined by God. Therefore, there is no “bad luck”, since God plans and carries out everything in such a way that the embodied soul is given the best opportunities for its further improvement.

One may ask: can maimed and ugly bodies help someone in self-development? The answer is yes. For example, if someone who in the past life reveled in power, was cruel towards others and maimed their bodies — it will be appropriate that such a person suffer himself or herself in order to realize what pain and suffering are, and through this learn compassion for others.

Concerning the incarnations of wicked people — villains are needed for ensuring the diversity of the life situations, so that we may better understand the psychology of each other. Their fate is further degradation to the very bottom, until some of them change and there, on the bottom, in their suffering, begin to search for the way out to the Light.

Now let us consider another factor affecting the development of children — their upbringing. It is the most relevant factor to analyze in spiritual schools working with children.

I remember one day I observed the following scene: a father — well dressed, arrogantly self-confident man of athletic build, of about 50 years old — was giving “life lessons” to his daughter of 10 years old. They stood in a park, and the father, pointing to the passing people, “explained” to the daughter about every one of them: this one is a scoundrel, that one is a bastard. The poor girl listened to him attentively and probably for many years learned father’s “lessons” of hatred. Only at the age of 20 many people (not everyone) manifest the ability to seriously re-evaluate everything that adults taught them earlier.

Dedicated education can be either very harmful or very helpful to children. They can be taught, for example, contemptuous disdain and hatred for everything or, on the contrary, they can be taught to love everything living, taught that love and harmony are good and that God wants us to become like this, etc.

The correct education of children is the most important factor of the spiritual help to people, the most worthy and interesting kind of spiritual service.

This is also a way of self-development in active love and intellectual creativity.

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Let’s look once again at the main principles of spiritual education of children.

The first principle is active cultivation of the ideas of love (for this is the main thing that God wants from us!) followed by the principle of broadening children’s horizons. We must introduce into children’s memory different programs of the ways they can live having grown up. We have to show them that there are chess, temples of different religions, nature which we can and must love, there are methods of tempering the body, the possibility of expressing oneself through painting, music, dance, photography, different kinds of sports, and very interesting and different ways of getting education, and that all of this can be used for serving other people, as a way of giving them our love.

Education also can be given by an example of deeds of adults, when children in the relaxed atmosphere witness the events in the spiritual school where their parents study. Alternatively, it can be done by arranging special classes and sections for children of different ages.

At the same time, it is necessary to remember that there are problems inaccessible to children’s thinking. For example, the information about the existence of unembodied forms of life should be presented to them in such a form and in that volume which do not lead to formation of mystic fear. Mystic fear can become a basis for development of serious psychopathologies, which prevent a child’s development.

Also, one must not teach children profound meditative techniques, otherwise they may “get lost”, lose adequate contact with the material plane. We need to remember that everyone must develop themselves first in the material world, and only then they will be able to walk the serious religious Path successfully and safely.

It is also necessary to protect children in every possible way against attempts of different ignorant mystics to involve them into contacts with the beings of the astral plane under the guise of spiritualism, into a dialog with “extraterrestrials” and so on, as well as against attempts to engage children in magical and occult experiments. Participation of both children and adults in such actions is a direct way to development of serious mental pathologies in them.

It is also very important to teach children to think, provoking them to do it, for example, in such situations as solving the problem of crossing a forest brook, building a fire so that it does not cause much harm to living creatures, etc.

Or one can ask children questions like “why?” — so that they learn to find answers themselves rather than receive them from adults, and so on.

During communication of children between themselves in the group, the instructor should benevolently but firmly stop all manifestations of vicious tendencies, such as aggressiveness, propensity to take someone else’s things, even the most trifling. Children can remember well, for example, such formulas as: “Jesus Christ taught, that you shouldn’t do to anyone what you don’t want be done to yourself!”, or “The one who takes without permission anything that belongs to someone else is a thief. And a thief is a very bad person!”, or “In the very good book called the New Testament it is written: love each other tenderly with brotherly love! And what you have done — does it look like tenderness?”

Some simple meditative exercises can be of great educational value. For example, all children can imagine a little sun in the chest and then run around and shine at each other with visualized sunlight.


Vladimir Antonov
http://children.swami-center.org/page_1.shtml

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