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Story-Parable on the Thirst for Truth

November 10, 2017

Philip the Apostle

Written down by Anna Zubkova

Under the editorship of Vladimir Antonov
and with his commentary

Paul finally got lost in the endless desert… Only sand dunes were wherever you took out. Sandstorm was over. But that, which was the likeness of a road, disappeared without a trace…

Now he understood how vain he was to not follow the advice to wait out bad weather and start on a trip later.

It seemed to him that a couple of hours of driving cannot promise danger. Why put off the leaving for a few days, what I can reach today?…

To repair the car, it was not possible…

… From the “today” has already passed more than a week. Three days he spent near a broken and sanded car. Then he decided to go — go, relying on the Will of God. Chances to survive — already almost were none. Water is also no more. To think about how stupid it was to spend the water, which was with him, it was unbearable…

The way that he was going to overcome during a day, became infinite…

* * *

Desert — always is desert… Modern civilization only pretends that it can affect the desert.

In an afternoon — exhausting heat, at night — piercing cold…

Cars and camels for tourists and travelers, the hotel with a hint of European comfort — all this remains as in another world.

… Mirages in the desert…

He revered stories of mirages as fiction. For he himself, as a famous writer, did not neglect sometimes the similar.

Now these “fictions” pursued him. How many times he saw as if a lake surrounded by trees — and walked out with the last forces to it…

He tried not to believe mirages. But, all the same, went to where he imagined salvation. It was necessary to at least do something! Just sit and wait for death was not in his nature.

* * *

One evening he spoke to God: “If you want to take me out of here, do it right now! But if my life has the meaning and is needed for You — show me the way of salvation!”

Paul did not even really know what God he was referring to. How much he has read in books!… And he himself has written about the beliefs and religions of many different nations…

But now — to Whom he cried with all the soul?

He even almost laughed at this thought.

But the confidence that this is the only right way, strengthened in him: “There must be One Whom is called the Heavenly Father, the Creator!…”.

Paul asked to show the way or terminate his life right now.

He did not insist. He just asked to give him an answer, way out… into life or into death: “Let Him decide. If He exists, the Merciful and Almighty, — let me know the answer!”.

He went to sleep with the thought that, most likely, no longer to wake up here in this world, in this desert.

… But it was morning and nothing has changed.

The cold night was replaced by the scorching heat…

He walked and walked, without hope, simply walking, losing his last strength from fatigue and endless, as a desert, thirst.

* * *

Suddenly he saw footprints in the sand — the recent traces of human feet!

There was no one around. But this could not be a mirage: the tracks were here, at his feet, he could touch them by hands!

Paul cried, collected all the remnants of the forces.

Hoarse cry, escaping from the parched throat, seemed for him weak and miserable. He screamed again, calling for help to the person who has passed here recently.

Desert answered him with silence.

He went on the trail of an unknown person. It was the last hope.

Paul tried to think about that God… still manifested Himself! He, Paul, asked to show the way — and now he knows the direction!

It was getting dark, and Paul was not able to catch up the unknown traveler.

Hope almost left him: in fact, to see the traces, which still stronger was sanded in the dark, was no longer possible.

But another miracle happened: he saw in the distance a fire!

Paul strained his last strength, repeating to himself, like a mantra, a phrase from some book about deserts that mirages do not happen at night.

The fire did not disappear.

* * *

Paul approached the fire in the infinite thick darkness…

Finally, he entered the circle of light from a small campfire.

A man was sitting by the fire. He was not an Arab. He could be called European. He was dressed in light clothes, a woolen cape was above it. If now on the site of Paul was that former Paul, easily sneering over all people, — that “old Paul” would say that the stranger was dressed in a costume as some actor depicting a hermit in the desert in the days of the early Christians.

But now Paul was in no skepticism or irony.

The stranger nodded calmly to Paul in greeting and looked up at him with his quite amazing eyes, in which one could plunge — and seem to drown, disappear.

The man gestured to sit by the fire.

He pulled out of the folds of clothing the clay bowl and handed it to Paul. The cup was suddenly filled with water…

Not quite knowing what happened, Paul said with dry lips:

“Can I drink it?”

“Yes, you can quench your thirst,” — the stranger’s voice was just as amazing as his eyes. It sounded as if the infinity of Peace… But Paul felt all this by only some part of himself, which this voice, coming from the depths of the unknown, raised here and enveloped with the gentle presence of something mysterious…

… Paul remembered how one day he would like to interview one Indian who lives as a hermit in a mountain cave. He then spent a lot of effort to make a sensational report about the Indian yoga. But the hermit did not answer his questions. He only said to Paul: “You’re not ready yet!” And then sang a single sound mantra… The way it sounded — it was the sound of an infinite Silence. It did not look like nasal chanting mantras of “gurus” that he had encountered in India at every step. Something on this subject, Paul wrote in his diary, but then for some reason, almost forgot about this episode in the bustle and whirl of life…

The stranger’s voice was like that sound, but he said the most common words.

… And now Paul… drank, drank, drank… He waited for all that water to deplete, but it did not end…

“You can stay at the time: the water will not end and will always be, when you need it,” — the stranger said with a smile.

Paul, with some difficulty, pulled away from the bowl and put it, still full, next to him.

Then the stranger held out his hand to Paul, as if giving him something. Paul stared at the graceful palm, lit by the light of the fire, a few seconds, until he saw that the bread rests on the palm.

Bread — it suddenly appeared!… Or rather it could be said that the bread… has become visible…

Paul took still warm hunk by slightly trembling hands and thanked. The stranger nodded in response.

Fatigue and something else, such as a thick transparent peace, enveloped Paul from all sides, and did not allow being surprised or frightened. Everything was… as if usual. It was as if every day he drank water from the bowl, in which it does not end, and ate materialized bread.

Then the Stranger offered Paul to rest.

“Can I ask You a question?”

“Ask”.

“Are You — a hallucination?”

“Yes, I thought that of all the questions, you have accumulated, you would ask exactly this!” — He laughed loudly and held out His hand to Paul, on which He had just materialized the bread, — so that Paul could touch it.

The hand was amazingly beautiful, with thin graceful fingers. The skin of the Stranger was covered with the smooth golden tan of man with white skin, who spends much time in the sun. The Stranger was of the flesh, which could be touched.

“Yes, this My body now — it is the material reality,” — He confirmed. — “But there is also another Reality. And due to the fact that it is not material, it does not cease to be the Reality.

“But better we will talk about it tomorrow. Now you are most in need of rest.”

Paul lay down by the fire. The Stranger covered him with woolen cape as a blanket.

Paul fell asleep almost instantly…

* * *

In the morning, opening his eyes, Paul tried to understand whether all seen by him was a dream, or the fruit inflamed by thirst, hunger, exhaustion of imagination or, still, a reality…

Amazing Stranger was in the same place.

He welcomed Paul in silence — by a slight smile and nod.

Paul greeted Him in English, and thought for a moment about what language they were talking yesterday… Paul from childhood was fluent both in English, and French, but recently English was closer to him, he also wrote his books in English.

“You ought to wash,” — said the Stranger in English.

“Or would you prefer to speak French?” — He said in the same pure, as well as English, French.

“I prefer English.

“But to wash… here — where?”

The Stranger held out His hand in the direction of a large stone. The stone with some tension and a sound like cotton, suddenly split. From the resulting cracks, water started to flow.

Paul again was drinking, drinking… Then he bathed with cool clear water that flowed now in a small shallow basin near the stone. Gradually was formed a small lake…

“Clothes can also be washed.”

Paul did as said. He then laid washed out to dry clothes on the stone from which the newborn source flew.

* * *

Paul returned to the fire in a woolen cape of the Stranger.

Meanwhile, the Stranger laid out on a makeshift table made of pure linen — pieces of bread, nuts and fruits. And yet — bowls with water and juice.

Paul came up to this table. He turned to where he washed, checking: whether the marvelous source disappeared? But the stone with running from it stream of clear water was at the same place. Next was a small lake. On the other bank of it — appearing as from nowhere antelopes quenching thirst. They started at the look of surprised Paul.

“Do not scare them, they want to drink. Sit down at the table, breakfast is ready. And then we can continue the conversation.”

Paul came and sat beside Him.

“How do You do all this?”

“And how Jesus fed thousands with a few loaves?”

“But that is a Christian legend…”

“But I thought that you are a Christian. That’s you even are wearing a cross… Or is it — so simple: an ornament or amulet, like the Pagans do, ‘to be on the safe side’, or ‘from an evil eye’?”

“You’re almost right. Although I was baptized as a child, but — of me was not very good Christian, I still am questioning and read the manuscripts of different nations about their ‘gods’ and beliefs…”

“Searching for Truth — is not a sin! Reading and learning — it makes sense! Even Jesus has spent years of His life for the cognition of the different faiths of different nations — before He began to preach the Truth.

“And your baptism — does not matter… Another Baptism should be taken by the soul!

“However, now — the meal.”

And He looked by inviting gesture to the arranged on a clean cloth treats…

Paul was absorbed in satisfying hunger and thirst, and almost did not think about how wonderfully everything changed since last night…

* * *

When the breakfast came to an end, the Stranger still remained silent. He ate not a lot and slowly. Then Paul as if heard within himself the question:

“Did you want only to satisfy hunger and thirst — or you need the continuation of life for something more? Why would you like to live in this body: what to know, to understand, to make?”

The Stranger said slowly aloud the words that Paul had just heard inside himself-soul.

Paul thought. All life, like a film strip on fast-forward, appeared in front of him to remind him of his childhood with radiant perception of beauty and goodness, studying at the institute, the growing skepticism, career of a journalist and writer… His latest book — “Itineraries of a Lone Traveler” had a success… Then there were the fight for the circulation and quality, quarrel with the publisher… What he wanted, when he wrote the book? Money, fame, benefit of what he reveals unknown for people? Are needed for someone, in actual fact, all his arguments about the secret teachings of ancient Egypt, Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, religious myths and legends of various nations? All this seemed so important a few weeks ago. But now…

“Your next book could be more interesting. You now have the opportunity to ask about the important for you and get answers. You may ask.”

“Who are You?”

“It is not the best question to start with. My name — Philip. The rest you will learn gradually.”

The next question froze on the lips of Paul, and he did not dare to say it aloud: “Are You — the Apostle, Satellite, and the Disciple of Jesus? But how is this possible: two thousand years ago — and now… alive?”

But Philip still answered this non-pronounced question — again as if by a voice that Paul heard inside. And then He repeated again the said, slowly and quietly uttering the words:

“Why do you think that this is impossible? You yesterday were looking for a meeting with the One Who will reveal to you the Path to the true knowledge. I use the word Path, because it’s impossible to reveal the Truth to another soul directly, just as it is impossible to quench your thirst by giving a drink to another man instead of you. Each should discover the Eternal Truth himself or herself. There can be only a little help in finding this Path by others.

“You aspired to God as well as here in the desert rushed for mirages. One mirage in life was replaced by other, but no one has brought you closer to the Truth. And a number of distractions pursue you from all sides so that you could get lost or even forget about the Goal.

“If lots of people follow along in a certain direction, it seems to them that they know where to go. But this is not always right…”

… Paul understood that the pronunciation of thoughts aloud was not necessary to communicate with Philip. But Philip has used it only as a confirmation: that in mind of Paul were no doubts in understanding of what he perceived as the answers.

Paul used to be very fond of the question on the possibility of telepathy, but he did not think it could be done so easy with himself.

Philip continued:

“Why do you think that the appearance in the resurrected body on the Earth after large time is not possible? You yourself believe in the reality of the resurrection of Jesus in the deified material body, right? You even wrote an entire article on the ‘Shroud of Turin’, which captures the negative of bodily form of Jesus at the moment of dematerialization of His body. And you yourself argued that the One Who was able to dematerialize His body — easily could recreate the body again…

“Why do you think that He did not want to teach others the same?”

“And have You mastered this?”

“Yes, but not immediately.

“And now tell Me: who are you?”

… The usual question caught Paul unawares: it seemed to him that Philip knew everything about him, even He read his articles.

“My name is Paul,” — Paul decided to compete with Philip in brevity.

“Why are you here — a person living on the planet Earth? Have you thought about this?”

“Yes, I thought… I thought that we all are here to learn…”

“Good answer!”

“Yes, I was looking for the Truth! I expounded in my books all that I saw, learned, and considered as the significant. I included into them also my thoughts about what I saw, about the people encountered, heard about the legends…”

“What will happen with all your knowledge, when the body dies?”

“It will remain in my books… Perhaps this can help others in their search…”

“What do you think: have you lived before being born in this body? And will you live without a body after its death? And will you be born in a new body to continue to improve?”

“It’s not fair! You promised to answer my questions, but instead throw me with questions whose answers I was looking for and did not find!”

“I help you to learn to find the right answers! I have still only begun!

“You read many times right and wrong answers to these questions, but did not feel, did not recognize the Truth! You many times passed the Truth!

“All external knowledge is only the husk! It is possible to believe or not to believe… But this “belief” does not change anything in man!”

“Christianity rejects the knowledge on reincarnation. Hinduism…”

“And you yourself? I’m aware that you’re familiar with the modern doctrines of different directions of faith, including of those people who call themselves ‘Christians’. You read, too, the books of many other different nations… But I ask you: what do you think about this — you yourself?”

“I thought, it would be right for the new incarnation to be — for one who made mistakes, … for one who started to learn, but did not know all… I think it is more reasonable, than the eternal torment of hell or eternal bliss of paradise. It does not seem logical to me a death, for example, of a baby: if its life was cut short, almost before it began… There must be an opportunity for it yet!…”

“Perfectly! Brilliantly! You’re already making progress!”

“But people do not remember their past lives. And those minority, who argue that they recall, — cannot prove that this is not a fantasy. And the Bible and other books do not explain…”

“Did you think about the meaning of your life and lives of other creatures, of the interconnectedness of souls, who come to the Earth, about God, if He is, to be fair, is not it?”

“Yes, You have well formulated my thoughts. I did not understand why various people so differently worship a Higher Power, God, claiming that only their faith is true, and that only “their God” indeed exists. But there are those who recognize the multitude of Gods or Saints…”

“You would like to receive a ready answer from the books. But you were looking from the outside. But the Truth must be found within.

“The first, and you did this, — one needs to set a goal and look for it. There are so many those who are not interested in the meaning of life, they just go with the flow, in accordance with their instincts and reflexes… But there are other people who are willing to spend a lifetime searching for the Truth!

“The second thing to do is the direct cognition of the Truth through personal experience. The entrance to these states you have inside you.

“Jesus pointed the Path for approaching the Creator: ‘God is Love!’. That is, He can be cognized only by becoming soul-love by developing oneself as a spiritual heart.

“Krishna also taught about it: “Only love can contemplate Me in My Innermost Essence and merge with Me!”.

“To cognize oneself as the Atman and Higher ‘I’, to cognize the Primordial Consciousness and to flow into Him — one has to become a developed and loving consciousness! Christians-Hesychasts believed that this stage — that is, the transformation of the me-soul into the spiritual heart — is the most important.

“The knowledge that you get from the level of words, rather than on the basis of the experience of the soul, — remains external, superficial knowledge. It is only information for thinking, it is useful, but… But the Truth can be really cognized only through your own experience! This is the knowledge gained as states of consciousness in Union with the Creator.

“Initially, these moments are brief. But it is possible to reach the level of knowledge, about which Jesus said: ‘I and the Father are One’.”

“Have all the Apostles managed this?”

“Many. Some of Them — quickly, others took more incarnations.

“But not only Jesus and His disciples have cognized this.

“Those, Who have mastered the Mergence with the Primordial Universal Consciousness, the Great United We, Which is called by people for the sake of simplicity as God, — Those can draw knowledge directly from the Source of the Universal Love, Wisdom and Power, Who are now at Their disposal. All the knowledge, stored in the Absolute, is provided to Them upon request. And this is limited only by the ability and experience of that Consciousness, which perceives this Knowledge.”

“Do You want to say that Those, Who have attained the Mergence, may also have restrictions?”

“I mean that the possibility to improve is boundless! This applies, too, to the Evolution and Life of the One, consisting of the Multitude.

“But for a person to start this Path, he or she needs to work hard.

“To replace one’s savage instincts by the Divine Awareness is not possible quickly.

“Souls gradually climb the ladder of development: from the lower forms of consciousness — to the top. This evolution begins in the tiny droplets of consciousness, growing, being fastened to the crystal lattices of minerals. Then the germs of souls grow, being connected with the plant’s and then animals’ bodies.

“Only man, who matured in a long series of incarnations, is able to improve oneself-soul — consciously. You have now already not the first incarnation of looking for the Truth, and you now have real chances to succeed.

“You are a vegetarian. You chose this according to the conviction that man does not want to commit the murder of any innocent animals. This is — a serious first step on the Path of goodness.

“You are doing Hatha Yoga. However, you were doing this as exercises for health. But even in this version, it has brought good results. The energies of your body are clean and are in very good state, when compared to the average majority.

“You are prepared to try and take the big stages of the spiritual Path. Do you want it?”

“Can there be any doubts? Yes!”

“To begin, you need to explore the intangible for usual vision, but very real structures of the organism: chakras and meridians. They allow one to trace the relationships between the soul-jiva — and its material body.

* * *

Philip started training Paul.

He explained how it is possible to move the concentration of self-soul through the chakras and meridians. Paul really felt, how the state of the soul changes from simple immersion, for example, in the chakra anahata: peace and love becomes natural, dominant thoughts disappear.

A few days Paul has devoted for clearing these energy structures.

The second task was to learn to live by the spiritual heart. Here Paul had to work much longer: in fact, the habit of constantly thinking about something — accustomed to life in the head chakras.

But Philip explained:

“It is necessary to master the continuous existence by the spiritual heart. It is the overriding basis for a correctly developing soul!

“The spiritual heart must become much more than anahata chakra, located in the chest of the body, where the spiritual heart began to grow from.

“The ability to be a soul-love, which has become much more than the tangible body size, fundamentally changes the status of the person. This is the first stage of the spiritual Path. Even just doing it — makes achieving the paradise as the natural state!

“And this step also opens the door to the secret world of the Divine Reality!

“The entire esoteric Path is needed for only mature and wise souls.

“But the ability to live as a soul-love — is adequate for every soul, it does not hurt anyone. It will bring all souls to the light and joy of life, even when life of the body lasts. And after the death of the body — it provides the life of the soul in blissful harmony of the paradise!”

* * *

Paul now spent a lot of time in meditations, filling by the soul-love the space above the Earth’s surface.

Endless desert, which before seemed to him such a ruthless and brutal, now… gave him the opportunity to expand the spiritual heart more and more, covering the entire space.

His previous attempts to “meditate” — sitting cross-legged and concentrating in the head or eyebrows, looked now as a funny game of a child who tries to show something, about which it does not know anything…

And Philip was gradually revealing to Paul the new horizons:

“Now you already have the understanding that you are a soul, not a body, endowed with the mind and organs for communication with the outside material world. Now you have the opportunity to cognize also that God is also the Reality. I will help you to gain first experience of direct perception of God.

“But for this it is necessary to feel the reality of life of the soul, without the limitations of perception, that overlap the material body.

“A soul, when incarnate, is connected with a body. This bond forms during embryonic development. Having been born in the material world, a person learns — through the body — to see, hear, feel, think. A child begins to interact with the world of matter with a help of this tool — the material body.

“But the soul can do all the same without having a body. It can see, hear, feel, think in other planes of existence in the Absolute.

“There are the enormous potentials to control matter from the Divine plan of life! But this is for you — the long perspective. Walking on water and materializing the bread or the water — this is possible for only the soul which has realized its Unity with the Primordial Consciousness, God! To do this, the soul, free from the limitations of matter, must learn to live and act in the subtlest layers of the Absolute.

“Not all the Divine Souls have reached the immortality of Their material bodies. Not many have mastered the full deification of Their bodies, like Jesus. And taking the body from the material world — it is not an obligatory feature of achieving the Mergence with the Creator.

“So, the main conclusion: the incarnate man-soul can communicate with God!

“Now, about — how.

“Let us return to our practical work. I promised you the experience of such interaction with God.

“To do this, the soul must be developed as a spiritual heart, that is, as love. If not — all is confined by fantasy, mental images created by the mind. This is the ‘stumbling block’, which stopped very many beginners in their spiritual search.

“So, the most important step on the Path — it is the development of the spiritual heart.

“Feel yourself in the anahata chakra as a whole, like in a room. Now open the window ahead — and clean the ‘room’ of all trash and shadows.

“Next, let your love, as a gentle light, shine and illuminate the space ahead! As well as a spotlight or the headlights of the car at night illuminate the space in front of you — so love of the soul can illuminate and caress space and all the living in it! At first, illuminate the visible by body’s eyes space, and then farther and farther ahead…”

… Paul loved the night driving of a car on the empty road… And now he was very apt to feel the light that illuminates the space in front! It was like a heart’s light is now illuminating his way through life!

Philip continued:

“Now in a bodily primary abode of the spiritual heart — the anahata chakra — it is possible to turn back the face of the soul. You can open another window — into the space of the Divine Light.

“Try to look back from the anahata chakra — just like staring ahead… Do you see the Light?”

“Yes.”

“Come into that Light! Immerse yourself in It, as in the vast Ocean! Dissolve in It, going as far as possible…

“Now try to look from the Light to there where in the body you have lived before…

“And again — let it be only the Light!

“You were willing to take from God the experience of death of the body. Now — a part of this experience: the life in the Divine Light without feeling the body. If the body dies — then you’re… you remain! And you continue to live in the Light, being It, is it not?

“Being in this Light, you can feel It between the fingers of the hands of the soul.

“Or you can try to hug It — Infinite — with your arms. This leads to a state of blissful joy, delight!

“This Light consists of the mutually merged Consciousnesses of All the Attained.

“You can take Their Desires and Intentions.

“Feel your arms of the consciousness! They — are huge and can be even more, more… They can touch everything by the fingertips or take on the palms any creature.

“In the Christian tradition, this Light is called the Holy Spirit, in Hinduism — Brahman.

“Merged with the Flow of this Light, flow by It through your material body and around it, then — from above — down, upwards, from back — forward, from ahead — back. It is flowing the River of the Divine Love! Learn to always feel in the Communion with this Divine Love!”

… Paul miraculously perceived himself in confluence with the Divine Light, and at the same time… his body was on the sand.

He was now the Part of this Light.

He has realized that what he read in the New Testament: one needs to go by the soul towards God-Spirit!

He was infinitely free and infinitely happy!

But this state did not last long: the fatigue of meditations forced back into the body.

“Well, now you really have got the baptism in the Holy Spirit!” — Philip congratulated him. — “You can now be considered as the real Christian!

“A process of gradual transformation of the soul into the Divine Light is called Enlightenment. And one, strengthened in the state of Divine Light, is called Enlightened.”

* * *

Between these meditations, Paul again felt like a prisoner of the body. And this saddened him.

Philip once replied to these thoughts, which were not expressed aloud:

“Not all at once! Even you — who had already not small spiritual experiences in your past lives — need time to get used to the new states of consciousness.

“You will need a long time to work on the extension-growth of yourself as a spiritual heart, and on the further purification of structures inside the body and filling them with the Divine Light.

“Only when the substitution of the energies within your body by the Divine Light will be reached — it will be easy to live in this Light all the time. Then the Light will be your Home — the Home of the Soul. This Home does not have to be exited, despite the fact that the body is in the material world.”

… Philip showed to Paul every day more and more new methods of work on the expansion of the consciousness as love and replacing energies in the body.

* * *

After a few days, one night, Philip asked Paul:

“Would you like to talk with Jesus?”

“With Jesus? I?”

“What are you so puzzled about? You can not decide? But you believe that Jesus can hear what people say to Him, right? Those, who recite prayers in the temples, can they probably believe that they are heard by Him?

“Many people are crying out to Jesus. It is because they know about Him more than on many Others, Who have reached the state of Christ.

“All of Them and Each of Them may now be called as the Holy Spirit.

“One can selectively appeal to Someone among Them.

“The Creator consists of this Set of the Perfects!

“Their entry into the Creator is similar to the drops of water which flow into the ocean and become merged there with those drops that have flowed into the ocean before.

“These, the Perfects compose the Great United We! Someone calls Him God-the-Father, someone — Tao, someone — Allah, but the difference is only in words.

“Divine Consciousness, called the Primordial, — this is the Multitude of the Divine Consciousnesses mutually merged in One!

“But Each of Them can act in the Creation, parting Oneself. Just as the wave can rise above the ocean, while remaining an integral part of it, — and Those, Who have attained, can manifest Themselves, remaining in the Unity with the Ocean of the Creator.

“So, would you like to talk with Jesus?”

“Yes!” — Paul said emphatically, understanding that, if he refuses, then he will never forgive this to himself.

Something from his journalistic past flashed as a strange thought: “I did not ever think that it is possible to interview Jesus Himself!”

… There was the Light, approaching from the intangible depth. It was like the rising sun… Light approached. In It, was manifesting the image of Jesus.

And now — Jesus, the living Jesus!

He and Philip embraced…

Then Jesus went up at arm’s length to Paul. Paul tried to touch His clothes. Jesus was composed of Light, the body was not material.

Jesus said:

“It is not an illusion. This is the reality. Are you still not satisfied with the words of Philip, Who explained to you that the difference between matter and Light — it’s only the energy levels of subtlety?

“Why do you need My material body? In order to write a sensational report about a meeting with Jesus? For everyone, who reads your book, begins to seek a meeting with My materialized body?

“Well, look: My body may be the material.”

Jesus condensed His body of Light and sat down next to Paul and Philip by campfire. He continued:

“Miracles, in fact, do not change anything fundamental in human souls! However, I will be glad, if you write about that for each person either praying in the temple, or bustling in a big store, or going by a train, or sailing on a ship — can stand, sit, speak — and not notice that He, with Whom he or she is nearby, is Jesus. I have a lot of times of this happening among embodied people, and they did not recognize Me, did not hear Me…

“It would be nice, if everyone will know that pushing someone by elbows amid the bustle, he or she can alienate, without noticing, and Jesus…

“Within all this time, people, too, have not learned to see in each person a brother or sister…

“If I come, as before, and begin to perform miracles — I certainly would be called a ‘false prophet’!

“But for those, who know Me, — they do not need My body, consisting of flesh.”

“But why did You come in the body then — 2000 years ago?”

“I was sent into this hell of suffering and misery in earthly life — to point medicine and antidotes against them. I did it, too, by presenting people the Teachings about the Path of Love!

“Among the darkness of ignorance, I kindled the Lamp of Truth. I have shown the ability to be only Love — even in the hatred and other abominations of human souls!

“I showed people the Path of Love! I spoke about the possibility of exit from hell — to the Light of the Creator, to cognition of Him and Mergence with Him!

“The Path of service to God — this is to go where the bad, where you will be hated, killed… And one should be only the Pure Love, continuing to bring to people the Truth of God! Each of the Coming from the Heavenly Father onto the Earth — demonstrates this by His or Her life!

“In words — everything is easier. But Christ must live so — every day and hour, every minute of life on the Earth, not allowing the flame of heart to be extinguished and without breaking the Сonsubstantiality with the Father!

“Are you ready to start this? After all, just for this our meeting was planned!”

“I do not know, if I can do…?”

“You do not know this, until you try!”

“Tell me, did Your earthly life’s Feat help someone? Was it necessary for people? For they have forgotten everything again!”

“My Teachings have helped many. People need to be aware of the Path to achieve the Oneness with the Creator!

“Those, who then had understood Me, — they went this Path. We had got — many. And many others there were, who just approached and keep going.

“Even when darkness thickens around and there is no hope that the Light will shine — then it is only love that saves us from darkness and allows to keep a basis only in God!”

“And that gets up the so-called ‘Christianity’? Crusades? Inquisition? It does not fit into an understanding!”

“Any medicine, when used incorrectly, can become a poison…

“Even the most useful word or action, if it is not used properly or for evil intentions, — can bring the evil…

“I’m not talking about the distortions that were added intentionally by those who converted the Teachings of God — into a way to control people for the sake of themselves!

“In the wrong application, the force can become the violence, caution — cowardice, excessive concern — the suppression of development.

“Also, the belief in the existence of God can keep a person from evil. But the criminal leaders of religious movements make people, having fallen under their influence, to be perpetrators.

“Only the mastered love allows one to gain Wisdom to distinguish between good and evil — to a level as God distinguishes.

“And all is so simple!

“Everyone now can become My disciple — directly, without intermediaries!

“I would like you to tell people about it.

“And, to be My disciple, — it does not need to be close to My body!”

… Jesus dissolved His body’s image in the Light… and continued to speak. Paul easily understood Jesus, Who was now just a Light-Love, Light-Tenderness. This understanding was more than just hearing the words.

In the Light, the voice of Jesus continues to sound:

“I am Omnipresent! I can be right now next to each man!

“Everyone can aspire to fulfill the principles of life, offered by God. This will be the true Christianity! Not only I, but many the Attained will help such man!

“Notice: now your mind is completely relaxed, and the silence has filled the spiritual heart!

“God can be perceived only by the developed spiritual heart. Only the soul that has become the love can touch the Divine Consciousness, Which is Love. To this, I have called people ever since — by the words “God is Love!”.

“But this cannot be passed to anyone by means of only words!

“But you — give me a hug! My Light and Love — are waiting for you! I was long waiting for this moment! I love you!”

… There was only Jesus — Blissful Light of God, Who immersed in Himself and dissolved in Himself…

The soft voice of Jesus continued:

“Try to feel that here are Many of Us.

“Here is, in particular, Philip. You will now always be able to recognize Him. And it is not necessary for Him to be physically close to you — for you to continue to be trained.”

… The space of the Divine Light — the space of another reality of existence, stunning first by Its Tenderness, Beauty, Greatness, and Simplicity — it now was clearly perceived by Paul, because He was now in It and being It.

Ever-evolving Consciousness, Divine United We — consists of a Set of Perfect Consciousness. It does not know decay and death! But it is full of mature Wisdom and Omnipotence, fused with a gentle and caring Endearment of the Perfect Love!

* * *

The last day of the life of Paul and Philip at the source in the middle of desert had come.

Philip said:

“Time of our joint stay here is over. Stage of your training with the help of My material body is coming to an end. Then you can take help and guidance for your growth without My presence on the plane of matter.

“Did you read about meditation Cross? Fullness of this meditation, including the “Right” and “Left”, you are to cognize later.

“Now, before we leave, we have to do one more thing. In memory of our meeting, we can give to the desert the new oasis. And to be precise — to return the landscape that was here thousands of years ago.

“Water is already here. It remains to sow the seeds.

“Take these seeds of dates and of some other plants that are able to take root here.”

… Paul and Philip walked around the newborn lake, throwing the seeds along the coast.

“Do you believe that here something will be able to grow? Here is just the sand!” — Paul said.

“Where is the source — life can always develop! Animals will come to the water, soon the first plants germinate — and then the soil is filled with power and allow other plants to germinate.

“You now also carry a source of the Truth.

“You will also need to work hard to ‘cultivate a field’ of yourself-consciousness, that is, to cognize the fullness of Mergence with God and to plant the ‘field’ by many seeds. You can grow yourself more and more, and to help others to do the same. You can do it wherever you live and work. And God will harvest!

“That’s all! For our bodies — it’s time to leave.

“You have already started to learn to listen by the consciousness and understand God’s plans!

“The ability to communicate by the consciousness with the Divine Consciousnesses will help you never be without Divine Help and Advices. Not only Jesus and I have come into your life. All the Messengers of Light are always ready to help those who are turning to Them. Call!”

… They embraced.

Then Philip went without looking back. A light breeze was sanding His tracks.

Paul filled the jar with water, folded stock of provisions, left to him by Philip, and went to people…

Three days later, he came up to where the ordinary human life was in full swing.

And he did not have any tangible evidence of all that had happened to him, in addition to that surprising fact that he was still alive.

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Monasticism

May 11, 2016

Anna Zubkova

“… The discernment of one person does not stretch the wings on to another.

Khalil Gibran [7,16]

“God is cognizable only in the true monasticism!”
Vladimir Antonov

(From the film “Places of Power”)

I have already mentioned that from a certain point the current of my life clearly divided into two streams. And the one that flowed in the physical world, — was sharply slowing, stopping an unnecessary race for the illusory, transient values. And there was the other one, carrying me to the fullness of cognition of the Creator, — which was incredibly intense and accelerating. From a certain point the habitual course of events ceased to exist. Only the stages on the Path remained, which were determining changes in my life on the material plane.

A monk — is one who is completely devoting himself to God only: learning to cognize Him, loving Him and serving Him, through spiritual help to others.

I fully understood this formulation, outlined by Vladimir. But it is one thing — to understand the theory, but another and difficult task — to implement it in a real life situation.

So God created a situation where I had to make a definitive choice.

… I was combining the work that I loved in a movie studio with spiritual studies for quite a long time. But at one time, I was offered a job on a film which consisted in an expedition to Egypt (a free trip, wages in hard currency, excellent film director and actors). But on the other hand, there was — the Divine Teachers Ptahhotep and Elisabeth Haich Who were beginning to reveal to us ancient time esoteric mysteries from Egypt.

I understood that if I was to go on the expedition — these doors could never open themselves for me again, the ones that God was opening.

I did not even ask Vladimir about this situation: I knew that if I had, he would have said: “Of course, go, if it’s what you want!”… I had to make this decision myself. And it then became clear for me: I decided not to go and transferred all my currant affairs to a good person and then… I left the keys inside the wardrobe, and slammed the door which had two locks… The door of the world of illusions was closed forever for me…

Other ways of life, other than a life, completely dedicated to the service of God and consisting in moving on the Path to the fullness and realization of the meaning of one’s existence, was already unthinkable for me. God no longer needed to ask me about this, there was already no way back!

* * *

Being a monk — is a state of the soul, one on one with God. This is exactly what true monasticism is. It does not consist at all in things like removing ourselves from “the world”, or adopting new names, wearing special clothes, etc.

Vladimir always taught us to interact with God directly.

In particular, he sometimes suggested to each one of us to stay alone with God in the woods, drift apart to some distance, — to feel that there was only Him and each one of us.

Once, each of us even got to live in a complete forest “retreat” for a whole week. At that time, we got to look for places of power ourselves for the first time, and learned to feel the direct guidance of God.

It always has been an invaluable experience that allowed us to learn to have a more complete and intimate interaction with Him — the Loving Father, Strict Teacher, Only Beloved, Infinite Ocean of Love…

God Himself was unfolding situations in our lives so, that understanding came to us: in fact we should rely only on Him and no one else, not even incarnate Masters, not even on the most dear and closest companions on our Path.

* * *

At first, God was only telling me encouraging words on the early stages of the Path, dictating verses of love and talking to me about the bliss of Mergence with Him, but then, the more profound and mature my relationship became with Him, the more strict He became.

The closer you approach Him — bigger are the efforts He requires from His disciples.

I will give now some examples from my conversations with Him to illustrate this:

“There can be no meditation without love!

“Why is it that love sometimes disappears in us? — The reason is that some part of us-soul has not yet been cleansed from the vices and is not crystal clear, only that can merge with Me! The soul must be absolutely pure, fearless in its aspirations, gentle and transparent!

“This is — what you have to do for Me, you have to clean yourself from vices and rebuild yourself as a soul, filled with love, and offer yourself to Me.

“The things, that you do out of imitation and that are not coming from your own inner convictions, — are short-lived and fly off like a husk.

“’The ones who are led to Me by a leash’ cannot enter into Me!

“You must learn to rely only on Me — and be fearless! The heart, filled with My Love, cannot be afraid, neither for oneself nor for others!

“Understand that My concerns are not in the creation of comfort and peace for you or My other students. My concerns right now — are about you overcoming your “self”, throwing off “the human form” (See “The Teachings of Juan Matus” in [7].).

“Study, — for this sake — see My blessings in every situation. I created them for you and for all the living beings. Rain, cold, a train cancellation — everything can be turned into blessings! Learn to use every situation — to become better!

“Do not be afraid of failures! In defeats, the will to win becomes tempered! Those searching for an easy way cannot reach the end!

“Also understand: That I do not expect that you become perfect instantly. Accept calmly the fact that mistakes are inevitable for those who have the courage to act! Just remember that the wise do not repeat these mistakes twice.

“And remember: that I am — near you, I am — always ready to come to your aid!

“I teach you COOPERATION with Me! This is the only way you will learn to live and act in Mergence!

“Remember firmly and forever:

“The state of ‘nothing turns out’ — is a challenge! It is — a challenge to become better, to change — and to take the next step! Life of a spiritual warrior consists of challenges that he/she accepts as a great gift, — and comes out the winner in the battle against one’s own imperfection!

“Learn to act in Unity with Me! I do not accept your service as ‘a shudra’ any more, when one only acts as told. I expect from you a sense of initiative and creativity! And accept — only love as gifts!

“But do not deny the right of the ego to “self-determination”! Offer your gifts to Me, your ideas, your proposals. Then we will be able to work together you and I on the things that I have accepted. This joint work will teach you to Unite yourself with Me!

“You must not be like a chip of wood without any propulsion, helplessly floating on the waves of the ocean, and neither should you be like a ship, going against the waves and the wind, directing your course, — be like a wave, consubstantial with Me the Primordial Ocean! The waves go up and down — but still they never cease to be the Ocean, and when the calm comes — there are no waves anymore, only the Ocean remains!

“Correct yourself! Do not force Me to teach you through pain!

“Understand that when I have to teach you through pain, I always suffer more than you do! So please stop hurting Me!

“There are events that come into your life caused by the inertia and passivity of your life. If a person, embarked on the spiritual Path, for a very long time, and has not yet changed his/her way of life, then the consequences of such mismatch concerning the growth of the soul in opposition to the old shackles of the material plan, cause events that break down those old shackles and old foundations through cataclysms.

“It is required to always have a more intensive and deeper life in Me, with Me! Fearlessness in letting go of all obstacles is required! The process of the dissolution of negative karma can be done slowly. But we can live in such a way, that the manifestation of that bad karma can be diminished in the material plan — through the right actions and Mergence with Me in Love! This applies to everyone who has spiritual aspirations and wants to achieve more than just a ‘life of righteousness’. This is — for those who follow the Straight Path!

“It all depends on the size of your vessel (Size of the developing individual consciousness.): how much you are able to contain. I am willing to offer you the whole Ocean of Me, the whole Ocean of My Love, Wisdom and Power! I am willing to give Myself — to you, and everyone… but you cannot contain the Ocean. Only the Ocean can contain Itself — you, and all that exists. And at the moment, when your vessel will become identical to My Depths and large enough in size for the preservation of your awareness in Me, then I will be able to remove this vessel, to break out the illusion of your separate existence. You will then make the experience that there is only Me, only I exist, that you are Me!

“For now, since you cannot always be in Me, try to surrender yourself to Me, and the best way to do that — is to offer selfless service to Me! This is — the best way of living, allowing one to acquire missing qualities such as: energy, self-discipline, calm, non-attachment to earthly things, broad-mindedness, ability to think quickly etc. And all actions should be done on the background of bhakti, love-devotion to God. This in return allows us to erase vices from the soul and help in the dissolution of the remaining negative karma from the past. This allows us to grow properly. Those who serve Me and forget about themselves, will be brought closer to Me. I surround them with the love and care of a Father and Mother. I stay with them always.

Total Reciprocity* should become the background state. Always feel yourself dissolved in the Ocean of Me! Being able to perceive Me fully, My Will — can only be done on the background of peace and dissolution. If you master this — you will become One with Me.

“Only love can be dissolved in Love! Only in mutual love can Peace be possible, Gentleness, Mergence of consciousnesses! Everything else — the garbage, let it emerge to the surface and be carried away by the current!

“You — are in the Ocean of Me: in the Ocean of Pure Love! Become this Ocean!

“… Contentment with oneself, over one’s own successes — prevents the subtle and pure perception of Me. It is possible to immerse into Me up to infinity, and then come back into a comfortable ‘human form’, without discomfort, or contradiction between these states. But the immobility of the ‘I’ in the absence of efforts to immerse it into the Depths of Me — over time becomes “shackles on one’s feet”.

“One, who stands still, — moves away from Me. This is like a pregnancy: it is fine, for the fetus to stand still while it grows, but when the mother is ready to give birth things should be moving — otherwise? (This is the “birth” in the Abode of the Creator: See the Gospel of Philip in [7]).

“You cannot sit on your achievements, when the level of your previous achievements forms a marshy lake with stable banks, — instead of the mighty river flowing into the Ocean of Me!

“The Mergence with Me, that does not bring one to go deeper and to expand in constant search of new opportunities to give love to Me and Me to others, — after some time ceases to be in Mergence with Me, for I do not let you stagnate.

“One, who thinks, that the Goal is now reached and that it is now possible to “rest on his laurels”, — enters into the path of degradation.

“The Mergence which does not become deeper — diminishes!

“Love that does not increase, — dims!

“The task — is to become Me in its entirety! And you will not get your way through “pleasing” Me with small things! The stage of ‘shudra’ has ended for you a long time ago! You have the option to take a new direction in life — if you do not, your present incarnation may end!

“And I do not expect at all that you will be able to take this new direction the first time you try. I never condemn those, who fall, rise and start all over again!

“Bless the difficulties, for through them we grow!”


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Divine Teachers

April 13, 2016

Anna Zubkova

Disembodied Divine Teachers, Who in the aggregate are called the Holy Spirit (Brahman) — can manifest Themselves in many forms. They — are Those, Who throughout the existence of the universe, were able to merge with the Ocean of the Primordial Consciousness. Divine Souls, Who became consubstantial with the Creator, and then could manifest Themselves as Divine Teachers, Who are emanating from Him. They implement His Will in His Creation.

Some of Them are well known, and Their Teachings became the property of humanity. But there are also Those, Who were not known by many people, and because of that, the way They lived, and what They said, — did not get preserved in people’s memory.

Sometimes They reincarnate again into human bodies. They then are called Avatars, Messiahs, or Christs. They do this out of love for us: They then are able to help us better.

I would like to talk a little bit more about my own experience of communicating with Them.

* * *

I was living in this world, without knowing anything about the lives here on Earth of Sathya Sai Baba or David Copperfield. I had never even heard of them before my acquaintance with the books of Vladimir Antonov!

My acquaintance with Sathya Sai Baba started when reading Vladimir’s book Sathya Sai Baba — the Christ of our days. While I was reading this book, created with His blessing and blessed by Him afterward — in a published version — in His Indian ashram — I felt His Divine presence. It was the same when subsequently — I read His other books and books speaking about Him. With His immediate help the understanding of many different sentences were starting to unfold their real meaning to me, giving me a much deeper understanding than the one that I would normally have had.

In particular, He, helped me through directing my thoughts in the right direction while flooding me with His Love, or by explaining the drawbacks that I should eliminate right now.

And sometimes He created small miracles, by allowing, for example, to find and buy books about Him that were not reprinted for many years. Once, He put into my hands exactly two copies, one for Maria and one for me, — which were the only ones that “accidentally” were available at the seller. Or a stranger in a bookstore would suddenly give me His portrait…

I was already confidently feeling the presence of Sathya Sai in my life — and was anticipating my first meeting with Him at His place of power, as did, probably, His devoted followers who were going to India to see Him.

… Vladimir took us to one of Sathya Sai Baba’s favorite places — a place, where His Mahadouble can be easily seen and where it is especially easy to communicate with Him.

When we got there we took off our backpacks, had a little break after a long trip and then stationed ourselves next to His Mahadouble — Vladimir initially explained: Baba is approaching and is extending His Hands to us, He is touching our anahatas in us with them. After that he proposed to us to communicate with Him directly by ourselves.

I clung with all my being, with all my consciousness to the enormous Body of Consciousness of Sathya Sai and told Him, how I loved Him, how I would try to learn very, very hard… Then I ran out of words — and it became surprisingly blissful… I was completely surprised to hear His voice distinctly, addressing me — me who knew nothing and who was not able to do much yet, who was standing just at the very beginning of the Path. He said to me:

“We have — one Heart for all: the Heart of God. This is your “Highest Self”, this is what you will cognize, by becoming Him.”

I remembered those words my entire life. I lived with them, was repeating them like a mantra, like a password, that would let me be allowed into the Abode of the Creator.

And some time afterwards, while we were taking lunch, Sathya Sai Baba, Jesus, and Krishna came to bless us. When Baba approached me He stood behind me and cuddled me against Himself as a little girl. Something in me just “overflowed over the edge” … Then I saw clearly His large smiling Face bent over me.

Sathya Sai became for us since that moment one of Those Who is and will always be with us. He responded immediately. For example, He kept telling me “Do not fear anything, I am here, near you, always with you. Your Baba”. And those words “Your Baba”, were the ones that I kept hearing from the depths of my heart. They always helped me to find strength, courage, and patience and to understand what I had to do.

* * *

Our studying continued. Vladimir looked at us cleverly and said:

“Well, what should we do now? Try this!” — and he then gave us a task.

So we got acquainted with Huang Di — one of the first Avatars of the Earth, Who embodied several times in China. It was He, through Lao Tzu, Who dictated Tao Te Ching. He was “the Tenant”, Who, loving various extravagant jokes, gave secret knowledge to the group of Nagual of Juan Matus.

* * *

A forest trail. Around us — thick high spruces. Only the singing of robins and finches were braking the silence.

Vladimir introduced us to Huang Di. In particular, he told us how, once, Huang Di condensed His Body of Consciousness so that It became visible even for very beginners.

Vladimir then mentioned to us that it was possible for us to invite Huang Di into ourselves in the anahata and start chatting with Him.

… I could not see the face of Huang Di in my anahata in the beginning, so I began to imagine His image from the descriptions that Vladimir gave us — my art education allowed me to do this without any difficulty. A mongoloid type of face with broad cheekbones… Suddenly His eyes came to life and sparkled with joy, expressing a smile filled with tenderness… His face showed a real life mimicry!

I tried to speak with Him, but could not hear anything: due to the excitement I was not able to be relaxed enough to perceive the response. Then I asked Huang Di to answer by winking His eyes: I asked Him that if the answer was “yes” — to wink with his left eye, and with the right one — if the answer was “no” . And… — it worked!…

I asked Him a few questions and then, by the same “winking” system and having obtained His consent, I clutched to His neck by the hands of consciousness and asked:

“Let’s go behind the ‘Mirror’!…”

And then I got into the state of warm, dense peace of the eon of protoprakriti*.

I continued “to ride” on Huang-Di’s neck, over and over again, and asked Him “to roll” me by eons, until I could hear very clearly:

“You’re just lazy!”

But this was said so gently that I even could not get grieve. So I continued to enjoy with this amazing experience of cognition of the real God — Living, Gentle, Merry — with all His Universal Might!

However, remembering about this, I felt “uncomfortable” due to my own effrontery. How could I take “advantage of God” so easily? He was the One in my then notions, Who should only be prayed to on my knees! But what was I suppose to do?! Huang Di was here — Alive, Real! And falling on my knees before Him… — did not make any sense: He did not need this at all! And how can one even try to find the knees of the spiritual heart: if it has only the hands of love!…

* * *

Time was flying by in a strange way. On one hand, in the material world, I was living my ordinary life as usual with my work, family, and other relatives, whom by the way were all waiting: for the moment when all this “folly” would end, how long could it last?! And on the other hand I was living in a world, where only God existed. And Vladimir led us there very quickly, not giving us any breaks. Only a few months had passed by after the beginning of the classes!

… Vladimir took us to see the spring sunrise during the time of the black grouses lekking. We had been driving since the evening before, and were without tents.

… After leaving the bus, we quickly got immersed into the silence of the night forest. The starry sky, it seemed, was laying down on the Earth, a cozy blanket filled with the stars. I felt like I could touch the sky with my hands or grow my consciousness to such an extent, that I could just touch the thickness of the sky near me, which was filled with starlights. And through looking from the infinity, I was able to feel as if the little planet Earth was swimming in a soft universal expanse.

Huang Di came — and the whole infinity got filled with His presence. The coolness of the night suddenly disappeared, and everything around us got filled with warm Peace, saturated with His Love.

Happiness was filling me to the brim and was ready to splash out of me! But the Peace of Huang Di was stronger, and therefore my happiness had to burn as a tiny star in the Ocean of Universal Huang Di.

… We arrived to a place where we could spend the night. We were gathering firewood in complete darkness. When, at last, the bonfire broke out, Vladimir invited all of us to lie down comfortably and sleep for three hours before dawn, until the moment when we would go closer to the grouses.

I was not able to sleep, I was asking myself: “Who am I? Where am I? What am I doing on this Earth? Why am I here? What should I do here?” — How many times had Vladimir suggested to us not to forget about these questions! But now — it was not only necessary to ask them to ourselves, we also had to answer before God — directly, with full awareness and with full responsibility: “I am — a part of the Absolute, a tiny droplet of the Living Consciousness. I am — that which is embodied in order to grow and realize its own consubstantiality with The One, to Whom we should strive.” And now I must tell Him about my own readiness to go to Him without hesitation. For there is nothing in life more important than this Goal!

Huang Di connected to my experiences and reminded me about an idea that I had read in one of Vladimir books: God never gives to humans unbearable tasks for them; but they must not continue to live in the dreams of something more**, not making every effort, that depends on them, for reaching the Goal, — it is necessary to not only make a choice in favor of God, we also have to note everything in our own life, preventing us to go to the limit of our own possibilities daily, hourly…

… I slept a little bit while holding the hand of Huang Di.

… We got up before dawn and, after we silently collected our things, we moved to the place, where grouses would be singing. In the predawn mist there were flying woodcocks, gently flapping their wings over our heads. Then the snipes began to sing their delightful songs, rising up, and then falling down and cutting the thick morning air with their splayed tail feathers, which were making the inimitable sound of bleating.

We also listened to the grouses…

… The sun was rising higher and higher and illuminating the fields. Birds were filling the space with their voices. Each species of birds was participating in the general chorus at a specific moment in relation to the quality of the brightness of the light. Males of all species were trying their best to attract females through their songs — so as a result of their love, children would be born, and then they would learn the songs of their own species from their fathers.

Vladimir told us all about this, and taught us to distinguish the voices of the birds.

And then he depicted, through compacting his consciousness into a new form, how grouses sing: so that we could see it more closely.

… If some of you have seen the actor Lebedev, depicting a very old horse in the play “Strider”, then you know that a person can portray a horse like no horse can.

So now try to imagine a man on a small hillock among the fields, who slowly turns into a huge singing grouse. He was tilting his head and torso, spreading his wings, which were almost touching the ground, spreading, as a fan, his large feather tail made of black and blue tinted feathers — and started “to warm up”, by shaking his torso and uttering grouse’s “chufykaning” sounds that later were growing into a jubilant song…

Then Vladimir straightened up, took a human form again, and laughed — and we all laughed with him.

… After this we looked at the Sunrise on a hill inside the Mahadouble of Sathya Sai Baba, Who had emanated from the depths of the boundless Ocean of the Creator.

… After that we went swimming in the icy water of the river, wich had barely got rid of its ice, and then took a sunbath under the already summer’s sun. All the experiences, tensions and delights of the night were washed away by a new day, which we had to live for God, here and now.


* About the eons (lokas) of the multidimensional space, look in [7] and other books by Vladimir Antonov.

** Words of one of the earliest songs of Boris Grebenshchikov.


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The Choice

February 23, 2016

Anna Zubkova

“The free will of a human being,
as a whole, manifests itself in one’s own choices,
and determines in which part of the Absolute
he/she will continue his/her existence”.

Giant [7]

One day, we worked and then were resting on the floodplain of a small river. It was an amazingly beautiful place! The little river which spreads here, on a huge open space during spring, was calmly flowing down the stream. Meadows surrounded us with soft waves of grass almost to the horizon.

This — was a special place by the quality of its energy: a place of power. “River” of the Holy Spirit, called Pranava, smooth and quiet current spread all over this huge open space.

Near us two shepherds were passing by. They went into the Stream of Living Divine Light, but didn’t see or feel it. As the majority of people, they didn’t feel anything special there…

They wished us a pleasant rest and accepted us as fishermen. They told us, that fishing at Vuoksi is better than fishing here… From this started a conversation…

Vladimir:

— Thanks, but we don’t eat meat and fish. For God commanded people: “Do not kill!”

Surprise was the first reaction of the shepherds. Then one of them, having waved away with a hand gesture went his way, but the second didn’t agree in any way:

— How is it possible not to kill? After all, I – must eat! I work a lot and can’t live without meat!

Vladimir:

— Animals feel pain and die in anguish. What right do we have to kill — for the sake of satisfying our own gustatory whims? People may live well and work, without eating meat.

— I kill them myself, quickly and without any pain! I do not want them to be tormented: I know what pain is! — the shepherd objected.

— Everyone makes a choice: to kill or not to kill, to eat or not to eat, to love or hate… But that dertermines how we live on Earth during our lifetime in the body, — and that’s only a short period of the souls life — but it defines our destinies now, during the lifetime in the body, and after his death.

— But how do you know: what will happen after death? — the shepherd asked having become interested.

— Yes, I know. I am a scientist and I have made such researches. I know that souls living in malice and hatred, turn out to be among those like themselves after death in hell, and, on the contrary the souls who live in love and goodness, — provide themselves heavenly existence after the death of the body.

We spend relatively very little time on Earth in incarnate states. And the way we live now, defines our own destinies for the future.

— And how do you know this? Have you been there — have you been in afterlife?

— Yes, I have.

— And came back — why? Didn’t you like it there?

— No, I did like it.

— Then why?

— God returned me.

— And what? You are going to teach us?

— No, not teach, but to explain to those who want to know.

… Then the shepherd started to blame the state for all his troubles: that it was guilty of all…

But Vladimir objected:

— Yes, it is guilty in many respects. But each person is responsible for him/herself before God.

There are two most important “milestones” in life for each human: God and death of the body.

And the way we live this life — is just our choice, ours — and nobody else’s! No one and nothing can be an excuse for the way we live, what we choose, and what we do in this life…

* * *

Once, as if by accident, Vladimir and I met too. This was the moment when my whole life “turned around”…

He then said almost nothing, just mentioned his books…

But by reading them, I realized that… beside me here was a man who knew Jesus perfectly and also cognized the Creator! … His books showed the Path of transforming oneself as a soul up to the very end: until gaining true Perfection!

… God for me, thanks to him, now ceased to be “distant,” “unknowable,” “unavailable”. He became my Real Loving Teacher!

But I will try to tell you about this in detail…

* * *

Each person makes his own choices all the time — how he lives in general and what for, how he or she acts in a set of concrete situations… Sometimes these choices — are conscious, and sometimes — purely reflex: or the results of formed patterns from our upbringing, or on the basis of imitation…

It can be similar to watching TV: someone can choose to watch a philosophical program, or about medicine, about natural sciences — or an action film, a horror film, a sugary melodrama… And to some people — even this doesn’t matter: they just need something “showing pictures and making sounds”…

So all of us constantly decide how we live during each following piece of our lives.

The person, who follows the spiritual Path, makes such choices consciously. And God then can actively direct his movement: that person and God begin to work in cooperation.

to be continued


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How God Can Be Cognized. Book 2. Autobiographies of the Disciples of God

February 11, 2016

Anna Zubkova

“One can traverse this infinitely long Path
during one single life if one concentrates one’s own will
solely on this purpose”.

Elizabeth Haich [27]

Instead of an Introduction

I would love to write a book about Vladimir Antonov — the spiritual Master, who has devoted his life, the life of a scientist, — to the research and analysis of the whole world of religious and esoteric experience. He himself has overcome the whole path to the cognition of God the Father in his Abode and has attained Mergence with Him. He wrote dozens of books on this topic. He has developed the methodology of the Straight Path leading to the cognition of the Creator — giving us clear and steady steps, allowing those, who have chosen God as their only Goal, as the highest meaning of their life, and as their only Love, — to follow this Path and succeed.

But I don’t have the abilities and skills to write a book about him, I can only tell you how I went myself up the steps of this Path, how I fell, got up and continued. I will try to tell you about what a great pleasure it was — to cognize God, what a great happiness it is — to love God! I will try to demonstrate, by the examples of my own life, — how gently and carefully God leads those, who are giving their trust to Him.

But everything that I have understood, comprehended and done on this Path, was done under the sensitive, tender, and sometimes almost unnoticed guidance coming from Vladimir Antonov.

Acting in the best Indian traditions, I should dedicate my work to the “lotus feet of my Guru”… But the “lotus feet” are shod in worn-out running shoes and rubber boots, worn windbreaker at summer and no less worn quilted jacket at winter are his monk’s garment. Behind his shoulders — a backpack. He goes and leads those, who can and want to go with him, those, for whom the Love of God became an inextinguishable need to approach Him, to merge with Him, those, for whom it became the unique purpose, of this life on earth…

I can only tell you how it happened and how it occurred to me…

* * *

My perception of Vladimir in the first months of apprenticeship consisted of a mixture of love, awe, almost fear and an infinite gratitude for the miracle of being able to perceive the living reality of God that he gave us. Even now, many years later, after the fear and the awe gave place to the surprisingly close, kinship relations, such as those that are formed between us and our non-incarnate Divine Teachers, — it still has not became usual and ordinary.

His soft, smooth flowing manner of speaking, of moving — was strikingly different from anything I’ve ever seen. It wasn’t at all a slowness or sluggishness! But that, manifesting as words and movements, was only a small part of his being, giving the opportunity to the incredible power of Peace to rise from the Depths and affect us.

He explained — not only by words, and we perceived — not only with our minds. We studied — as consciousnesses at once…

The long-term habit of living in the body — as a body — needed a radical change. And Vladimir knocked patterns of behavior and thinking, inherent in us, — by an inimitable manner to joke, with bright examples taken from the life of wildlife and people and with unexpected turns of meditations…

Vladimir always succeeded in making our life harmoniously filled: with great meditations and deep dissolving peace, with beauty and harmony of nature, with fun and jokes and new variants of service to God…

to be continued


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Agni Yoga: Psychoenergetical Work

October 12, 2015

Approaching Shambhala

“Shambhala is an essential place where the spiritual world unites with the material one.” [40:Leaves of Morya’s Garden. Illumination]

Shambhala is the place where abide the Hierarchs Who guide the life on the Earth. It can be found, among other places, in the center of the Earth’s structure [2], in the multidimensional depth. Shambhala is the Focus of the Main Magnet for all human souls that have to enter this highest, subtlest layer of the multidimensional space by undergoing “transmutation”. In Shambhala, spiritual adepts cognize the Baptism in the Divine Fire [3] and, having settled there, merge forever with the Primordial Consciousness.

One cognizes Shambhala by expanding the spiritual heart to such an extent that it encompasses all the subtlest worlds including the Fiery World of Shambhala. Further expansion of the heart allows one to fill with it the Infinity [2,3].

How can one begin walking the Path to God, to the Highest Hierarchs, to Shambhala?

First, one needs to perform ethical self-correction. It has to include a fiery aspiration to the Perfection and active service to the Evolution through service to people.

Second, one has to put in order the body and its energy structures, to gain health.

Both these points necessarily imply switching to killing-free nutrition: i.e. refusal of using bodies of killed animals for food [1]. This is important from the ethical standpoint, first of all. Without correct nutrition, one cannot gain stable health, cannot advance to God. (See more details on the correct nutrition in [6]).

Those capable then come to the next stages of the psychoenergetical work, which include meditations and development of the chakras. If this work is performed correctly, it results in gradual “transmutation” of the consciousness: in its refinement up to the state of the Divine Fire.

“… Humanity must become aware of its Fiery center of the Hierarchy, which guides people and imbues them with a powerful leading principle” [2].

One perceives the first contacts with God as a blessing coming from above [2]. This is also a manifestation of the Holy Spirit’s caring about us — His encouraging signs.

Then one has to learn not only to feel His Flows but also to merge with Him outside the body. This is realized first through the meditation Pranava [6]. By practicing such a Mergence, one undergoes gradual crystallization of the consciousness, i.e. direct growth of its volume and power.


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Agni Yoga: Psychoenergetical Work

October 5, 2015

Healing

The mechanism of the development of many diseases, including cancer, is an intrusion of dark energies into one’s body through its weakened energy structures [3].

Many mental diseases of the schizophrenia type are caused by a dark entity settling in the body of a vicious person. The typical karmic reasons for this are betrayal or carelessness. [2]

“Those of pure heart are invulnerable to the sickness of possession, but putrid hearts can attract awful entities.” [3]

The situation of a mental disease of that kind is almost hopeless, but in case of a corporal disease caused by such factors one can resort to bioenergetical correction. [2; 40:AUM; see also 15]

Yes, cancer is an affliction of mankind, and it will grow. But those who do not eat meat, drink alcohol, use tobacco and drugs, who maintain pure psychic energy — such people should not fear cancer. [40:Agni Yoga]

Treating cancer in its initial stage can be surgical. However, the treatment is meaningless if such a person after being cured continues to live a vicious life. [40:Agni Yoga]

As for infectious diseases, one has to know that they should be treated in a combined manner: using both bioenergetical and medical means [1].

In any case — including energy attacks of dark entities — one can protect the organism by creating a Fiery Shield, i.e. by uniting oneself with the Flame of a Divine Teacher.* These battles are initiated by God with the purpose of teaching us to come closer to Him. If one does not have the Shield yet, the protection can be ensured by a protective network formed by the chakras filled with energy [2,3].

Every one of us has to accept that the health is necessary, first, for successful advancement along the Path of self-development and thus requires our attention, and, second, it is directly related to the spiritual efforts that we make.

The healing of oneself or of other people has to be comprehensive. It should begin with an analysis of the karmic reasons and removing them through repentance. Only then (or along with penitential work), one may perform psychoenergetical, medical, and other kinds of healing.

It is also important to remember that God always controls everything that happens to us. And He expects correct decisions from us. Such decisions can take place only if we have learned to view the situation not in the egocentric way but from the standpoint of God, i.e. feeling not ourselves but Him as the Regulator, the Goal, the Meaning, and the Center of everything happening in the universe.

“Verily, karma is frightening only to those who indulge in idleness” [2].

“Observe how each deed influences the fluctuations of karma.

“One can see how betrayal in all its forms causes a quick formation of (negative) karma. One can learn much from such observations. It is a pity to see people harming themselves! One can see how a viper strikes the inner being during these self-defeats. Nothing can avert the consequences, for the cause and effect are too close.” [2]

On the contrary: “The growth of the spiritual warriors as consciousnesses is verily a celebration for Us!” [2]

The one who encompasses active, creative love — conquers the negative karma and cognizes the Divine Fire. And “… the cosmic daring suffuses (such) a carrier of Fire” [2].

“Among the kinds of courage, the most invincible is the courage of the flaming heart when, with full resolve, with full awareness of the feat, the warrior knows only the Path of advance.

“Only the extreme degree of the courage of desperation is comparable to the courage of the flaming heart. With the same speed as the desperation flees from the past — the courage of the flaming heart advances to the future.

“Thus, if one lacks the courage of the flaming heart, let there be the courage of desperation! Only thus warriors can achieve victory when the pressure is great.

“All other kinds of courage are of no significance, for there is half-decisiveness in them. One has to avoid this quality, next to cowardice and betrayal.” [2]

“Which way is the most certain on the Path to Us? The most certain way is the selflessness of the feat! The most wondrous fire is the flame of the heart filled with love for the Hierarchy!” [2]

“Help each other, harken! Help in small and in great! … Help wherever the hand can reach, wherever a thought can fly! … The heart aflame with help is Our heart!” [2]


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Agni Yoga: Hard Karma

August 9, 2015

The life of many people on the Earth is full of suffering. However, it is their destiny (karma) created by the ethical mistakes which they made in the contemporary life or in the past lives. This situation is favorable for them to begin seeking the way out of the desperate situation and thus to begin changing themselves. If one does not do this, the situation becomes worse.

“… Human souls go through the ‘purgatory’ on the Earth.” [3]

(Another possible reason for our afflictions is God’s usage of them as a means for pointing out to His students a necessity for a radical change in their “course of life” [12]).

In any case — during whatever calamity and affliction — one has to heed the guidance of God more than usual, to get rid of one’s lower self, and try to stay closer to Him.

“One must understand that imperil (the psychic energy of hatred, anger) and coarse worldly desires produce severe ulcers… Ulcers of the spirit are carried over to the other world if they are not healed on the Earth. Liberation from the material body does not mean deliverance from spiritual ulcers.” [3]

“Forces serving the Light do not interfere with one’s karma, as some who are not aware of the power of karma believe. The Forces of Light observe human actions, suggesting the direction yet not interfering with life.” [3]

Only those spiritually ignorant become embittered by earthly suffering, thus dooming themselves to hell [3].

Liberation from the shackles of hell is achieved through repentance (conscious regret about misdeeds, its purpose is to learn to avoid repeating mistakes), through the work on growing positive qualities in oneself and approaching God. They who achieved with their developed spiritual hearts the Mergence with the Divine Fire become fully liberated from their bad karma.

God says: “I am the best Help to you!” [40:Leaves of Morya’s Garden. Call].

The best remedy for all afflictions is Mergence with Him. If we stay in this Mergence, we have His Shield. “All dangers are trifling. Even an encounter with strong dark entities is not dangerous if one maintains a firm connection with the Hierarchy!” [40:Heart]

In order to come to the Mergence, one has to wage war, the war against one’s own imperfections.

“Let people realize (now) the surrounding danger. … Life in the subtle world (between incarnations) is incomparably longer. One has to be prepared for it!” [40:AUM]

“… It is terrible to be afraid of the Light, because the Fire turns then into a devouring flame!” [40:AUM]

“It is so difficult for people to say the simplest law: ‘Blessed are the obstacles — thanks to them we grow.’ People admit tests easily until encountering them. No one is willing to quicken his or her advancement through obstacles!

“It is still more intolerable to humanity to hear about the usefulness of suffering. The reason is not that people fear pain or discomfort, but that they cannot think of a life beyond earthly existence! They are ready to suffer the discomfort of an overnight stay for the sake of tomorrow’s celebration, but they do not want to contrast the earthly life with the Infinity!

“Fear of the Infinity is the most shameful manifestation of a reasonable being!” [40:AUM]


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Agni Yoga: Path to God — Ethics

July 2, 2015

The meaning of human life consists in the growth of individual consciousnesses [2], that have to develop and merge ultimately into the Creator.

First everyone develops in the usual worldly activity. One’s quick advancement becomes possible with the development of an intense aspiration to empirical cognition of God.

This aspiration has to become passionate, “fiery” — then such a person receives full support of the Hierarchy of the Forces of Light.

“… On the Fiery Path there is no loneliness nor emptiness, there is only a breaking away from the earthly world and an irresistible attraction to the Fiery world!” [3]

“The daring ones know that the joy of spirit is found only in achievement. Thus they do not seek recognition from others, for their achievement is a crown woven by labor and striving!

“Only the heroes of spirit know the true attainment!

“Thus the daring ones will be freed from the selfhood. They know true service for the good of humanity.

“On the Path to the Fiery world, let us remember daring!” [3]

“Aspiration with the heart to the Lord is the first condition on the Path to the Fiery world!” [3]

The path of advancement through the stages of self-development implies, first of all, an ethical transformation of oneself. It also includes formation of correct, strong aspiration and ridding oneself of such vices as:

— laziness,

— violence,

— capability of deceiving and betraying,

— coarseness,

— selfishness,

— self-service,

— vindictiveness,

— arrogance,

— egocentrism,

— seeking recognition from others,

— capability of entering such coarse emotional states as:

· anger,

· irritation,

· jealousy,

· sorrow,

· feeling offended,

— using bodies of killed animals for food,

— using alcohol, tobacco, and other drugs.

Of the positive qualities that have to be developed, the following can be mentioned:

— benevolence,

compassion,

— faithfulness to God,

— yielding oneself to Him,

— aspiration to cognition of Him and to Mergence with Him,

— striving to help other beings,

— aspiration to creativity,

— selflessness,

— admiring the beautiful,

— energy in the work of service and in self-development,

— control of one’s own emotions, refusal of coarseness, cultivation of subtlety,

— aspiration to knowledge, understanding the meaning of life,

— development of subtle and wise power,

— possessing gratefulness as a quality of the soul,

— careful attitude towards one’s own health, since it is needed for successful spiritual work and service.

It is through such self-development that we make the Divine Fire “non-burning” for ourselves [3].

The most important method of realization of the majority of these ethical principles is the development of the spiritual heart. Opening and growth of the spiritual heart becomes the most important factor, the base of the entire spiritual Path and gives one, among other things, the ability to meditate correctly. And meditation is the main means of the development of the consciousness, practical cognition of God, and Mergence with Him.


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Agni Yoga

June 28, 2015

The term Agni Yoga was introduced to the western public by the Roerichs — Nicholas and Helena. They learned it in their expedition across Central Asia from mountain dwellers. This term means “Mergence with Divine Fire” or “Path to such Mergence”. Fire in this context is a flame-like state of the Highest Divine Consciousness. The Divine Consciousness can assume this form when It enters Its Creation.

The Roerichs developed the Teachings of Agni Yoga and brought them to Russia and other countries of Europe and America. And now the term Agni Yoga is firmly associated with their names.

The Roerichs were a remarkable couple: he was a zealous traveler and talented painter, she was his constant companion. Helena Roerich possessed a prophetic skill — the ability to converse with God. Records of these holy conversations were collected in fourteen volumes titled Living Ethics.

What do these records represent? They are very non-uniform, some parts of the text are hard to comprehend, some parts are not edited literally, profound truths are mixed sometimes with jokes of God or with long series of meaningless phrases. Why do they look so?

The point is that according to the intent of God these records were not meant for publication in their original form: He suggested publishing only thematic selections of them [3].

The reason for the qualitative diversity of the text is the following. God, with the purpose of training the prophetic skill of Helena Roerich, insisted that she make systematic, everyday records [3]. However, it did not happen always that there was actual material for the current moment. And then Helena Roerich, waiting for words from the Lord, was given almost meaningless series of beautiful phrases. It is a typical case in prophetic contacts.

And such jokes as: the legs feel cold because the entire energy has been used for the kindling of the heart — were meant only for encouraging the tired travelers in hard moments.

Another point that needs to be mentioned about these texts is the broader meaning of the terms fire and fiery, which was expanded to psychoenergetical processes and phenomena. It was done with the purpose of filling the readers with the spirit of struggle. However, to understand these Teachings correctly, one has to differentiate the concepts of the Divine Fire — and the “fiery” manifestations of the psychical activity of people.

The texts of Living Ethics and expressive paintings of Nicholas Roerich are filled with “fiery” energy. It was one of the most distinctive features of the spiritual movement initiated through the Roerichs.

The movement of Agni Yoga contributed a lot to the spiritual awakening of many people, first of all in Russia where there was mainly atheism instilled by the Communist Party and religious ideology degraded to the level of fairy tales. In most valuable precepts found in the books of Living Ethics, God once again presented people with explanations about what is God, what is man, what is the Evolution, what is the meaning of life. He showed people the possibility of attaining Perfection and abandoning the cycle of suffering, the way to cognition of God and to the highest self-realization in Mergence with Him.

The Teachings of Agni Yoga were given “not as a soporific but for saturating the entire life!” [2]

Let us consider now the main points of the Teachings of Agni Yoga.

to be continued


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